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Chapter5-
What the Heart Wants
(Colin Raye)
Simon goes to Magnus and Raphael's to get them to help with Alec…
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Simon-Simon-Simon-Simon-Simon *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*Simon awkwardly stands, fidgeting slightly, waiting for the elevator to get to the guys place. His mind flashes back briefly to his first time coming here…
God, it seemed so long ago now…
The place seemed so alien then, he couldn't imagine actually staying somewhere like this. Now it was like home…
But it wasn't
Not anymore, at least.
He shook his head, trying to clear away the sadness that came with that thought, taking a deep, steadying breath. He was still mad at them; he did not forgive either of them. They had both lied to him; they used him to deceive the other his entire precinct. He couldn't just forget that. No matter how much he may wish he could. He couldn't TRUST them.
Couldn't trust him.
He took another deep breath, thinking this was a really bad idea. He shouldn't be here…But he really needed help with Alec, and they were the only people he could think of that might be able to find a way to fix whatever is wrong. Right now His concern for his partner was more important than his hurt feelings or relationship issues.
The elevator dings, he looks up the doors opening into the by now completely familiar alcove. He approaches the door, automatically reaching for his key. Raphael had given it to him a few weeks ago, he had been absolutely ecstatic.
He stops himself, putting the key away, lifts his hand and cautiously knocks on the door. It's silent for a moment, he's just reaching up to knock again when he hears the click of the lock. Magnus opens the door quietly, startling faintly, staring at him for a moment before glancing back towards the couch and hurriedly stepping out the door, pulling it closed behind him.
He turns back to Simon, beginning in almost a whisper.
"Simon…i-it is good to see you… I am glad you came by, but please do not upset him anymore, I really don't think he could handle it right now. I understand that you are upset, and you have every right to be… but if you just came by to confront him, it really must wait until later."
Simon shakes his head
"N-no, it's n-, that's not why I'm here. I need to talk to you about Alec."
Magnus looks concerned
"Is he alright? Did something happen?"
"Nothing happened, bu-"
They are interrupted by the door opening
"Magnus, wha-…"
Raphael freezes when he sees Simon standing there, as does Simon.
Raphael is currently wearing some old, faded bluish green track pants and a faded black, now really more grey, tank top with some kind of concert emblem that looks far too worn to really make out, it seems pretty old, and a bit small. His hair isn't styled at all, doesn't even look like it was brushed, it's really an absolute mess. Simon has never seen the other man this not together, it was rather disconcerting.
His expression is different as well and no less troubling.
This does not seem like the Raphael he knows.
He doesn't look confident or self-assured in the least. There is no smile, or smirk. There is no glare, or cold indifference like he had partly expected after their fight. There is no mask, he realizes, nothing but the truth…He looks hurt, and like he is trying to get his guard up, but just can't quite manage.
Like he almost wants to hope, but really couldn't handle being let down.
There's really nothing Simon can do against that. He reaches over, wrapping his arms around Raphael, pulling him in close.
As soon as he does Raphael makes a slight surprised, relieved shuttering breath of a sound. He wraps his arms around Simon, hugging him tight, begins franticly apologizing, switching between Spanish and English, trying to explain as much as he can as fast as he can, like he want to get it all out before Simon stops him. He is talking so quickly Simon can't even begin to try to keep up with it, wouldn't be able to even if half of it wasn't in a language he didn't know …
Simon finally does have to stop him. He leans over, pulling Raphael in, catching his lips in a soft, somewhat frantic kiss. Raphael makes a slight, contented sound, reaching up, running his fingers through Simon's hair, catching lightly, tugging him in deepening the kiss, it becoming rather frantic.
Simon finally, reluctantly breaks the kiss, pulling away just enough to talk, though he still slips a few kisses in between words.
"It's okay, it's alright, Raphael, it is…"
Raphael shook his head, looking up meeting Simon's eyes desperately,
"Simon, I am SO sorry, I am… I swear, I'll never lie to you again."
"You promise?"
Raphael nods quickly,
"Yes, yes, absolutely, never, I am so sorry I did in the first place…I know I shouldn't have…I never wanted to…it is the only thing I've ever lied to you about, and I hated it every minute, I just didn't know what else to do…I-It started before we got together and I didn't want to put you through that, couldn't ask you to keep the secret, and if it was for anyone else I never would of done it…b-but it was Magnus, and it was his only chance, and I just couldn't do that…But I am SO sorry, and-"
Simon gave a slight laugh
"What?" Raphael asked, confused
Simon shook his head faintly,
"You're rambling…the last time you did that I thought you were dying or something."
Raphael gave a slight bit of a laugh, smiling faintly; he remembered that too, setting on the floor of the apartment. It was one of his favorite memories.
Though, thanks to Simon, he was starting to have quite a lot to choose from...
Simon hugs him tightly again, before pulling back just enough to make eye contact,
"Raphael, this was big, huge, and we may still have some work to do because of it…I really want to trust you, I do…but it may take time to get back to exactly how we were.
But I have absolutely no doubt that we will…Okay?" he paused resting his hand on Raphael's cheek, he nodded quickly, turning his head, pressing a soft kiss to Simon's palm. Simon's breath hitched, he tugged him a little closer
"I love you Raphael…I love you so much, and that is something that will never change, I know that for sure."
"Yo también te amo, más de lo que alguna vez pensé que era posible" Raphael said softly, in barely a whisper,
Simon smiled softly,
"I still don't speak Spanish, but I take it that's good, right?"
"I love you too, more than I ever thought possible."
Simon beamed, blushing slightly
"Yeah… it's really good"
Raphael smiles warmly, leaning in, tugging Simon into one more soft sweet kiss. Simon gives a happy sigh, wrapping his arms around Raphael, melting into the kiss, and giving a happy, contented sigh…
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* Magnus-Magnus-Magnus-Magnus-Magnus *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*As soon as Simon hugged Raphael Magnus stealthy slipped back into the apartment, wanting to give the two the moment. They more than deserved it after all that. He breathed a sigh of relief
Thank god
They were going to work it out; they were going to be okay
Raphael was going to be okay…
Magnus had been truly worried how the younger man would be able to handle it if they couldn't work it out. He had been honest with Simon. Raphael really didn't have a lot of truly good things in his life; hadn't for most of it. His younger years were particularly rough; he had to deal with a lot growing up. He had Magnus and Henry -the man saw Raphael just as much of a family member as Magnus did… saw him as another son, no different than Magnus, It was actually one of the only things they'd always seen eye to eye on.)
He had a few closer friends, like Clary and Rangor, but really, until Raphael met Simon, that'd been about it. He had people who annoyed him less than most… but beyond that? He wasn't really overly social, with the exception of Magnus, and a few very select others he was actually usually just happier on his own. Despite his people skills, he had never really been a people person.
He rather liked his job, as it played into his strengths, but other than that, there wasn't a whole lot that really mattered to the guy…
That he genuinely cared about
Magnus knew that he had wanted to find someone. He'd try to meet people; go out, socialized, but had all but given up (optimism had never really been his strong suit). The Ace thing made dating insanely complicated, as it was either bring it up right from the start or wait to see how it goes and feel like you're leading them on.
It was frustrating, because with most people there is just no win in that. Trying to explain to anyone, much less a potential romantic partner, that you aren't really interested in sex, that it isn't something you really need…
Trying to get them to understand that you're not just playing hard to get,
That an actual, sexual, relationship may not be a given…
Yeah…It was difficult
Add to it Raphael's exceptional ability to read others; particularly what they thought about him…and…yeah…
Magnus was pretty sure he had all but given up on finding someone.
And then he had met Simon, and his entire world changed. Simon's optimism and cheer seemed contagious. Raphael smiled and laughed, sometimes for no real reason at all, now… just because he was happy.
Magnus had seen that more and more often. God he loved seeing that. He wasn't nearly as guarded as he had been. He was more trusting. Seemed more willing to open up to others, to actually let them in.
He still saw the negatives in people, but he didn't seem to focus on them as much. It had amazed Magnus, the changes in the younger man; it was all he had ever wanted for Raphael.
The interaction with Alec at the Bank had nearly floored Magnus. He acted affronted, but honestly seeing Raphael having little in jokes with someone, smiling, seeing Raphael genuinely bonding with someone...that was huge.
Raphael was happy, really truly happy… he was content, more so than Magnus had ever seen. He was so relieved they were working it out; had no doubt they would. The look on Simon's face when he saw Raphael said everything.
They were going to be fine…
They would make it…
Magnus had not ruined it; hadn't taken that away from them…
He took a deep breath, finally feeling the knot in his stomach that'd been there since yesterday morning easing up a bit…
Magnus wondered why Simon had came over, recalling he had said something about Alexander. He hoped everything was alright; Simon hadn't seemed panicked, so he doubted the detective was hurt or anything as dramatic as that. Still, he was anxious, he glanced towards the door, hoping they'd come in soon, as he didn't want to interrupt their reunion, but, now that that was sorted, for the most part anyways, he recalled exactly what had started all this, how down Alexander had been…
He really hoped they came back in soon…
*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-* _End Of Chapter Notes_ *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*I fixed it!
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Now onto Alec's issues