Authors notes- I don't own the TMNT, just Yoshi and Karma.

A change of viewpoint to Leo. This is a little ahead of where I left off with Karm, but don't worry, you'll find out what happened with her.

Helpless.

"Where is she, Yoshi?"

"I don't know," my green banded son answers, "I haven't seen her since we were in the Lair."

With a sigh, I continue following him. We walk at a steady pace down the familiar tunnels leading to our home, my mind racing.

'She could be anywhere, doing anything. I feel so helpless and I hate feeling helpless. It's all in her hands… and it always has been.'

My mind drifts back to the most painful night of my life…

-Flashback-

Still breathing heavily, I sheath my katana and stretch the tension out of my shoulders. Yawning, I realise how tired I am, and decide to retire to bed.

I flick off the dojo light, and notice the multiple TVs still flickering, giving off a dim light that illuminates the Lair. The coffee table and floor are strewn with popcorn and empty glasses, the aftermath of Karm and Raph watching a film together. With a roll of my eyes, I make a mental note to clean up when I wake tomorrow.

I pick up the remote and switch off the TVs the lazy way, then ascend the stairs.

'Karm must be awake.'

The small trickle of light spilling onto the stone floor hallway hints she's still up.

Feeling a slight flutter to my heart, I gently nudge her door open, happily anticipating my good night kiss. As my eyes rest on the sight before me, I feel the happiness drain away.

Karm's lips meet Raph's. Her hands caress his broad shoulders, his stroking her hair. Their bodies intertwine as he pulls her closer, the kiss intensifying. His hands race down her sides and find their place at her hips. She pulls away, her eyes fluttering open a moment as she smiles softly, then lays back into her bed, eyes shut. He sits for a moment longer, then pulls the blankets up to her shoulders.

My stomach twists and turns, tying itself into painful knots. Feet frozen to the spot, hand gripping the door handle tighter, my heart crashes at my ribcage at a pace that I feel it might shatter. A numbness takes over my head, and I find myself paralysed in hate, and pain.

"Raph." I manage to choke out.

Jumping slightly, he turns to me, a guilty look plastered on his face.

"H-hey Fearless."

I swallow the lump in my throat and wrench myself from the spot, unable to face my brother any longer. He hurries after me, down the stairs, calling out for me. Reaching the bottom, I spin around, my fists instinctively clenching.

"Yes?"

"Uh," he rubs the back of his neck, "She uh, she was tired, so I, I carried her to bed-"

"How chivalrous." I spit out my words venomously.

"Ya… ya saw didn't ya?" The red banded turtle's eyes find the floor.

"Yes. Everything Raph." The emotions inside of me clash. The hurt and the hate, fighting, clawing for victory against each other.

"I'm sorry Leo, I-"

"Don't even fucking bother trying to explain."

He snaps his head up, eyes widening at my use of language.

"I didn't mean ta."

"Didn't mean to? You didn't mean to?!" I roar at him, the hate winning. "You just couldn't control yourself, could you? You just had to have everything! Even if it means hurting everyone!"

"No!"

"You're reckless Raphael. You just do whatever the hell you want, and you don't care what it does to anybody else. You're a pathetic, selfish bastard."

"I'm sorry." Fear crosses his eyes, but I can't stop.

"You're never sorry, so don't waste your breath."

"Wait." He calls after me as I turn on my heels, but I just keep walking. "Leo…"

I slam my door.

-Flashback-

"Dad?"

"Yeah?" I shake my head as I hit reality again.

"Are you okay?"

I nod in response.

"I'm fine Yoshi."

"Okay. Well, it doesn't look like anybody's home." His deep brown eyes flick around the silent Lair.

"Don must be." Frowning, I go over to his lab, the door open with nobody inside.

"Guess there was a party we weren't invited to." Yoshi jokes light-heartedly, but I find myself unable to laugh.

"Something's not right…"

My cell starts to ring, and I hurriedly answer it, the caller display reading 'Karma'.

"Karm, where are-"

"Konnichiwa Leonardo." The voice makes my heart lurch. "I believe you are missing three certain family members."

"Karai…" I snarl, turning away from Yoshi.

"Tsk tsk, temper temper. That won't get you anywhere."

"We made a deal!"

"I could not resist a reunion, it has been far too long." She draws out the last line. "I am where I always have been, and I shall be awaiting your arrival."

The line goes dead.

"Yoshi!-" I spin around to face my son, but find only empty space. "Yoshi!" I call out again.

Thinking quickly, I dial his number, finding myself with only his voicemail to talk to. In desperation, I try Don's cell.

"You are wasting time." The female Japanese voice says. "Or did you not believe me? Donatello, please humour your brother."

I hold my breath.

'Please, please let her be playing some kind of sick joke.'

"H-hey Leo."

"Don! Is Mikey there?"

"Yeah, she got me, Mikey and Karm."

"How?"

"I do not lie. Hurry, before I am forced to do something... drastic." Karai has taken over again.

"You'll regret this." I say through gritted teeth.

"Your threats are hollow. Two of you against all of my Foot ninja? It is laughable."

'Of course, she doesn't know Raph's not part of our family anymore. She thinks it'll be me and him, but it's not. It's just me...'

"Do not think I will not hurt them, especially her." She whispers the last word. "I am waiting."

She hangs up.

I look at the cell in my hand, feeling completely alone.

'And helpless… And I hate feeling helpless.'