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Chapter 9

Ashley

"I didn't really have a problem, but I felt like I was about to. With everything going on, I didn't want to end up like my father. I told Kyla I was going off grid for a bit, no questions were asked. I went to this small place outside of where I was staying for a week. It was a good place, a safe place. I think if I didn't go, I would of ended up much worst" Spencer nodded.

"I'm glad you made that choice, I never want you to go down another dark road Ashley. You have Riley to think about. She would be broken if you ever left her" I nodded.

"Why did you give up on us Spencer?" She took a sip of her wine, and shocked her head.

"You did that Ashley, I didn't"

"Spencer I tried to talk to you, I called you every day begging you to just talk to me"

"I didn't give up, I was tired of feeling scared, hopeless, and alone"

"Spencer, I never wanted you to feel that way" I looked over at her, and waited for her to explain why she didn't fight for us.

"That night we had that fight here, When you left it crushed me Ashley. You walked away on me, you slammed the door on us. I layied here all night crying over you, and then I realized it was never going to be okay again. I would never be able to trust you being on tour, or being in clubs. I'll always wonder if you were cheating on me, or if you even loved me. I would always wonder if you are still attracted to me, and I couldn't do it. I couldn't keep living a life where I would never be fully happy, and safe. I loved you Ashley so much, but I knew it would hurt to be with you more then to just let you go. I'm sorry, I guess I'm the one that left not you" I gripped my chair, I didn't want to hear what had just been said to me. Spencer gave up on us, she was the one that walked away.

"I wanted us to work it out Spencer, I begged Kyla to tell me where you were. Fuck I went to your office everyday, I went to our house, I even went to your parents place. You all made them tell me to stay away. Then when I had to leave, I was given divorce paper from my sister! Do you know how much that killed me!." I was standing up, yelling at her at this point.

"I'm sorry okay, but it would have never worked out Ashley. You and I were broken, and nothing was going to fix it!"

"You didn't know that Spencer!"

"You cheated on me!"

"No I didn't okay, it was a lie!" Spencer stopped, and looked over at me. We were both breathing hard, and both had tears in our eyes.

"What?" I sat down, and took a swig of my wine.

"I ran into the girl a couple of months after you and I were officially done. I snapped at her, she was the one that fucked us up. She was the reason why I was never going to get you back. She asked me what I was talking about. Then she explain that we never did anything that night. It was all a misunderstanding. I had stripped out of my clothes thinking I was in my bed alone, and when I asked if we slept together she said yes. Because wad actually slept together in the same bed."

Spencer looked at me, then looked away. I know this was a lot to take it, but she needed to know. She deserved the truth.

"Why are you just telling me this?"

"I guess I thought It was over anyways, why bring up the past for"

"I have to go" Spencer got up, and walked towards the front door.

"Spencer please don't go, just talk to me" I was standing behind her, her hand was still on the door knob.

"I can't Ash, I need to go" I turned her around to face blue eyes full of tears, I reached up and wiped them away from her cheek.

"I thought I was doing the right thing Spence, like you said you would have never trusted me."

"Ash the day you married me, you promise I had every piece of you. Your body, heart and soul. I thought you broke you vows. I thought you gave someone your body, and it killed me. Your right I can't trust you Ash, because the fact you hid the truth from me shows that. You should have told me, because I would have believed you."

"Spencer how was I suppose to you, you made it so I could never reach you"

"Your talking to me now arn't you?"

"Back then tho..."

"No! You knew you could have came to me! For fuck sake we have daughter together Ashley, you knew how to reach me!"

"Spencer I'm sorry! Please just stay" She looked at my pleading eyes.

"I'm sorry Ashley, this time I'm walking away for good" She was gone.

I had her. Now she is gone. Again.

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