Kagome soshite sono Inu Doyatsu izuko Ato Hanyou

Summary: OOC. AU. Whence running from school in the rainiest day ever, ever feel like theirs something watching you? While running down an ally Kagome meets a glare from a pure white dog, hiding from the rain? T for random foul language.

Chapter 20 – My Past Your Past II

Mama never found out that everytime she left the Shrine I went into the woods. I was scared of the woods, but scared of my home even more. Besides everytime, I got to the woods he was there, with that little hut of his. I don't know why, but I found him cute.

When I was around the Goshinboku the other day, I saw Emiko again, sitting on the stone bench, looking up sadly to the tree. I don't know if she was saying anything, but, she was crying, as if she knew she lost someone… or something.
I hope I never lose anyone.

Dad was taken to hospital today. I asked Mama why, because even I know that when someone goes to hospital, it means that they are very sick. Mama said it was because of the weakened legs, which I have from him.
It turns out, that I did lose someone. I lost him.
I didn't get to say goodbye!

I cried seeing him, asleep that time I went to see him after Mama was told, I ran on ahead, wanting to see him, so I wasn't told, my mother seeing I was not around, ran after me. Then she found me, in his hospital room, crying.
She knew.
She knew I knew he was gone.

I turned to her, eyes full of tears.
'Why'd he have to go?'
'Oh my dear.'

I realised that she was crying, she started as soon as she hugged me that day.
I didn't understand why Dad left us that day.
Did I do something wrong?

When I asked Mama if it was my fault, she looked horrified and hugged me again.
We were both crying.

A year or two passed. Mama told me that Dad would have wanted us to stop crying, and try to keep living. So I tried. I tried hard. I swear I did.
Even Granddad told me I was doing okay. And that I would be able to ward off youkai as the same.
That...Really didn't help.
Though he was just trying to help.

Mama called me into the living room, and told me I was going to have a new father. I didn't understand why I was going to have a new father… she told me I didn't have to call him "father". Just call him by his name. I wouldn't call another man "Dad" even if I was payed for it.

I think I saw him once at their wedding. I was the flower girl. Though all the time through out it, I kept my head down, to show I wasn't crying.

Mama told me that I was going to have a little brother or sister. I was happy; I could finally talk to someone… In eight or nine year's time.

Sota, which was the new baby's name, was a boy. So I was going to have a little brother. I was okay with that. It wasn't as if I was wishing for a little sister.

I don't think Sota ever saw his father.
Sota's father wasn't around.
Sota looks a lot like Mama, I can't see anything that's not Mama. And if I look at the photos of me when I was his age. I look like him as well.
I didn't understand.

Mama gave me a new necklace for my birthday. She told me never to lose it, never to take it off.
I didn't understand.

That day when Sota's father came home. Sota was at a friend's house. I had no luck with friends. I came home that day. Mama came out to greet me as she always did, she told me to get away, as fast as I can.
I didn't understand.

When Mama thought I was away, I left the shadows on the trees, and went around the shrine to a window where I could see in. That was when I saw Sota's father.
This had to be him, because Mama wouldn't let any other man into the house. He saw me looking in from the window, the jewelled necklace that I never took off, pulsated, like the time when I was in danger with the boys from school.
I didn't understand.

He must have realised who I was, and that I knew he was bad, because he ran for the nearest door to the outside. I ran as fast as I could to the stairs, but he was faster then me. I didn't even make it to the stairs.
The necklace pulsated when he grabbed me; I saw this blue light around him, as he hit the ground I swear he started to smoke, like a fire.
I didn't understand.

Still trying to get away from him, I hid in the well, hoping that he wouldn't find me.
He found me. I knew he did because the jewel told me. When I looked up, he was looking down. He then jumped down into the well.
I didn't understand.

When I woke up, I was in a bed, and everything around me, was white.
I knew this place.
This place was a hospital.
Why was I in a hospital?

The nurse came in, looked at me; I realised that for some reason I couldn't talk. She nearly dropped her things she was holding, she then ran out the room I was in, I didn't take any notice. I had no idea what was going on.
Where was Mama?

I didn't understand.

I didn't understand why everyone was so worried about me.

I don't understand.