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Chapter3-
Lies I Told Myself
(Ty Herndon)
Title is from a song, but makes me tear up slightly… which seems about right
A few of them are like that.
Raphael tries to explain…
It doesn't work…
{Head's up, I made myself cry with this one, fair warning}
(You may want to reread some of the past fluff, this may be kinda painful)
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Simon-Simon-Simon-Simon-Simon *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*God… w-what, h-how, what had happened?
He'd woken up completely content this morning, it was both his and Raphael's day off and they had no plans whatsoever but to spend the entire day together. He'd been happy and comfortable and completely in love with someone that he trusted absolutely…
He was curled up in Raphael's bed, where he'd spent more nights than his own anymore. The apartment was probably his favorite place…
How could it not be?
Not only did he have his wonderful, sweet, amazing boyfriend; there were also two cats-one that was practically almost his- he even got to help name her, as well as someone who was quickly becoming one of his best friends.
It was the place where he felt the safest, the most tranquil; where he really felt he belonged; like nothing could go wrong…
At least it had felt like that…
He was so stupid…
He slipped out of the room, pausing to pet Miss. CleoCatra, before moving out into the living room. Once there he saw Raphael and Magnus were both up out on the balcony. They were talking, looked like having one of their standard arguments…
It always made him laugh a bit. He and Raphael were a couple, but he swears the way they bicker was like an old married couple. He found it best to just stay out of it…
It was pretty entertaining though.
They had about a million embarrassing stories, and tended to tell them to Simon in attempts to embarrass each other… though Magnus had a tendency to win those, as he seemed impervious to it.
Raphael insisted it was because in order to be embarrassed you first had to actually be capable of feeling and processing shame.
They seemed on one now… something about fishing?
He didn't think he wanted to know…
He busied himself getting some coffee, vaguely listening to the words drifting in through the doors. He heard Magnus say something about Alec, about him being really upset.
He really hoped everything was okay…He had seemed kinda down as of late; he wondered if there was something he could do to help
He absently tunes back in the conversation…
"…m the psychic here"
"Yeah,right… you're a 'Psychic' like I'm a 'Vampire'."
Wait, what?
Magnus laughs slightly
"Darling, I believe I am a bit closer than that"
"Oh, no you're not! I still can't believe how many people just completely fall for that, I mean, come on, psychic? Really? You may as well of just said you were a Warlock!"
"That's a bit farfetched, don't yo-"
Magnus freezes, catching site of him near the doorway. His eyes grow wide, Raphael turns around, facing him…
"Simon…" Raphael starts
Simon can't listen to it, he can't even begin to try, doesn't want to…He turns around, and heads straight to the door, quickly reaching over, grabbing his keys from the table and walks right out, without stopping.
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*He actually manages to make it all the way down to the street, right next to his car. He's just reaching the door handle when Raphael catches up with him,
"Hey! Simon, wait, please, jus-"
He whirled around furiously, turning to face down the other man. Raphael actually takes a hesitant step back.
"Oh, juststop, Raphael, I don't want to hear it! I heard plenty already!"
"Simon, I'm SO sorry, I sho-"
"No, you're not! I heard you; laughing, joking talking about how ridicules it was, how funny it was that so many people actually 'bought' the 'psychic thing'… like their idiots, like I am an Idiot… like it's some game. God, I can't believe I trusted you, that I just believed you-"
Raphael shakes his head franticly, eyes wide, putting his hands up, placatingly
"No!Simon, please; I don't think that!I lov-"
"Don't you dare say that, I don't want to hear it. You have been lying to me the entire time I have known you, the entire time we have been together;
I can't believe a damn word you say."
Simon turned from him, climbing in his car and driving away, leaving Raphael standing there alone.
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Magnus-Magnus-Magnus-Magnus-Magnus *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*Magnus is pacing the floor nervously when Raphael comes back upstairs, he doesn't even hear the door open. He comes in, walks over to the couch, and just sets down quietly, completely still.
This truly worries Magnus; he almost seems as out of it as he was during the beginning of the bank heist.
"R-Raphael, darling? What happened?" he asks hesitantly,
Raphael shook his head faintly. He tried to start talking, but it just wouldn't come out. He closes his eyes, taking a few deep breaths, he shakes his head again, seemingly unable to look at Magnus, his gaze is focused on the floor.
He starts talking, in barely a whisper…
"H-he left… He said he couldn't trust me, couldn't believe a word I said…He just left"
Magnus set down tentatively beside him, cautiously wrapping his arm around the younger man. Raphael turns into him, wraps his arms around Magnus, holding on tight. He buries his face in his shoulder, breathing deeply, trying to keep it together, but it's really not working.
"I-I tried to explain, but he wouldn't listen. He thinks that it's some prank, some joke, that we were laughing at him, thought he was an idiot, that we were just playing him, that I was just playing him…I tried to tell him I wasn't, that I loved him, but he stopped me, he said he couldn't believe anything I told him…I, I think he may of broken up with me…"
"Oh, sweetheart, I am so sorry" Magnus tried to comfort him, hugging him tighter, but there was nothing he could really do…
"God, Magnus, h-how, can I get past this? I can't imagine not having him with me anymore… how can it just be over?"
Magnus just shook his head, at a loss as to what to say. Raphael looked up at him, more hurt and vulnerable than he had seen in well over a decade.
"Magnus, we should of told him…I wanted to, I almost did SO many times…I should have told him… god, why didn't I?"
Magnus hugged him again, nodding against his hair,
"Darling, it is all my fault, I should of let you…I should have told him myself. I was selfish, I am so SO sorry, and darling, I will do everything I can to fix this… I promise, I will find a way to fix this… I cannot stand being the reason this ends for you two."
Magnus tilted his head up, making Raphael look him in the eye
"Raphael, I will find a way to fix this… It will be alright."
Raphael shook his head, dejectedly, gazing back down
"No, Magnus… I-I really don't think it will" he said, his voice nearly breaking, barely a whisper.
He pulled away from Magnus, slowly standing up
"I think I'm just going to go lay down, kay?" he said softly
"Okay darling" Magnus said sadly
The second Raphael closed the door Magnus was up, off the couch, going for the door. He could not be the reason those two broke up. He had to find a way to fix it
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