I'm sorry for the long delay everyone. My sous chef just quit, so I have be working non stop the last couple of days. - Caleb

Chapter 16

Spencer

I decided to visit my father at home, hoping his advice will work on me since he always gave the best advice. I thanked him when he brought me some tea.

"What brings you by Spence?"

"Well I need some advice, and I really don't want to go to a Psych or someone" he nodded.

"I will do my best"

"You are aware that Nicole and I broke up right?" he nodded again.

"Well lately I have been wanting to try things again with Ashley, but every time we are good I seem to wreck it"

"Okay"

"I want to be with her, but something is stopping me. I know she never did cheat on me, but I still can't trust her"

"Has she given you a reason not to?"

"No"

"Do you want to trust her?"

"Yes, so bad dad"

"Well I think you both need to hit a rewind button, and start over"

"We can't dad, so much has been said and done"

"Its never too late Spencer. When you and Ashley broke up it destroyed you both, but we all knew you two would find your way back to each other"

"Why can't I just be with her dad, why can't I let the past go?"

"How can you let go of something that has been part of your life for so long?"

"I don't understand"

"When you found out what Ashley did, that pain became part of your life. You lived your life around that action . You have made sure that you didn't feel, or go through something like that again. With that being said, you always avoided talking to Ashley. Now that you and her are good, you have to start a new life and that's scary. Your life before she came back was different, and now you are scared to make those changes. Spencer your scared that she will hurt you like before, and you worked so hard not to be."

"I don't know if I can trust her...ever"

"That's okay, its going to take time. Hit the pause button, and slowly work on things. You can't expect this to be okay over one night"

"I don't even know where to start with her. We already know each other, it seems stupid to start over from the beginning"

"Do you know her?"

"Yes, I am married to the women"

"Maybe you should make sure, because I think you two have a lot of learning to do about each other."

"Okay, I will talk to Ash about it" I stared at my cup.

"Spencer, you two can try all you want to be together. If you two aren't meant to be together don't force it. I just want you both happy okay?" I nodded, and gave him a hug.

"Thanks dad"

"Anytime sweetheart"

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I walked into Ashley place, and I already heard music playing from her studio. I walked in and saw her listening to what sounded like a demo. I smiled, she always listening deep into music. When someone sent her a demo, she really listened to everyone one.

"Spencer, what brings you by?" I sat down on chair beside her.

"I just came from my parents place, I went to talk to my dad"

"Didn't want to pay for a psych?" I nodded.

"He gave me some advice that I would like to try, and would like you to try with me?"

"What was the advice?"

"That we rewind and slowly get to know each other again."

"Like go on dates and stuff"

"I guess. I want us to work Ash, I honestly don't want you with anyone but me. I know that s selfish, but It would kill me to see you with someone else. I know it hurt you that same way when you saw me with Nicole"

"Yes it did"

"This is why I know we want to be together, but I just am not ready to fully trust you. Its not all your fault, I made my life this way. After you left I put up a wall to protect my self, and I need to break down that wall in order to be with you fully. It wouldn't be fair if you only had part of me, and the other half was just always angry at you."

"This is where we start over."

"Yes. This way maybe I will learn to trust you fully and we can be together"

"Spencer what if you can't?"

"Then we go different ways for good. I can't lead on you forever Ash, that's not fair"

"Okay, so where do we start?"

"We start by you meeting me for coffee tomorrow for lunch?" she smiled at me.

"Of course" I smiled.

"Good. Until we know for sure, lets keep this away from Riley?"

"Sounds good."

"Okay well I gotta go, BTW where is Riley?"

"Kyla" I nodded.

"That girl needs to have kids, and stop stealing ours" we both laughed.

"I know right?"

"I will see you tomorrow, bye Ash"

"Bye Spencer"

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