I don't own Wolf's Rain, blah-de-blah. This is just fan made, blah-de-blah. On with the fanfiction.
Jiro's pack didn't attack for a few weeks, and during that time, Tsume spent most of his time with Cheza, feeling too guilty to interact with the rest of the pack, he could still smell Hige and Blue's blood, even though the pack had moved on, leaving the blood behind. Cheza enjoyed Tsume's company, she wasn't used to his presence and liked that he trusted her enough to come to her when he was feeling upset and guilty, even though he didn't actually tell her everything, he only told her that he felt awful and wanted to be away from the other wolves.
Tsume felt like he'd let everyone down, Hige had asked him to help Blue, and he had been unable to do anything but bluff, and the stupid Raven had gone and told everyone that he was lying. Tsume felt like crying, he felt Cheza's hand on his head and felt comforted, he had grown to trust Cheza a lot over the last few days, he didn't even think that Toboe would understand everything, he was too young and too innocent, he wouldn't understand about Jiro's pack trying to get revenge, and wanting to cause as much pain to Tsume as they could.
'Tsume, tell this one what is bothering you,' Cheza said, gently.
'I couldn't help them,' Tsume mumbled. 'Even when we were fighting Yuki I wasn't brave enough to kill her, all I did was try to distract her.'
Cheza kept on stroking the grey wolf, slightly shocked that the strong, unfeeling front could give way to such a vunerable, caring personality.
'You did help, you stopped Blue from being killed in front of Hige, that would have made Hige very sad.'
'Hige got killed in front of Blue with the same effect,' Tsume pointed out.
Cheza didn't reply, she just kept stroking, running her fingers through the grey fur. She started to hum, softly, knowing that her song soothed the wolves.
'What should I do, Cheza?' Tsume asked.
'This one thinks you should tell the others,' Cheza said.
'Tell them what? That I'm being chased by a pack of wolves that wants to kill every single one of them, and you, and then kill me!?' Tsume cried, leaping to his feet, looking scared, worried, and sick of the whole thing.
Cheza was shocked by this outburst, she looked over at the other wolves, hoping none of them had heard and freaked out, Raven had obviously heard, she was staring at Tsume in shock, her mouth hanging open, she was the only wolf that was using her illusion.
'Tsume, you should trust your friend, they need to know, then they can be prepared. If they are truley your friends, they will stick by you,' Cheza said, gently.
Tsume layed down again, wishing Jiro would just hurry up and finish him off, he couldn't stand this, he didn't want to hurt his friends like this, Raven hadn't been speaking to him for ages, and Toboe always looked sad and scared, not sure whose side to be on, since he was such good friends with both Raven and Tsume, so he had been spending most of his time alone or with Kiba, trying to get away from the non-verbal non mental fued that was going on between Raven and Tsume.
'I'm sick of this whole thing, I just want it to stop,' Tsume whimpered, his eyes shut, tight, he was clearly scared and upset and tired, he needed someone to comfort him, he needed one of the pack to comfort him, not just Cheza. Cheza just wasn't enough to calm him down.
Raven walked over, dropping her illusion, and sat down in front of Cheza and Tsume.
'Tsume, why didn't you tell us?' she asked him, softly. 'We'd all have understood.'
Tsume didn't react, he just whined. Cheza placed a hand on his head and began stroking him again, looking at Raven. Raven wanted to do something to comfort Tsume, but she couldn't think of anything that didn't go against her personality completely. She was also a little bit too shocked to think due to the fact that, in all the months that she had known Tsume, she had never once heard him whine, it was strange, it was like Kiba suddenly proclaiming that Paradise was a stupid myth that didn't exist, or Hige saying that he wasn't hungry, or Toboe attacking a human, it was completely unnatural.
I am in serious danger of making myself cry. And this isn't a filler chapter, I'm trying to portray the sadness of the story, as well as the violence and anger.