Authors notes- I don't own the TMNT, only the green masked ninjas.

I hope nobody thinks Leo is seriously out of character, I just think after all this, he would be kind of bitter and controlling, especially after Master Splinter's death. True to character, Leo would blame himself for it, even though Splinter died from natural causes. Therefore, he would try to control every aspect of his, and his family's life, so nothing else went wrong, even if it meant turning his back on Raph, who he sees as a danger.

Well, that's how I see it. On with the chapter!

Love is the deadliest weakness.

The New York skyline stretches before me and the wind catches my mask and obi tails. I watch an alley cat scatter into the streets, eyes glinting in the moonlight. My gaze changes to take in Central Park and I smile as I fondly remember nights there with Raph. I keep my senses heightened, listening for anybody approaching.

"Your favourite spot never changes."

Clearly, I underestimate the perfected skills of Leo, even better in his later years. I don't turn to him, only lower my head slightly in thought.

"I heard you were looking for me… Fearless."

He growls lowly at the name.

"Don't call me that."

"Why?" I turn to face him. "'Cause you're not so fearless after all? No matter how much you put on the front, how much you try to control things, you're scared, no, terrified, things might spiral out of control."

Immediately, he's squaring up to me.

"I have everything under control." He hisses. "But you might change that."

"What are you gunna do?"

"I'm not going to do anything, but you are. You're gunna listen to me Karm, you're gunna-"

"Lay down like some sick dog? Let you tell me what to do? It's not happening."

"Oh yes it is, or-"

"Or what? You'll break up with me?" I place a hand on my hip, my eyes narrowing. "You don't threaten me, you can't threaten me. You see, this isn't Karm as you know her, Leonardo. I'm from an alternate universe."

"That's bullshit."

"Oh really? You wanna know what alternate universe?" I lean closer into his face, and whisper, "The one where I'm with Raph."

"No." Leo's eyes widen. "Never."

"Never what?"

"You'd never pick him. He's bad tempered, and aggressive. He just doesn't care!"

"I wouldn't put it that way. He's passionate, protective and yes, he pretends he doesn't care, but he does. It's all an act, so nobody knows his weakness."

The older turtle's chest heaves with a heavy sigh.

"He's just reckless..."

"What?"

"I know something you don't." He straightens and I feel my whole body tense at how his shoulders drop, and his jaw tightens.

"What Leo?"

"Your reality… you must know of Stockman."

"Of course." I frown slightly. "But how does that have anything to do with this?"

For a fleeting moment, Leo's deep brown eyes meet with mine, before he turns his shell on me.

"He's dead, Karm."

I let it sink in.

"What can I say? I feel no remorse."

"Raph did it."

"Did it?" I repeat. "Did what exact-…"

Brown orbs meet with a mix of blue and green.

'Wait, he's not saying…'

"No." I shake my head. "He wouldn't."

"He did."

"But then…" My mind switches to a different person, and I begin gushing, "What about… Shinrai? You found her right? She's on holiday with me and April-"

"No." He shakes his head this time. "When… when we faced Shredder not long after Stockman's death, he… he told us that Stockman was the only reason she was alive. She was his, 'property' as he put it. He-… He told us, told you, and to prove it… he made the Elite bring her body in…"

My knees buckle and my mind flashes with the imagery.

'Shinrai's… dead… she's gone, my baby sister…'

"I'm sorry Karm." Leo tries to help me up, but I shove away his touch. "You needed to know, Raph wouldn't have told you."

I close my eyes, filling my lungs with air. Desperately, I try to clear my head, clutch onto some rational thought.

'No. This isn't home Karma, this isn't your home. You belong somewhere else, where Shinrai is alive.' The thoughts in my head echo as the voice of my sensei. 'I know, and a world where you're alive, sensei. Where Mikey smiles, where Donny isn't hurt, where Raph and Leo argue, but still love each other. The only thing in this world is hate… and, I need to fix it, because… I love them. I need to be strong, for the ones I love. I haven't been for so long, but now, I need to be.'

I quickly stand.

"Karm?"

"I'm here to fix this, okay? And I'm going to."

With one last glance, I dash off the rooftop, onto the next one and the next and the next. Leo's cries echo after me, but I don't look back or slow down, until I start to feel a strange pulling on my body. Skidding to a halt, I panic.

'No! I can't go back! Not now!'

I fall to my knees once again until the feeling fades. Feeling strong once again, I stand, breathing heavily and gazing at the city around me.

'I feel helpless and useless! Nothing's changed in this city, just us… just our poor family… Wait-'

My mind races and I gather my surroundings, heading to my next destination quickly.