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Chapter 6

MPOV

"-Outside" I texted her when I got to the corner near her house where we use to meet.

While I waited for her to tell me if I should come to her back door or if she was coming out to me. I thought back on the conversation I had with my Dad as I was leaving out. When I came downstairs to go out to my truck he was sitting at the kitchen isle looking at his phone.

"Dad?"

He sighed heavily before he gestured for me to sit on one of the stools. "Masen, I just wanted to tell you that I do trust your judgement. I know your mom and sister have kind of been on your back lately and I just wanted you to know. Everyone makes mistakes. No one is immune but we have to try to make good choices. You shouldn't just dive into 9 feet of water because you can. Take some time and test the waters first. OR don't swim at all it on you."

"We're just going to talk. It's been so long since I've held her. I miss her so much Dad." I looked down trying to get ahold of my emotions again. He had no idea how much I missed her and I wasn't going to waste her invitation because he thought I would do something stupid.

He nodded "I know you do son, I know." He pulled back out his phone and walked out of the kitchen leaving me confused as to what he expected me to do.

I ended up just doing what I thought I should've done.

I waited for about 10 minutes until she just popped up at my window. Effectively scaring the shit out of me. I unlocked the door and she hopped in the cab. "Hey."

I sighed heavily to center myself and gave her a "Hey" with a head nod in return.

"Don't give me that lopsided smile." I eyes went wide as I laughed. I was very happy to see her alone.

She was beautiful. It looked like she must have recently washed her hair because it was large and curly as it framed around her face

"Sorry" I shrugged. Unapologetic. "So, you want to go up to Admiral Point?" It was a place we used to go to for privacy.

She shook her head. "So… what's the plan here?"

"Masen, I want to go back to your house. "

"Not a good idea. My Dad was up before I left out. I know he wouldn't be ok with you coming since he didn't want me to go out in the first place."

"Oh, do you think you'll get in trouble?" She asked, concern.

"Naw, He was cool. You want to just get in the back then?"

She looked around her neighborhood then nodded and climbed over the seat through the window into the bed of the truck. I smiled at her eagerness and got out of the truck to get in the back. Once we were seated on our separate sides of the bed there was an awkward silence while she played with her phone.

"Makenna?" I sighed. Her head popped up as she looked at me in the dark. "Come here." She smirked and slid under my arm as I pulled her close. We laid back on the blanket I kept back here. I put my face right in her neck under her ear and just breathed her in. "God, Kenna, I missed you so much."

She sighed as well. Then I felt her open and close her mouth couple times. I pulled back to find her face in indecision. "What's wrong?" I asked even though I didn't want to know. I just wanted to live in this moment but I moved back to let her know I was listening.

"Masen, I don't want you to get mad…"

"I won't" I tried to sound sure of that statement but I wasn't "Just tell me" I was scared shitless.

"You remember when we were in the office and Zafrina said that you like the way… the things she did with you." I nodded looking up at the dark black sky, ashamed. "Well, I just wanted to know what those things were?"

I squeezed my eyes closed. I do not want to have this conversation I just wanted to be with her like we used to. "Ba, I mean Makenna, you don't want to hear all those details. I don't want to relive them either. Can we just move on?"

"NO!" Shit. "I want to know what she thought or actually did do to keep you from me."

I just stared up at the moonless starless sky. I wondered where all the stars had gone. We lived far enough from downtown to still be able see them Farley clearly. Was it a sign that all the things that brightened up my life were out of reach for me.

I was surprised to hear my sniffle sound off in my ears. "Makenna, I wish I could show you how much I love you. I wish I could undo all the pain I've caused you and my family. But I can't. I can't do anything but give you shitty worthless apologies." I was failing miserably at controlling my emotions.

I felt out of control, especially when my arm lurched forward to punch the wheel well close to where I was laying "Please! Please don't make me talk about that shit. Please Makenna. I'm begging. I'm Begging." I was helpless as I weep into my hands. Tears rolling back into my ears. I was a mess.

"Masen?" I couldn't respond. "Seriously, Masen look at me." I took a couple deep breaths as I looked up at her. "So, you said your parents made you see that lady? Well you need to really talk to her. Zafrina technically date raped or whatever the word is."

"She knows what happed and asked me if I wanted to go down that route; I choose not to. Makenna, Baby, I just to get my life back. I want to get you back. I want to be me again." And in all honesty after the first time with her I could've stood up for myself. There was so much shame and pleasure and confusion.

She nodded but I don't think she agreed with my choice.

There was another moment of her ignoring me while she stared into her phone again. I watched her face the best I could under street light.

She peeked up and moved back into my arms pulled my head back down into her neck. I breathed in deep getting drunk off of her.

"Masen?"

"Hmm?"

"You don't have to tell me, but could you show me? If I don't like it I'll tell you. I promise. I just want to know what it feels like." What, what felt like?

I pulled back in shock and to look at her face. She was serious. She was blushing and I didn't want to do this.

"Makenna, I'm not sure what you think she did but baby, you have always been perfect. Have you ever heard me complain? No. Because I have no complaints. I have never wanted more then what you gave. She just did everything, it had nothing to do with me." I finished in shame. I didn't want her comparing herself to Zafrina, she was 20 times better than Zafrina.

"But what if I said I wanted to do new stuff?" She asked from under her lashes. Shit

In an strange act of boldness she mounted me as she kissed along my neck and my body shut off all connections to my brain. She kind of grinded along my boner that sitting right against her heated sweatpants.

Once again I found myself weak and a victim to a girl. Though this time I was deeply in love with the person that was controlling me. "Kenna." I embarrassedly moaned her name.

She sat up on top of me and I pulled her back down onto my body. "Someone will see you if you sit up." I whispered blessed to be hidden in the bed of my truck. She grinded on me more until I felt like I was going cum right in my pants. "God, please stop."

She sat back with a smirk now on her face and placed her hands under my shirt but I held her wrist to stop her. Her face fell, confused by my actions.

"Makenna, do you still love me?" She never answered me when I asked and I couldn't, we couldn't go back to having a relationship without that being established first.

There was a pregnant pause that broke my heart then she sighed "I don't know."

Well, that sucks.