Epilogue

It'd been nine months since I'd left Edward.

For the first two months I couldn't hear him at all and I knew it was my fault. I'd hurt him even though I didn't want to. I now sent the family letters, to let them know how I was doing. If I found little things that reminded me of them, I would send it. Recently I'd sent Esme some seeds of a rare flower and the instructions on how to care for it as long as some cloths for Alice and a medical book I knew Carlisle didn't have. Then, I wrote a personal letter to Edward. For his eyes only, and as far as I could tell, only he'd seen them. Well Alice too, but she couldn't help that.

Every time I sent Edward a letter, my ability to hear him was clear. Then it would fade and I would have to make another letter and so on and so on.

My time away from the family had cleared some of my thoughts. I spent some time with the Delani's, but couldn't stay to long. It was hard dealing with their lust for men, and Tanya's craving for Edward's attention. She was worse than Rosalie.

But now, I was close to Forks. Much closer than I had ever planned to be. The forest surrounded me in a thick green sheet and the rain soaked my cloths.

I'd been buying new cloths when they were needed. I never had more then one outfit at a time, but it didn't really matter. No one saw me. I hadn't had contact with human's everyday of these nine months. I'd seen more vampires than I'd wanted to as well. The last one's I'd seen were a group of three nomads. Two men and one woman. It was easy to tell who was in the lead, and how they were pretending it was the other way around. Their names were James, Victoria, and Laurent. I'd only seen them for an hour, to make sure they weren't going near Forks. That was the last thing the clan needed, a group of Nomadic vampires.

I was careful not to be in Edward's hearing range, that's not what I was here for. I didn't even know why I was hear.

A longing maybe.

I'd been away for to long and my head was telling me to return. To be part of the Cullen clan once more. Now that I was able too, it was very tempting. But I was afraid that everything wouldn't be as it was before.

Edward hadn't moved on though. He wasn't depressed, but he wasn't fully happy. Maybe I could go just for a few days. Just to see everyone in person. But then Esme would make me stay, she would take my leaving again the hardest. She'd taken it the hardest the first time too. She never wanted to lose any of us.

I was going to go back, I really was. But then I saw her.

Bella Swan.

She shot to my mind through Edward's. His curiosity pulsated through me and kept me right in my spot. She was different, he couldn't hear her at all.

Edward continued to try and hear her, looking her straight into her eyes trying to attach himself to her mind.

What a fool.

The thoughts continued until Biology, and that's when everything changed. She passed him and his senses flared. My hands clenched to fist as his hand shattered the corner of the desk. He fixed it quickly while I did not un-tense. His mouth filled with venom and all of his thoughts were set on killing the girl and how he would do it.

"Be strong Edward." I gritted through my teeth.

He didn't hear me. My mind was too far away. He wouldn't have heard me anyway.

The whole period went that way, and in the end he did nothing.

A smile stretched across my face as he left the classroom without harming a single soul. He was strong enough. My smile faded as his next thoughts entered my mind. He was going to leave everyone for this girl. He didn't want to hurt her, to be a monster. Why couldn't I be like that? Why couldn't I have just said no? That I wasn't going to be what was calling out to me.

Edward had it much harder than I had. He could smell her. It was so much stronger than anything I'd ever felt or knew. He was still running, but it wasn't a selfish reason as mine had been.

But one thing Edward didn't understand was his feelings.

Edward had no idea he'd fallen in love with this girl, but I did.

My hopes of returning died. There was no point now. I wasn't even on Edward's mind. He was to worried about her. Envy spilled through me, but this was what I wanted, right? This is what I knew was going to happen. I knew he was going to find something better, something he wanted more, and he did. So why was I mad?

I loathed Bella Swan for no reason at all.