Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, alright? That doesn't mean that I don't want to, of course, I'd more than love too...eh, I can dream, can't I? lol. Anway, back to business:
A/N: Well, this is another drabble from Roxas's POV, let me know what you think:
The Wanderer
Friendship (RoxasXSora)
Roxas's POV:
I'm a wanderer, a phantom of night, finding no place in the light of the sun. I've always been that way…why? In definition, I have a home and family with Organization XIII, heh, I even have a girlfriend too…but for some reason, I can't help but wander around the worlds. I'm searching for something, but what? I'm often lost, confused, and down, the only time I feel like myself is when I'm around Naminé, my girlfriend, or Axel, my best friend who's looked out for me pretty much ever since I joined. What is it that I could be searching for? My chest aches, but there's nothing in it to ache…I have no heart, for you see, I'm a Nobody. So why does it hurt? I remember something very clearly though, about a week or so after I was woken up by Xemnas and recruited, I fell into a trance and began to speak with someone else's voice. Axel, who was near me at the time, was a little spooked.
"Kairi, remember what you said before? I'm always with you too…I'll come back to you, I promise!" I said with intense sorrow in my voice as I was acting like I was pining for some invisible hand that wasn't even there…for some reason I felt broken inside…like I had lost everything I held dear. That was the closest I had felt to being whole…to having a heart. I suppose, now that I think about it, that's what I'm searching for. For me the answers all lie in one thing…a name. Saying this name is almost as natural to me as saying my own…Sora. I didn't know how I felt about him, at times I hated him for having a heart and not me, why should he be the one who walked around as a whole being? Although at other times I felt like we were best friends, when his emotions flowed through me, it was great…it was something that only Naminé and I could understand though. I suppose it was because we were the only ones who had a Somebody that was still alive and we felt the repercussions of their hearts.
After several months, I left on a quest to answer the many questions that plagued my mind…the most important to me, why was I chosen by the Keyblade? After thinking it through, I had an idea of where to start…Sora. Who would be better to answer my questions than my own self, right? As I searched for him, I found that the guy was harder to track than a Heartless in the light…he disappeared without a trace. Of course it wouldn't be easy for me…nothing ever was. One fateful night, I met his best friend, Riku. This peaked my interest, if anyone knew where Sora was, he would. However, the silver haired teen had other plans…Sora needed to be whole. I guess I wasn't ready to be whole just yet, I had questions that I wanted answered before hand…it let to us fighting. For some reason, I felt hurt while fighting him, like I was arguing with Axel or Naminé, I suppose that was the Sora part of me…they were best friends.
During the fight, he taunted me saying, "C'mon Sora, I thought you were stronger than that." It felt like déjà vu to me.
I spoke out using Sora's voice again saying, "What are you talking about? You're the one who's losing!"…it was weird. Riku just laughed, it confirmed to him that I was Sora's Nobody. Well, he beat me, and I was taken to a fake Twilight Town to be prepared to become one with Sora again. When I finally realized what had happened, I became jealous of Sora, who was sleeping peacefully in front of me when I first saw my other self face to face for the first time. Part of me became him that day…but for some reason not all of me did, I guess I still wasn't ready to give in. After I found out about Axel's demise, I felt hatred towards him…he let my best friend die, how could he? My anger culminated when we dueled not long afterwards. He beat me in an upset…in that final slash across my chest…something finally clicked with me. He was me…there was no reason to hate him, Axel reminded me of that as I talked with his ghost after my conflict with Sora was over. Since then, we have become very close friends, I lent him my strength in the final confrontation with my old boss, Xemnas as he and Riku delivered the fatal blow to him. He also takes time to talk with me in his mind on a regular basis, and I feel like I am him, I feel as he does, I see what he sees, I react the way he does…he is every bit apart of me as I am him. We are one, Sora and I, and Sora has stuck to his word in relevance to being with Kairi on a daily basis (although in my opinion, it's not for the promise's sake, but because they are in love….heh, actually I know that's the case, let's just say we know what the other is thinking), so I can see Naminé all the time. We have become best friends over time, and now, I am no longer a wander, a phantom of the night, I have a true home and am more than welcome in the light of day…I am whole.
A/N: Well, how did I do, I know it was probably a little boring, but I had the strongest urge to write it, so don't get mad, please? Still, please do be honest though, let me know what you think, okay?