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"Give thy thoughts no tongue."

William Shakespeare

BPOV

Right after Alice had said that, the four male vampires came storming into my room. They proceeded to stare at me, and if I ever wanted to know what someone was thinking, it was in that moment.

Damn, she looks even hotter than she did before. I heard Felix. I would've blushed if I could've.

"Thanks Felix." I said meekly.

They all turned to me, looking puzzled. "What do you mean? Felix didn't say anything." Carlisle said as he approached me with a smile on his face.

"No, I heard him." I told Carlisle.

"What exactly happened. Start from when we entered the room." Carlisle told me slowly, like I was mentally disabled.

"Well, the four of you walked into the room and stared at me. I thought to myself how I wish I could know what you were thinking. Then, I heard Felix say, 'Damn, she looks even hotter than she did before.'" I explained.

I saw everyone glare at Felix and heard Edward emit a growl, which I thought was strange. Felix looked a bit embarrassed which made me smile.

"It looks like we have another mind reader." Carlisle said with a smile. "Three in one room, that might be a first." he laughed.

"What do you mean three?" I asked confused. "Me and Aro. There's only two of us." I told him.

"Um, Bella." Alice said gently. "Edward is a mind reader." she said in a quiet voice. My eyes automatically shot to Edward and I glared at him.

"Cool, you guys share something." Heidi exclaimed as if there was some greater meaning behind her words.

"Unfortunately." I spat out. "Great, now I have to share something with him."

Edward looked away from my glare, with a composed face as if it didn't affect him at all. Fine, he didn't need to like me. Hell if I cared.

"Wait, Bella can you read Edward's mind?" Alice asked in her chipper voice again.

"I can try." I looked once again at the beautiful boy. God, I hated him for being so attractive. It was taking an incredible amount of will power to stay mad at a face like that...but I was determined. He hurt me.

I wonder what she's thinking. Can she hear me? Then why can't I hear her? That doesn't make sense. He thoughts rambled on and on.

"Do you always ramble like that?" I asked icily.

I heard Alice snicker behind me. "I take that as a yes." I mumbled.

"You can hear me? But I can't hear you." he said.

"Yeah, I got that from your ranting thoughts." I shot back at him.

Aro clapped his hands together. "Oh, I can't wait to see what the future holds for you!" my new father exclaimed.

"Me neither." I smiled as I thought about all the things that could be coming my way now, and wondered if this was going to be as great as I had hoped. I decided I would make the most out of my eternity.

Then, suddenly, I was seeing something. It was like watching a movie. It was me and someone else. A male. A male vampire. We were holding each other as we laid in my bed, wearing nothing but the sheets on my bed in the very room we were standing in.

Then, as fast as it came, it was gone. Just like that.

"Bella?" I heard Heidi question sounding concerned.

"Did you see it too, Bella?" Alice asked me. I turned to her. Her face held a shocked expression that mirrored mine. I nodded, blinking my eyes, trying to figure out what was going on with me.

"What? What happened?" Carlisle asked me and Alice, taking a step towards us.

"She just had a vision!" Alice squealed now bouncing up and down.

"Bella, is this true?" Aro questioned, a look of excitement crossing his face.

Again I nodded. "I was just wishing that I knew if I would be happy in my new future, and then, I saw myself..." I trailed off, not really wanting them to know what I had seen. It was far too personal for any of them to know.

"What did you see?" Edward asked meekly. I just shot him a glare. I didn't want the people closest to me, why would he think I would let him know?

"Noth..." but I was cut off by Alice.

"This!" she said happily and I knew he was reading her mind to see what it was that both of us saw. I rolled my eyes in annoyance.

Then I noticed, that in the past few minutes I had been swallowing a lot. There was a burning sensation in the back of my throat and I just couldn't get rid of it. Every time the venom slid down my throat, the burning just returned. It was becoming quite uncomfortable.

I looked up to Edward and saw that he was staring at the floor, almost as if he was sad about something, and I felt like reading his mind, but then thought better of it. Whatever he was so sad about, I didn't want to know...he probably deserved whatever disappointment was handed to him.

"This is something." Carlisle said as he paced the room, appearing to be thinking very hard about something. "I never met a vampire that had more than one talent."

Edward's head shot up. "Maybe she doesn't." All of our heads snapped towards him, trying to see what else he was about to say. "She said that both times she wished or wanted to do those things. Then, all of the sudden they happen? That can't just be coincidence." he explained, looking at everyone but me.

"Sweet!" Heidi exclaimed. "That means she can pretty much do whatever she wants! That's amazing!"

"Bella, that would make you the most powerful vampire in existence." Carlisle told me slowly. I was still trying to wrap my head around everything they were saying. Me? The most powerful vampire? That seemed a little hard to believe.

"Okay, so I can use other vampire's powers. Is it really that big of a deal? I mean, how many powers are there for me to take?" I asked.

"Bella, your selection is almost limitless." Aro told me. "Shape shifting, transporting, invisibility...the amount of things you can do is endless." he said happily.

Everyone seemed so excited about it. But I still didn't know exactly how to feel about it, and the burning in my throat was not helping in my concentration. I swallowed hard again, and apparently Carlisle noticed.

"Are you thirst?" he asked.

"Is that what the burning is at the back of my throat?" I asked. He nodded his head. "Then yes. I can't really think with the burning there." I told him.

He nodded. "Edward, Alice, and myself will take you out hunting then. It seems your first lesson is about to commence."

I turned to Alice. "I can't go hunting in a mini skirt." I told her. "Aren't there any other clothes I can wear? Any pants or shorts, or anything?" I pleaded.

"Sorry Bella. That skirt is all that fits you right now. Why don't you go hunting with the boys and Heidi and I will go shopping and get you some new clothes, okay?"

I nodded. "Okay Alice." I agreed, even though I much rather preferred if she came with me to hunt. Having another female there would be comforting, but I was desperate for some real clothes. The skirt barely covered my cheeks.

"Good, it's settled then. Aro, Felix, we will return after Bella's thirst is quenched." Carlisle told them. They both gave me smiles as they left the room.

"Cool, let's go shopping Heidi!" Alice squealed.

"Have fun Bella!" Heidi laughed as she exited the room with Alice.

"Alright kids, let's get going." Carlisle said to me and Edward as he left the room.

Edward looked at me for a moment. She might have difficulty in that attire. That is one short skirt. I heard him think.

I pushed past him, purposely making my shoulder hit him on my way. It's not a skirt, it's a freakin' belt. I said to him in my mind before walking into the hallway.

A second later he was next to me. "I just heard your thoughts." he said shocked. "I could never hear your thoughts before, so how did that happen?"

"Probably because I let you." I said nonchalantly before picking up my pace to get further away from him.

We caught up to Carlisle who was already by the entrance. "We'll take the Mercedes until we're out of the city and away from all the people. Edward, sit in back with her in case she has trouble controlling her thirst on the way there. You may need to restrain her."

We did as we were told and got into the back of the car with the tinted windows to shield us from the sun.

EPOV

I was in the backseat with Bella. Apparently she her memory had come back to her. It was so frustrating. I was now trying to make an effort to be civil to her and make up for whatever mistake I had made at the party. The woman was driving me insane. I was so pissed off that she didn't even try to forgive me. Ugh!!!

I wanted to take her by the shoulder and just shake her until she forgot what happened. As the car started, I ran my hands through my hair in frustration. I swear I could tear her limb for limb. But every time I thought that, I remembered what she was like after her change.

When she stumbled down that corridor, barely clothed. And then she fell right into my arms, looking up into my eyes with the most innocent eyes I had ever seen. Filled with hope, pleading with me to help her. That was the most beautiful I had ever seen.

And then, I looked up to her sitting beside me in the back of Carlisle's Mercedes. She seemed so different. So much harder. Like she was deliberately blocking me out. Keeping me away. In the corridor she was asking me to help her, but now, now she was either angry with me or ignoring me completely.

Is there a reason you feel the need to stare at me? She asked as she remained looking out her window.

No, sorry. I apologized, hoping she would accept it.

What? No running away after staring at me this time? She finally looked at me, and for a moment I saw her eyes held hurt, but she quickly masked her face into a blank expression and looked back out the window.

I tried to hear what she was thinking or what she was feeling, but she had blocked me out. God, she was so stubborn. But I could be just as stubborn. From now on I would carefully guard my thoughts from her. Level the playing field. If she wouldn't let me in, I would extend the same courtesy.

We entered the main part of the city, swarming with people, and I saw Bella clutch the seat and appear to hold her breath. She clamped her eyes tightly shut and turned her head away from the window, as if the slight head movement would remove the smell from the air.

Her grip tightened even more on the seat and she let out the necessary breath. This was not going to be good. She started to breathe deeply in and out, on the verge on hyperventilation (if vampires could hyperventilate), but her eyes remained shut.

A low growl came from her chest as we entered further and further into the crowded parts of the city.

"Edward, help her!" Carlisle shouted back at me.

She started to thrash against the seat, fighting to stay in control. I grabbed around her and held as tight to me as possible, but she was a strong newborn and was making me slam against the back of the seat with every thrash.

"Bella, calm down. You need to be calm." I tried to whisper in her ear, soothingly. "Come on Bella, they're people. They have families and children and lives. They have names and jobs, and houses to come home to each night." I continued to whisper once she seemed to calm a little.

I could feel her body shake against me as I held her tighter. She was sobbing dry sobs, and I ran my hand up and down her back, trying desperately to sooth her.

"I can't...believe...I wanted to ...kill someone." she got out in between sobs.

"It's okay, we've all been there." I told her.

She looked up at me with her ruby eyes wide and staring into mine, like in the hallway. Except she actually had tears coming from her eyes. Unable to resist, I brushed one away with my finger and tasted it...venom.

"Really?" she asked me, looking innocent as ever with her wide eyes.

"Even I had to deal with it, Bella." Carlisle butted in. She smiled at him and sat back up to lean against her window. I immediately missed the feeling of having her in my arms. I looked over at her and noticed that her face was a perfect mask again, all traces of the previous emotion gone.

Seeing her sitting there, I felt a pang in my chest again. Something was wrong, but she wouldn't let anyone help her. Maybe she just didn't want to tell me...after the way I treated her before I guess I could understand that. So, I thought that maybe she'd open up to Alice.

"Okay, let's hunt." Carlisle said, getting out of the suddenly parked vehicle.

I was going to say something to Bella, but she got out of the car, so I did the same.

"Now, we are far away from any humans, so there's nothing to be worried about." Carlisle told her, putting a hand on her shoulder. "All you really have to do is give into your instincts. Edward and myself will follow you to make sure your alright."

BPOV

Carlisle said that him and Edward would be shadowing me in case anything went wrong, but did I really want people there to witness what I looked like when I fed for the first time? I especially didn't want Edward to see me like that. If he judged me just by me being human, I didn't even want to think about his reaction to me sinking my teeth into an animal as blood ran down my chin.

"Now just give in. Do what comes naturally to you." Carlisle said in a tone so low, I wouldn't have hear if I was human.

I gently closed my eyes and tried to concentrate on everything surrounding me. In the distance I could hear water running in a creek, the peaceful sound made me smile. I could hear the birds in the forest chirping back and forth to each other.

I could smell the must of the moss on the trees. The smell of the damp grass from the morning's dew. And then, I smelt it. It was sweet and made the venom pool in my mouth. Without even thinking, I took off running faster than I thought possible.

Dodging trees at lightning speed, I swerved through the forest, following the delicious smell. Then, there it was, a bear. I ran full sprint towards it. It's head snapped up, noticing my approach, but it was too late.

I tackled the bear to the ground, and in one, smooth motion snapped it's neck. I don't know how I did it. It's like I wasn't even thinking about my actions, and my body knew what to do. But I didn't dwell on it for too long because the blood was still calling to me. I sunk my teeth into the animal and started to drink. I knew that I was not being neat about it at all, but at that moment I really didn't seem to care. I just wanted the burn to disappear. And it seemed to do just that.

Once the bear was drained, I felt much better, happier even. My first hunt was a success.

"Nicely done, Bella! Now we just need to burry it." Carlisle congratulated me, but Edward stayed silent. I was silently debating with myself whether I wanted to know what he was thinking or not. Could I really stand it if I disgusted him again? I didn't think I could, so I kept my mind to myself and left him alone.

But why did what he think matter so much to me? It had such a huge impact on me at the party. But the question was, why?

I felt my eyes fog over and I knew I was having another vision. But when I looked, it was the same vision as before. Me in my bed with someone's arms wrapped around me. It went on longer this time.

I watched myself sigh in content.

"I love you, Bella" the man whispered to me.

"I love you, too..." I started, but I had seen enough and cut the vision off.

It was impossible. I didn't believe in love. There was no one out there for me to love and to love me in return. I shook my head, trying to get the image out of my brain...I didn't want it. Or maybe it was that I did want it, and just knew it would hurt when it never happened.

"Bella? Are you okay?" I turned to Carlisle who had a concerned look on his face.

"Yeah, I just had a vision." I told him.

"About what?" he asked.

"Oh, it was just the same one as before." I told him as we ran back to the car. "No big deal." I tried to convince him and myself.

Carlisle got in the driver's seat and I again walked around the car to my seat.

Do you know who that is? In your vision? Edward asked as I got into the car.

No idea. Not that it matters. I shrugged.

I turned in my seat to see him stare at me with a confused expression. Why doesn't it matter?

I let out an annoyed sigh. Because it wont happen, that's why. I told him.

I'm sorry I keep annoying you, but I'm trying to understand. Why exactly wont it happen?

I rolled my eyes and looked out my window, but answered anyways. If you must know, it's because I don't believe in love. I don't believe in it, therefore, I will never fall in love. It wont happen. I refuse to let someone play with my emotions and make me think they care only to have them take it all back. I said in a confident voice making it sound like a fact, but I could feel my dead heart sink as I realized just how true those thoughts were.

The rest of the ride was silent. When the car stopped, I quickly thanked Carlisle and left for my room. Upon entering I found Heidi and Alice. Heidi was putting my clothes away and Alice was bouncing on my bed glowing.

"How was hunting?" Heidi asked with a mocking smile.

"Fine. I got a bear." I told her a little bit proud of my catch.

My eyes drifted to Alice who was watching me with a huge smile on her face.

"What's with her?" I asked Heidi. She just laughed, so I turned back to Alice. "Alice, why are you so smiley?" I asked, a little afraid of the answer.

"Bella?" she asked. "Did you have another vision?"

I nodded. "Yes. But we already saw it. What's the big deal?"

"Didn't you watch the whole thing?" she asked in a whining voice.

"I caught it off after the guy said he loved me." I told her truthfully.

"Why?" she whined. "That was the best part. Didn't you even see who it was?"

I shook my head 'no'. "Honestly I don't give a shit." I said in a hollow tones as Alice let out a frustrated sigh.

I ignored her. "So, can I change into some clothes that don't have blood on them?" I asked with a small laugh.

"Sure, I got you some jeans. Here." Heidi said, handing me an outfit. "You can go shower, if you want."

I nodded and headed off to the bathroom.

"But Bella, don't you want to know who it was?" Alice asked, sounding depressed.

"Nope. Don't care." I said as I closed the door on her sad face. Why did it matter so much to her anyways? I decided that I would forget all about that stupid vision. No good would come from me knowing the future. From now on, I would just leave that to Alice.

EPOV

I went to my room and on the way there ran into Felix. Not really the guy I want to talk to.

"Hey." he greeted me happily.

"Hello." I responded, not showing my annoyance.

"So, you took Bella hunting. How did she do?" he asked.

I shrugged. "She did fine, I suppose. She was able to catch a bear, it was actually pretty impressive for a new born." I told him. I left out the part about her having a little trouble on the way there. Somehow, I thought that was none of his business.

"I'll probably go with her next time." he told me, sounding proud of that fact.

"Oh? And why is that?" I asked.

"Well, because I'm Bella's body guard. I'll protect her. That way you wont have to hang around her anymore." he said a bit harshly.

"I'm pretty sure with now being a vampire, and having the powers she possesses, she doesn't exactly need protection. And why does me being around her make you uneasy?" I asked.

"Listen." he said coming in closer to me, trying to be threatening, but I didn't budge. No way this guy was going to intimidate me. "Keep away from Bella. She's mine!"

And with that he just walked away.

I rolled my eyes at half-wit and continued to my room, laying down on my bed, trying to think.

What had happened? I was so confused. She ignored me or was very short with me the whole day. But then, holding her in my arms felt so right. Like she belonged there. And then in an instant snapped back into 'hating Edward' mode.

And what was she thinking when she said she didn't believe in love? Really, she didn't believe in it at all? That seems so sad. Even I believed in love. Maybe not for myself, but I knew it existed for other people. And I had to believe that it was out there for her too. Somehow, I just knew it was.

"Hey Eddie!" Alice came dancing into my room.

"Alice, why are you so happy? And you know I hate when you call me that." I told her.

"Well, I had a very good vision today." she chirped.

"I know, it was the same as this morning." I told her, already knowing from what Bella said.

"Is that what she told you?" she asked. I merely nodded. "Well, it was a bit different. She stopped the vision before it got to the good part." she squealed, now jumping on my bed.

"Well, what was the good part?" I asked.

"I know who it was next to her!"

Hey guys. Hope you liked the newest chapter! I wanted to give my reasoning behind Bella's behavior. Think of it this way, when the change was finished, she was not only physically changed. Her body finally showed her what everyone else already saw...how beautiful she really is. So that gives her a boost of confidence. Hope that made sense. But she will be less OOC in later chapters, I promise...after all, she can't hate Edward for the whole story...lol.

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