Chapter 23

MPOV

The weeks following the news were hard for my family. It was strange to be so far away from them during this hard time. I don't think Uncle Jazz's health deteriorated much but their spirits were all down.

I talked to JJ a couple of days after the adults told everyone. He was oddly ok with everything. He said he knew something was very wrong because his dad was acting strange. When I asked him to elaborate he said he didn't want to get into the details but things had been different for a while.

I spend the next several weeks splitting my very limited time between class, practice, my friends, being on the phone with my family and Goldilocks, and my new job.

Bussing tables wasn't hard. It was dirty and people are disgusting. Joe, the owner was awesome. He let me work whenever I wanted to and I even stepped in as a server on some super busy nights.

To say I was over whelmed would be an understatement.

Work wasn't hard but School was!

I was blessed to have passed all of my first exams. It was mostly note taking at this point but I didn't want to miss anything, we had three more exams and a paper for all of my classes this the semester.

My instructors seemed cool enough, they follow the syllabus so I am never too lost. Even through my attendance hasn't been that well for some classes.

I wasn't doing too bad. My GPA was hanging around a B, which was good enough for me and the sport division…

Conditioning was actually like therapy for me. I could get all of my extra energy out on the field and my coaches loved it. I hadn't had any more injuries since I busted up my face. My scar was still very prominent. I don't look forward to any of the women in my family seeing it Angela was bad enough.

Speaking of extra energy, our relationship hadn't really gotten that much better. We had made up since she decided going out drinking was more important than me.

After not speaking with her at all that Sunday, when I went to the hospital. And after a full day of classes I came back to my dorm with a hurting face and a hungry stomach.

I just needed a moment to decompose and take some painkillers before I texted Demi to see if he wanted to go to the commons.

I was laying across the bed when someone gently knocked on the door. I heaved myself off of the bed and opened it to find my red faced girlfriend looking pitiful.

"Hey…" what the…." Oh my god! What happened to your face?"

"Hey! What are you doing here?" My excitement got the better of me. I missed her…

"What happened to your face Masen?" she screeched.

"I split my lip during a scrimmage, I didn't call because…well you know."

"No, I don't know! Were you really that mad at me?" I gave her a jerky nod because yeah I was that upset with her.

"Why are you here?" I asked, back mad.

"I'm here to say I'm sorry! I've been such a bitch lately and Mariah hasn't been helping with her constant pessimism. ¿Me perdonas?" Did I forgive her?

I didn't have an answer for her but I moved to the side and let her into my room. We sat next to each on the bed. "How did you get here?"

"I borrowed a car from a friend … against Mariah's wishes but I really needed to see you!"

"How long was the ride?" I asked even through all I could think about was who this 'friend' she barrowed the car from was.

"It wasn't too bad, I it took only three and a half hours." She sped the whole way here. The drive was an average four and half hours, even longer on a Monday where she'll run into traffic.

"Angie, why are you here? Why didn't you go to class and hang out with your friends, or whatever else you do?"

"I am sorry Masen! I know I fucked up but I love you and I want to make it up to you."

"Angela, I just need you to let me be the most important person. Mariah and whoever else you become friends with need to fall after me. Especially when I am calling in the middle of the night, I don't do that so I had to have had a reason…"

"I know; it didn't help that I was sauced out of my mind. I am sorry and I will do better! I promise!"

I just nodded as she moved close to me, I guess I forgive her but she really needs to act like she gave a shit about me or we won't last. The thought was heartbreaking but felt inevitable…

She laid her head on my shoulder for a moment as I ran my head through her hair. "Goldie, Uncle Jasper is dying…" I said quietly

"Aye dios mío! I am so sorry Masen!" She said as she sprung up "How is Alice holding up?" I shrugged…

"I don't know really; My Dad was being my Dad about it all."

The "I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you when you found out." Just then I thought of who was here, Ashley. I was screwed.

She apologized for a while and then mounted me as she kissed down my neck, I surprisingly wasn't in the mood. It had been so long since we've had sex, why didn't I want her?

She moved down my body and pulled me out of my jeans. After licking and sucking for a while my body started to react to her. Just as I was about to come in her mouth the door flew open.

I looked up to see Ashley and Demetri in the doorway staring in shock. Angela I guess did not hear the door or feel me tense up. When she's into something she is into it.

"Oh shit! My bad bro!" Demi mouthed as he backed away, Ashley though. She stood there for a second looking between my girlfriend and my eyes before He pulled her out of the door…

I'm not sure why but in a very sick and perverted way it turned me on. I need to go see a therapist… again.

I don't know what come over me but I put both of my hands in her golden locks and throated her until she gagged and I came hard into her mouth.

I threw myself back onto my bed. "I'm so sorry if that was too rough." I said I sheepishly. I felt bad…kind of.

She smirked as she climbed herself up my body and pulled off her leggings before straddling me. As she lowered her-self onto my diminishing boner she said something in Spanish that I took as she was fine with how things went.

She rode me until she came within 5 minutes. I thanked the stars that my fading boner lasted.

We talked for a while and she apologized more until there was a knock on the door. "Hold on!" I yelled as we threw our clothes back on. "Come in." I said and in came Ashley and Demi…

Ashley was being extra friendly to Angela and it was weird for me. Neither of these women were super friendly especially with other girls. Angela always said she didn't really get along with other women. As for Ashley was just awkward around them like she wasn't sure how to be a 'girls girl'.

The whole thing was very strange indeed.

Demi wasn't any help because all he kept doing was giving me head nods and thumbs up!

She left the following morning after meeting Zach and trying to convince him to be nice to me. I don't know why he liked her but his feelings for her didn't rub off onto me.

So now here I am two months later sitting outside in the cold at SeaTAc Airport waiting on my Dad who was running late to come to get me.

My scar on my lip still bad but heeled again I say I don't look forward to my family seeing it.

I texted Angie to let her know I landed and was waiting on my Dad to pick me up.

"- I made it Goldie-M"

"- Yay! You didn't crash and die J- Goldilocks"

"-You are twisted! Waiting on my Dad to get me- M" I chose to ignore her dark ass sense of humor. Before I could respond to her text I received one from Ashely.

"- I hope you landed safely and didn't die!- Ash Ketchum" Why is every woman in my life crazy?

"-I'm fine! I made it! Tell Demi, I know he's right next to you- M"

It felt so good to have these friends around. They were good people, who cared about me.

Just then I looked up to find my Dad slow jogging toward me. I got up and gathered my bags and started walking towards him. He embraced me tightly into a hug and let out a strange sigh.

"You ok?" I asked as non-accusatory as I could.

"Yeah, yeah." He pulled away and sniffled and wiped his face on the sleeve of his jacket.

"I'm serious are you ok?" I wasn't going to bust his chops like I'm sure he thought I was but I was worried about him. His been more unstable as the weeks went along.

"Yeah, I am good. It's just been a little hard around here, ya know?" He'd been calling at random times and I often felt like I was talking him off a ledge.

We made it to the car quickly. Trying to get away from the cold. The weather was similar, Seattle and Hanover. It was mid-October and was already cold.

Once in my Dad's suv he turned the heat up high.

"Seriously, how are you? And everyone?" I asked even though I spoke with everyone on a daily basis, it was different, seeing his face.

He huffed. "We are…" he huffed again." We're just keeping our heads above water, son. You know Jasper is between coast and that is putting a strain on Alice and the Kids. JJ is acting out and being a jackass, I've had to put him into the wall more than once."

I just shook my head because it's more than likely that I would have to as well over my weekend in town.

"Also, your sister is going through it with Jacob again. Your mother is being a dumbass about it all." I shook my head even more. My Dad really only confides in me about how he feels about how my mother handles Carlie and Jacob's relationship.

I knew that Carlie spent some time down in La Push a couple months ago but she said it went as good as she expected, whatever that means, but that she wouldn't be doing anymore overnights there anymore. I asked her for detail but she didn't want to give any.

I let it go as long as no one hurt her but now I wanted to make sure that was the case.

"What is Mom doing?"

"Nothing! and that is the problem. If you and Vicky were having these same problems I would just tell you to let her go until she got her shit together. Also, if Vicks parents had all these crazy ideas about how your future I would shut them down!" He was pissed…

"I'm confused…"

"Jake was staying in the room that Billy said he'd setup for Carlie. There was this whole thing about him having to stay on the couch while she was up there. Billy was pissed at his dead beat son but, hey, he raised him… Then she said he spent the whole time trying to set her up with little Quil, Jake's friend kid. She ended up telling him that she was a lesbian. That mother fucker called Bella fussing about how is was our fault and that we had too free of a household. She refused to give me the phone and he was lucky because that crippled bitc…"

"Whoa! Dad, clam down. I agree fuck him! But you can't go talking about crippled people." I laughed awkwardly. I knew he didn't mean it and that he was frustrated but I had to stop him.

He ran his hand through his hair and I was oddly comforted by the familiar gesture.

"I am sorry to unload on you. How are things on your end?"

"I don't know… To be honest. All I can think about is ya'll most of the time. You guys and Angela. Demi and Ash are my fun and work is my distraction."

He didn't reply much to that but asked more about school and Lacrosse. He liked Demi and Ashley, and wanted me to start making payments on my fines since I was working. Our conversation took us all the way home.

We got in late in the night but the house was lit up.

I walked into the house through the garage door and in the kitchen sat my Grandma Esme, My Mom, Carlie and, and Renee.

"Ahh, Hey?" I said and they all squealed and came barreling at me. My Mom got to me first, she grabbed me into a death grip but when she pulled back with tear filled eyes her brow furrowed.

"Oh my God! Your face!" shit

Oh yeah I forgot about that…well kind of.

"Yeah…" I didn't know what else to say.

"Gees Mase! I thought you said it was an itch and it didn't look that bad on Facetime." I gave Carlie, Renee and my Grandma who all had tears in their eyes a hug.

"Stop it guys!" They were making me teary eyed. This was the longest any of us had been apart from the family.

"Grandma, what are you doing here so late?" I asked not realizing until after she made a face that there was three hours between the time I was feeling and the time it actually was. I looked at my phone to find that it read 10:00pm. In New Hampshire it was 1:00 in the morning.

"I am an adult whom can stay up as long as I wish." I eyed my eyes at her hoity toity-ness.

"Where's the great Doctor?" I was kind of upset with my Grand Dad. I knew it was unfair, but we all put all out trust in him to know when we needed him and I feel like he failed us.

"He is at work…" She said it while looking away but I didn't have the energy to inquire further. I let out a big yawn by accident.

"OK Masen, go lay down we will see you in the morning!" My mother all but ordered me off to bed. I gave out more hugs and went without a fight. I was dog tried after school and then my flight.

I went up to my bed and stripped down to my boxers and a t-shirt. My bed felt so good. The twin sized mattresses on campus was shit compared this bed were I could really stretch out!

Just as I was about to drift off I felt someone watching me. I peeked open my eyes to see Carlie standing in my door frame.

"Hey…" I said groggily, she didn't respond." Come here Carlie." I demand and threw the covers back for her to get in with me. she complied. "What's wrong?"

"We missed you Mase."

"I know, I missed you guys too." I said with my eyes closed. This was very familiar. She use to do this all the time when we were younger. Whenever she was scared or anxious I had to either get into her bed or she would get into mine. "But we all knew that, what brings you to my room to annoy me?" I asked joking.

"Things were just really bad and it all started once you left."

"Other than Uncle Jazz, which was out of any of our control, what else has been bad?" I was waking up, sort of, because I felt as if this information was going to be important.

"Well for starts Kebi, I just know she's fucking that bitch she's living with! She won't answer her phone sometimes, and I know she isn't busy because she is on Snapchat and shit." I nodded because although I am sure this is important to her, I could give negative fucks about it.

"Then there is all the bullshit with Jacob and Grandpa Billy." I perked up a bit. I just wanted to make sure I didn't have whip anyone's ass. "Ya know, I wasn't going to tell them until after graduation but they kept pushing Quil on me. I told him not to tell them but I wasn't interested in guys. He got really mad." She stared off into that face I hated, the face that was galaxies away.

I nodded but it was just to keep me calm. I was pissed! Who did that fucker think he was to get mad about a girl not wanting him.

"I'm not going to act like I wasn't scared for a minute but I thought Grandpa Billy or Jacob would come to my rescue. They did kind of, they were pissed that he was raising his voice at me, until they found out why. "

"What? That's bullshit!"

"I know," She laughed but it was slightly Hysterical. I hated it. "Homosexuality is not acceptable to the Quileute. My people…Then Billy has the nerve to say that it's was because I was a half breed and being raised by a white man who has no values."

Those words shot me out of my bed. "But his best friend is white, how on earth could he be racist?" I was thoroughly confused. To my knowledge he wanted my Mom to marry Jacob, she is as white as they come.

She nodded. "I think in the heat of the moment his true colors appeared. I know he loves Grandpa Charlie but we both know he had different opinion about raising kids. Just look at Jacob." She shrugged.

I was in shock. "Maybe he just meant Daddy has no values. I don't know. It was all so strange because you know how they raised us and you can't seem to get enough Black and Spanish girls." She said with a smirk.

"Neither can you…" I mumbled and we both laughed. If I were being honest I loved all women! I don't care which race you are if you have the features I find attractive. I love a lady with curves and so does my sister because every girl she'd been attracted to was thick in the right places.

"But yeah, I haven't spoken to Grandpa Billy since that day. I was so happy Grandpa Charlie is so close because I would've felt trapped. He came to get me immediately and they got into a shouting match. Grandpa Charlie found out this way as well. He also didn't seem happy but he didn't go off either. "

"What did he say? I am sorry all this was happening. You make it seem like things were ok when we've talked."

"Because they are ok, I wish you understood what much better we all feel after talking to you. We really miss your goofy ass!" she nudged me before getting out of the bed. "I'll tell you the rest tomorrow.

"I'm with all the guys until late tomorrow."

"Oh, You going to see Uncle Jasper?" I nodded. She sighed heavily "Well good luck with that."

She left the room and I felt heavy. She was my little sister and wanted to protect her but I am unsure if I even could from these men who claim to be her family.

I'll just have to have a conversation with the 'adults' tomorrow. They are letting this slip in my opinion and I going to let them know how I feel about it.