She has been most cross with me for refusing to leave the room considering how ardently I begged only a few days ago yet I see no point in it. Not any longer. There is nothing of value outside as the storm has continued with a vengeance the likes of which I have never seen. Further, I am growing increasingly fond of this room despite the small cabinet. Or perhaps it is because of the small cabinet. It occupies my thoughts at all times. I lay on the futon and admire the detail hour after hour. I start from the bottom and work my way up, paying attention to every detail, any chip in the jade, every small crack in the gold, and those yellow tinted eyes. I find they make me less afraid if I meet their gaze.
The vast majority of the time I have lain here. I feel so awfully lazy but Kagome has made a point now to force me to go with her on her visits to the infirmed. By the time we return, however, it is all I can do to fall asleep much less eat or bathe as she wants me to. It is getting to be a very great effort for me to think straight but I am told it is just nerves from being idle. These past few days, however, upon seeing my distress, Kagome has allowed me to rest my head in her lap as she fondles my ears and coos words of comfort. It seems she has finally realized something is truly wrong with me but I fear it is too late.
She whispers about how much she loves me. That I am the most important thing in her world and that I must take care of myself for her sake, and force myself to get better. She insists she knows I have it within me to recover as I am the most stubborn being she has ever met. My stubbornness and my strength of will she mentions frequently. As she runs her fingers through my hair, she insists no one but myself can help me improve. Her presence is my only comfort but even that does not stop those horrid eyes from mocking me. Of course I never mention them anymore but I keep watch of it all the same. There are things in those eyes that nobody knows but me, nor will they ever. Behind those eyes I can see a consciousness that becomes clearer every day.