Chapter 5

Riley was put to bed, and I was sitting at the kitchen table drinking wine. The image of Spencer kissing someone besides me was killing me. I knew I had no right to be mad at her, but I wanted to. I heared my phone go off, I didn't even want to know who was trying to contact me at this time. After a while I finally walked over to see who it was. Spencer.

Please let me explain

Can I come over?

I'm here

Ashley... Please

I walked over to the front door, and opened it. She was standing beside her car, I nodded and went back inside. I grabbed my wine, and went over to take a seat on the couch. I knew what ever was about to come out of her mouth I wasn't ready.

"Wow we barely could talk for the last two years, and now look at us" I said while pouring more wine in my cup.

"I didn't want you to see that" Spencer said while taking a seat across from me, she was playing with hands.

"It's fine, its not like we are together. We are separated" She was biting her lip.

"She makes me happy Ashley, really happy" I nodded, and took a sip of my wine.

"Who is she?"

"Nicole Walker" I knew that name, she was the girl that interviewed Spencer about her production company. I was going to need more wine. I walked over, grabbing the whole bottle.

"How long have you been dating?" Why was I asking these questions.

"We started talking about two months after you and I split, and we have been dating for three months."

"Spencer you really don't owe me an explanation"

"She hasn't met Riley, I'm not ready" I gave her a confused look.

"Why not?" she ran her fingers through her hair, and blew out some air.

"You."

"Okay now you need to explain"

"This might sound weird, but I feel like I need you to tell me its okay." I took one more sip of my wine.

"Spencer all I want is for you to be happy, and if Nicole makes you happy then I am happy for you" She nodded.

"Thank you" I got up from the couch and went over to the desk, pulling out a folder. I walked back over giving it to Spencer.

"What is this?" I didn't answer, I let her opened it.

"Divorce papers? You signed them?" she looked over at me.

"I signed them a long time ago, but I didn't have the heart to go through with it. I am sorry for everything Spencer, but if a divorce from me will let you be happy again then so be it."

"When did you sign these?"

"The last time you were here, I over heared you with Kyla. I was angry with what you said, but I was also upset. I signed them, got drunk and regretted it in the morning"

"Wow"

"I am really sorry I hurt you Spencer, and that I broke our family apart"

"Why did you do it Ash, please tell me. Was it because of me?" I wanted to wipe her tears away.

"No Spencer, god no. I was stupid, and got carried away with being famous. I regret it everyday, that I let being famous make me loose you"

"I forgive you Ashley, and I really hope one day you can find someone to make you happy again" I looked over at her, staring at her blue eyes.

"I already had my perfect girl, but my own demons took her away" I got up, and walk to the front door letting her out.

"Don't leave my life Ash, I still need you." I lifted her chin.

"I'll never leave you Spencer"

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