Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans or Tokyo Ghoul

Time went by my hair grew long all the way to my shoulders, it had bleached and turned white, I had no way to tell how long I'd been there, not like it mattered, hatred had made a nest in my heart no longer thinking compassionately about my jailers, there was no place for such weak visions of life, it took me long to realize the truth, like humans, these jailers believed to be imparting justice, and making weapons to create peace, under that one flag everything was allowed.

My determination was now solid, once more in the night I went into a talk in my mind, this time all of my parts were present. I was in a chair, with several chains tied in my limbs and one pierced in my chest, my counterparts were sited as well, the first to speak was my dark self.

-So your resolve has been made, what are we doing?

-I'm going to unleash hell for the humans who made this world a complete wreck, that is my instinct.

The chain of my right arm shattered into a million pieces and my dark self smirked at me while he stood up.

-Can you forgive, your so called friends?

-Whatever they did is in the past, I really don't care, but I won't forget their betrayal, I won't give trust to those who don't deserve it.(she nodded and stood up, her reddish locks falling slightly with the motion, the chain in my left leg banished)

-You know what you need?

-I need to be strong and believe in everything I do even if the whole world is against me, I'll keep doing it because I chose to do so. (The man with glasses got up, my left arm now free)

-Do you have regrets?

-I don't, all they do is tie me to the past and I need to move forward, I've been hurt, so I won't let them do the same once again, but I'll live.

-Try to be happy.

-I will.

The blue haired man got up smiling, and my right leg was freed. They all were now standing, I looked into their eyes, accepting every part of me, even if it was ugly, I wouldn't be restrained. They suddenly changed into different versions of me, as I stood there looking at my dopplergangers all of them shared my new formed mental image, white long yet spiky hair, tall and defined features, my facial features now sharp instead of the roundness I had when I joined the Titans, they all wore something different. But one of them was fiscally different, in the place of the blue haired man was beast boy.

-I thought you had died

-I didn't dude, I was simply too scared to come out there was no longer a meaning for my existence, you created me so that you could show, an always happy face to the outside, but after your heart got broken, there was not a single part of your soul that wanted happiness, but I came back to remind you how much you want to live, you shouldn't repress anything from now on, accept everything, be anything, like that you will find yourself, after all you are still lost, well, now I have to go live on I leave things to you.

-So this time you are going to die for real?

-Yes, you can not remain just foolishness and happiness, you must be all, and that I cannot be, don't let pranks die though. I'll be waiting on the other side.

The reflexions faded and in that moment I saw where I was: the house of mirrors; a fitting place to find yourself by not seeing what truly stands before you, just a reflecting surface. It was fun watching, but I still had work to do, the last of my unfinished business, when this thoughts came to me all mirrors shattered, and everything was darkness, but my ears picked growling noises.

Then my eyes got used to darkness and switched to night vision cat eyes, there it stood a big furry monster with sharp fangs, big arms and legs, small compared to the arms, it was at least twice as tall as me, the beast snarled at me and began attacking, so I turned into a falcon to get out of his reach, or at least I thought I did, but nothing happened so I simply fell at the floor in my human form, with rat pain caused by the chain buried in my chest.

Then for the first time I tried to take out my kagune, but it did not work I was too slow to dodge because of that the beastly Titan charged at me and sliced my midsection, my healing fixed that in a matter of seconds, but the monster kept charging at me, unable to use my powers I dogged his incoming attacks avoiding by inches, but the raging beast kept coming at me tenaciously.

It was at that moment when beast boy parting words hit me, so I wondered: What am I? The answer was somewhat obvious to me: I'm a ghoul, those who attack me must be punished those who stand in my way must be devoured, because I'm an instinctual beast. When the thought came to me something deep inside my was released it was a raw emotion, no it was an instinct, it was a kill or be killed situation so I chose, for the first time in my life I decided to erase this existence.

My bikaku aimed at his legs willing to cut, yet the cunning beast reacted instinctively with perfect timing and retracted it's legs, and attempted to bite my arm off, so dodged him and used his momentum to grab his arm and brake it, the monster jumped and landed gracefully on the floor, his arm was broken so he cut it off and the arm regrew at fast speed, he then charged at me again, seen this could take longer I waited his attack and just before he connected my bikaku threw him at the wall, and without wasting time my ukaku shot him repeatedly nailing him in the wall, then I took out my kokaku and prepared for the finishing blow, when I wondered: Why am I doing this? He is also a part of me, there is no meaning in fighting him. So I approached and decided to ask.

-Why do you attack me?

-Because you reject me and restrain me, just like that chain attached to your chest, you deny yourself, your feelings, your instincts even your needs.

-That may have been the case, but I can no longer take such luxuries, I'll embrace everything, it is the only way.

-Yet you have not done so, you never accepted it, you think you can control it because you have lost all fear, you're simply fooling yourself, for fear is bornfrom instinct, survival instinct, you have also denied love, also born from reproduction needs, you are incomplete and I cannot accept such existence as master.

-Then I guess I will have to force you.

-Do if you want, but that will just make me submissive, and it's the same as restraining me, your instinct and I believe that is not beneficial for either of us.

-So now what? There is no way I'm going to accept love once again or fear, for they doomed my life because of one single person. I still can't understand why after all she did to me, I can't hate her at all.

-Because she is the best match for you.

-Like hell she is, all we do is fight, our interests are different, just how am I her best match?

-To begin with, you were always faking your like so there were actually some matches, but I'm not talking about such useless matters as staying your whole life together, it's instinct what my field of expertise is all about, who cares about her feelings, all we need is to bread a stronger offspring, if that Adonis bastard hadn't interrupted me I would've done the deed that night, and spare you from your suffering.

-Like it would help if you had done that I would never be able to look her in the eye! Wait you said my suffering would have ended, you mean my love would end?

-Of course once you leave offspring your purpose is fulfilled, as long as it's strong as a litter survives it won't bother you again.

-If the only requirement is strength why wasn't I attracted to Starfire at all?

-Because you noticed how Robin acted around her since the beginning and you accepted to work under his command, so you locked that part of yourself out of respect, if I was let free at that time, I wouldn't give two shits about it and leave our offspring in both of them.

-So basically if I breed with someone strong the whole problem ends? So if I find myself some one like Terra it's fine right?

-NO! Someone like her won't do it, to begin with you only were with her because she was similar to you, and she did not reject you like the rest, but in truth she didn't care because she feared the others rejection, if a little flirting got her where she wanted it was alright. I won't bow my head to you because of a little change of heart.

It was then when the beast got free, and attacked me my bikaku was aimed at him, yet he broke it with his bare claws, and went all the way to my kidneys and took them out, I kicked him in the stomach and put distance between us, I was afraid of the colossal obstacle in front of me, when he came at me all I did was to dodge, then my bikaku regrew and started my attack, my senses grew sharper with each second, my fear kept me aware of the situation, but I did not let it control me, still I was fighting a monster so it wasn't easy.

Then I started hearing the voices of the people of the past screaming: Monster! At me, and it was then when I noticed, I resented them for calling me that, so I was ashamed of my powers and appearance that made me such creature in their eyes, but they were right, I was and still am a monster, and as such I cannot be restrained by their logic and insult, I'm proud to be a monster.

I let the beast pierce me in the chest and whispered in its ear "Don't worry, you're not a monster, but I will be one so lend me your strength" The green mass of fur smiled as he faded and filled the hole in my chest the chain had left. Then I woke up to the real world, it was cold as always but my now under control senses picked up the sound of footsteps coming to my door, I started to laugh like a maniac, thinking in the hell I was about to unleash, I raised my white covered head to the door, I had so much hair only my eyes were visible because of the green glow they gave, when the door open I said:

-Irasshai, okyaku-san (Welcome, dear costumer)