Hello everyone! I hope you had great hollidays. Here is a new chapter for you to start off your year right. Enjoy!
"And then, just like that he was on top of me and I couldn't move, I couldn't think, I couldn't breathe, nothing, it went blank in my mind. It felt like I couldn't do anything at all, my mind just refused to believe that he would-" she stopped for a moment and breathed in, her voice faltered "-he would-"
"Be the one who tried to kill you." Jon finished, he was sat on the floor of her room, his back leaned against the door, it had been a while since Theon had left them but Jon still felt the need to be extra careful, leaning against the door where he could hear if someone was approaching made him feel safer, he was sure she appreciated it as well. How crazy had that night been, to think he was only out to check on the horses and see if everyone had water and now he was helping a girl – who he had a major crush on, but would not admit it to himself- hide a body of her brother that she murdered just moments ago. Life was like that sometimes, wild and unpredictable.
Daenerys nodded her head yes and moved her eyes from the floor to his, she no longer looked so shaken up by the situation, she looked calmer, but he knew better than that. She was responsible for someone's death, no one would be calm with that. He tried to say something to make her feel better but he failed every time. He wondered how all of this would have played out if he had just minded his own business and decided not to check up on her, it would have been a smarter decision for him, that's for sure. But seeing her there, all curled up with her knees pressed to her chest, her tear stained cheeks and bitten lips, he knew he was right where he needed to be.
"You don't have to say anything else Daenerys-" he said when her eyes finally met his "- I know how the rest of it goes."
She went quiet for a while. She felt disgusted with herself and god knows what he thought of her now, She didn't know him all that well but she knew he was an honorable man, and no man with morals and a brain would ever come to her defense. But there was something about him, something different. Everything he said, every word that came out of his mouth was thoughtful, well-crafted and even disturbingly calm for someone who just witnessed what he had. He made her feel like he understood why she did what she did, like she did nothing wrong, he made her feel better about herself. She did not deserve to feel better about it, not now, not ever. She gave herself a chance to glance at his eyes one more time, they stared right back at her, they were so kind, loving, it felt like he had always been there for her, like it was natural for him to be there, it felt like everything was all right.
She had to snap out of it right away, this was not the time to let herself go and allow herself to fall for this man. She didn't even know anything about him…and there was a body 2 feet away from her. She needed to focus on that right now, her mind could not wander anymore.
"I'm a murderer, I know it, you know it, don't try to make it sound pretty." She said with a straight face and stood up all of a sudden. Jon was taken aback by her change of behavior, it was fascinating to him how she could turn her emotions on and off so seamlessly. He stood up as well and took a step forward, planning out his words because it was a delicate situation and it was the worst time to say something stupid.
"You are not a murde-"
"Don't." She cut in with a death glare but he didn't let her push him away.
"It was self defence, you can say whatever you want but I know you wouldn't have touched him had he not tried to kill you first, Daenerys." His voice was a little louder and a lot firmer now. She shook her head and rubbed her eyes with her hands to get rid of any leftover tears and put herself together. "Anyone would tell you the same, literally anyone. We've all been here, we've seen the way he's treated you, he was abusive in every way one can be abusive, there's no excuse for that."
"And there is an excuse for murder?" She talked back.
"Self defence." Jon corrected her to what she shook her head and breathed out deeply.
"Whatever you say." She said quietly and he finally took a step back. She paced the floor for a little bit and looked back at him. "We should probably decide what we're going to do about it now, you know? That body will start to deteriorate and morning will come and Viserys will be gone and the two of us will not even know what to say. If you want to run for it, by the way, it's completely fine by me, I understand, you should just run before they have a chance to catch up with you and-"
"Daenerys-" he cut her off and put his hands on both sides of her shoulders to steady her and keep her from pacing any further "-I am not going to run for it and leave you alone with this. You can hate me, you can say anything you want, you can try to physically push me away, but I am not leaving like this."
He was so close she could breathe him in and she felt instantly dizzy, why was this man making her feel like this. "Do you really think I could hate you?" She asked daringly. He shrugged his shoulders, his eyes met the floor then her.
"I don't know-" he said in a much deeper, darker tone than usual "-you tell me."
She couldn't bring herself to say anything, though, she was way too dazzled by his closeness to even think straight.
"Now, are you going to let me help you take that stupid body out or would you prefer to drag him out yourself?"
"You hold there, I'll hold up here, we'll see if there's anyone nearby, pull him up and drop him in the ditch, you go to your room, lock yourself up and I'll do the rest."
"Yeah, but what if someone finds him?" She asked with furrowed brows.
"You said there was a cemetery here before, if they dug him up –which I doubt they would- how would they even know it was him? Calm down, we burned his clothes, we put him in a white linen cloth, everyone has those, it will be untraceable, trust me."
"Yeah, but what if someone is really persistent and they call the police and what not."
"The circus is moving in three days-"
"Because everyone thinks everything is fine and no one is missing."
"And do you really think it would be good rep for all of us to just stay here with a missing body? No, everyone will want to move away as soon as possible, you've said it yourself, it's happened before, people have gone missing and the circus was gone as well, no one wants to deal with that stuff."
She nodded her head in understanding, everything he's said so far made sense and it was rational thinking but she just couldn't help but feel paranoid. Whenever Drogo and his people got rid of someone she felt at peace leaving because she had nothing to do with it. This time around she had everything to do with it.
Jon took one final peek through the door to make sure absolutely no one was around, the ditch he dug up was ready to be filled and even though he felt for Dany, he didn't feel sorry for Viserys at all, that son of a bitch had it coming. It was only a matter of time, the abuse had to stop at some point. He glanced at Dany to make sure she was sane enough to do this. She returned his gaze and nodded in understanding. They did everything they could to cover up their tracks, all of Viserys' clothes were burnt, along with the dress Dany was wearing and Jon's shirt, anything that had blood on it, he got rid off. She washed her face, hands and brushed her hair, put on some fresh clothes and if you took a look at her without knowing what went down, you never would have guessed. It was time to go. Now or never.
As instructed, she took a hold of the bottom part of the body while Jon took the upper half, gripping it firmly so it wouldn't slip away. Daenerys was shaking like crazy, her mind didn't even work, she felt like a robot doing a task. The grass outside was soft and there wasn't a lot of mud, she appreciated that greatly. It was fairly dark outside, the Moon being the only source of light. She barely even felt the weight of the body, probably because Jon carried the heavies part and she was only there because she wouldn't let him do this on his own in fear of him getting caught and being held responsible for her wrong doings. They were half way to the ditch when the worst scenario possible happened.
Footsteps could be heard in the distance and both of their eyes shot up at each other. She found herself in such a state of shock that she absentmindedly dropped her half of the body to the ground. It completely threw Jon off and his half slipped as well, causing the body to drop hard and the sheet to unravel. Daenerys looked like she was about to faint.
"Shit-" she muttered under her breath, her mouth agape at the sight in front of her "-Shit. Fuck. Shit. Oh my god."
"Shhh-" Jon shot up, literally skipping over the body to jump over to her and calm her down "- shut up, shhh, you have to stay quiet for fucks sake."
"His body- oh my God, I'm going to hurl, this is it, we're done. Done!"
"Daenerys shut it. If you don't shut up they will hear us and that's it. Okay? Listen to me." He shook her by her shoulders but she kept on muttering curses under her breath. In an act of desperation he straight up pulled her against him and put his palm over her mouth to stop her from talking and blowing their cover. His breathing was insane, his heart was beating like crazy and her body was shivering like mad. Once she managed to calm down she pulled his hand away from her mouth and turned around to face him. Her eyes were the size of saucers.
"What are we going to do? We can't just-" Her face was drained of all color as she looked behind him.
"What is it?" he asked impatiently, he knew she was still in shock but they were really tight with time and had to move fast if they were going to make it out of this. "I know that you're shocked and scared but we have to-"
"He's gone." She said, still staring behind him, her lips parted.
"I know he's gone and we can't change that, but accidents happen, people die every day-"
"No Jon-" she shook her head and forced him to turn around "He's gone." She said quietly. Jon look around and saw – nothing. Nothing. The body was gone, it wasn't there. Gone.
"What the actual fu-"
"It's there." She pointed her shaking finger at the bottom of the pit under the hill they were on top of. "It just…rolled off." She said. Her facial expressions were so bizzare that he would have laughed out loud had it not been her brother who she murdered. The whole thing was becoming tragicomical.
"Well fuck me." He muttered and stared in shock with her.
"I thought she already did." Theon said, standing just a few steps behind them.
Qotd: Do you think Theon will notice the dead body? If yes, what do you think he'll do about it? Bonus question, do you think Jon and Dany feel something for each other? Let me know! Till next time.
