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Chapter 6
"George kissed me yesterday. One minute he was holding a urine bag, the next minute he's kissing me. Do you think he's just freaking out about his dad? Yeah, you're right. He's probably just freaking out. I shouldn't hold him to it." Callie said, sitting at hers and Addison's usually table.
"What?" Addison answered, clearly lost in thoughts.
"Did you not just hear a word I said? I'm pouring my heart out here. Jeez it's all about you. It's all about...Everything's about Addison."
"I aborted Mark's baby."
"It is all about you. Floor is all yours." Callie really felt bad for Addison. Her life was just a complete mess and she was still in love, plus sleeping with her ex-husband thinking he really loved her and that maybe eventually he would break up with Meredith to be with her. The chances of that happening were really slim and even Addison knew it.
"About 8 months ago I peed on a stick. And I wasn't even going to tell him. But then I did...tell him. And he went out and he bought this insane Yankees onesie. And a calendar and marked the due date. Which I should mention was today." Addison replied, unfocused.
"You didn't want a baby?"
"I wanted Derek. I wanted to have a baby with Derek. I never thought I'd end up alone."
"You have not "ended up" alone Addie."
"When Derek finds out I'm pregnant he will leave me alone. He won't want to be with me. Maybe I shouldn't even tell him…I won't."
"You're pregnant?!" Callie exclaimed. She sure wasn't expecting that…at all!
"I'm such a bad person Callie."
"What? Why? You being doesn't mean you're a bad person. People make mistake Addie, it's not your fault at all."
"One night after I was with Derek I realized that I hadn't taken my pill for like 3 days. I thought about taking the morning after pill but I just…I just felt that maybe if I was pregnant than I would have a part of Derek with me forever."
"Addie…"
"I know it was dumb. He's probably going to hate me forever now."
"It was not dumb Addie…you should have thought about the consequences though. You know, maybe Derek is going to be happy about it."
"What if he takes the baby away from me?"
"I'm sure he won't. You should really tell him, I mean it's his baby too you know." Callie tried to persuade Addison but she knew deep down that it probably wouldn't work.
"No! And don't you dare tell him! It's my baby! Plus he won't want to keep seeing me if I tell him."
"What? You'll keep on sleeping with him? Seriously Addison?!"
"Until I show…" Addison replied unsure.
"No! I won't tell him about the baby but you have to tell him it's over between you. Or I'll tell him." What was wrong with Addison today!?
"I can't…"
"Look I'll help you but you have to go tell him that it won't work. I swear I won't tell him about the baby but you have to tell him at least that it's over. Be strong, be Addison. Come on, just tell him it's over between the two of you."
"You do it…"
"If I do it then it won't truly be over in your heart. You need to do this for yourself honey."
"How?" She sighed. "What if he gets mad at me? What if he asks why?"
"Please Addison, just tell him you are. If you were a mad would you like it if someone was pregnant with your child and you wouldn't get to know?"
"No, but…"
"No but Addie, we both know that he has the right to know." She took Addison's hand. "And I am sure he will not take the baby away from you. He knows you will be a good mother and he has no reason to do it anyway."
"Maybe…I will tell him, eventually okay. I'm only 5 weeks anyway. I'll wait for a while to be sure everything goes well. How's that?"
Callie wasn't sure Addison was being honest but she nodded anyway. If Addison wouldn't tell him, then eventually she would. She wasn't a big fan of Derek but maybe he would like the idea of being a father and Addison would be happier.
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About a week later, Addison was looking for Derek. Today was the day, she was going to tell Derek their affair was over. With a lot of help from Callie she had gained some confidence and she was ready to face Derek. She wasn't going to tell him about the baby…yet.
She found him in his office. She knocked and when he told her to come in she closed the door before sitting on the chair facing his desk.
"Look Derek…I don't think we should see each other anymore."
"What, why?"
"It's hard on me Derek and I feel like we are hurting people."
"I understand your point. Will we at least stay friends?" He asked hoping she'd say yes. He secretly still had some feelings for her. After all, they had known each other for 15 years.
"I guess so. So, it's over?" She said before standing up. "I'll miss being with you Derek."
"I'll miss being with you too Addison."
And she left.
TBC.