Summary:Magnus ponders the man in his bed and learns something that breaks his heart.
Magnus stared at the man in his bed, even asleep Alexander looked exhausted and broken in a way Magnus knew no magic could fix.
It had been a mistake not going to Alexander's wedding and now Magnus realized it.
Alexander was dying, perhaps not physically but his soulwas dying and once it was finally extinguished it would only be a matter of time before the body followed.
Looking at Alexander in his bed Magnus hardly recognized the man who had stuttered when he had been flirted with and he wondered how his family had let it get this far, let Alexander break into such tiny pieces. Then Magnus realized that Jace and Isabelle had been so absorbed in their own relationships the last few months that they hadn't even mentioned Alexander and Lydia only mentioned offical business during their Council meetings and Magnus tended to avoid seeing or being around Alexander if he had business at the Institute.
Magnus' heart hurt looking at at Alexander knowing that the man in the bed was sacrificing his own happiness for his siblings' and that Magnus might have been Alexander's happiness.
The baby in his arms whimpered and Alexander's eyes twitched and he reached out as if to get up and sooth the baby.
Magnus pet Alexander's hair gently, sitting next to the man in his bed, "Shh, we're alright."
"Magnus?" Alexander slurred, "'S'a dream?"
"Shh, you're safe." Magnus murmured.
"Baby's crying, Magnus, I need to get them... They'll wake their brother." Alexander muttered as he struggled up.
"Alexander." Magnus said softly, as he realized that Alexander wasn't quite awake and that he dreamed about having a family with Magnus, "I've got them, sweetheart, just rest, you have work in the morning."
"M'kay." Alexander settled, "'Love you, Magnus, cam't wait to marry you."
Magnus put his free hand over his mouth to stifle a sob, taking a deep breath befoe answering, "Neither can I, Alexander."
"Mmmm." Alexander sighed as he snuggled deeper into Magnus' pillows.
Magnus swallowed harshly and looked down at the baby in his arms. She looked up at him with wide blue eyes, but all babies had blue eyes at birth, there was eyery chance they could change.
"Let's see what has you so upset, hmm?" Magnus mumured, "And let your Daddy rest."
Magnus stood to leave the room making sure nothing would desturb Alexander as they left.