A/N: Unbeta'd

MPOV

I slid out from under Ashley and glanced over to see that Alex's bed was still empty. I pulled the blanket up her body to make sure she didn't catch a chill from my missing warmth. I threw on some sweats, an undershirt, and my slides and snuck out of my room. Being sure to grab my key in an effort not to have to wake her at any point.

"Bro…"-Ma$e

I went and sat in the common area of my floor and texted Demi hoping on hope that he was up. I sat back thinking over the night.

She came in broken, tired, and bruised. It gave me headache just thinking back over the last couple of hours.

My rubbed my eyes as stepped back and allowed her to enter. Taking no time to get dress, noticing her tear stained face I kept quiet, not wanting to pressure her to speak. After several silent moments, I had to know what happened and why. I lifted her arm "who..." I had to clench and unclench my jaw at least seven times before I could get it all out "who hurt you Ash?"

I couldn't stop my thoughts from wanting to crack Jeff's face.

"Oh this?" she held up her arm which had a huge bruise running down it. " I fell. I promise! Everyone knows you guys are my friends. You two are huge! I doubt anyone on this campus would ever risk their lives..." she trailed off looking away.

"You'd be surprised what people forget in the heat of a moment. Seriously what's going in Ashley? Its 3:00 in the fucking morning, you're crying, barely dressed..." wait why is she half dressed, it was the middle of October in Boston. The building supervisors kept it pretty chilly throughout but we could adjust of room temperature.

"I… Jeff and I have been at each other's throats so much lately." I knew this, Demi was always would text me when they would go at it. Jeff was barley ever around but when he was it was drama.

"I know." She kind of sniffled and of course it broke my heart. I hate to see women crying.

"Masen, I have a confession. I have always liked you as more than a friend." I nodded because I knew that. She had a hard time concealing for attraction for me. But neither she nor I ever crossed any of the clear lines we'd drawn for on another. I too found Ashley very attractive, but she was just a friend now. I had to respect my relationship… well I use to have to respect my relationship.

"I… I ahh, I told Jeff, and he knew, he saw the way I looked at you. He's been accusing me of cheating on him since you came to school. He never outright called you out, until now after I ahh… accidently called him your name."

She said to her hands and I reeled at her words. "Ashley…." I was speechless. "Ahh, were you guys…" I wriggled my eyebrows at her and she nodded. I burst out laughing, I couldn't help it. She playfully slapped my arm laughing along with me.

"Stop it! It really wasn't funny in the moment. Masen, you have become one of my best friends. I don't know how that happened or how to stop my feelings for you. I don't want anything to change between all of us. " She looked shameful.

I didn't know what to think. She was right she was one of my closest friends here at school well, really one of my only friends here. I talked and joked with my team mates but I always so busy and Demi and Ashley were the only people I made time for.

"Ash, I don't know what to say. I'm still confused as to how you ended up on my doorstep if things hadn't turned violent or aggressive. I knew you found me attractive, and I you, but I didn't know you were thinking of me while you were fucking your boyfriend." She blushed at my forwardness. It took all of my will power to not let my voice drop down, or to lower my eyes to her barely covered breast.

"Masen, I think of you way more then I should. I have been trying not to burden you with all of this, then this happened and we got into a shouting match. He refused to leave my room. So I just came here. I acted on auto pilot. I didn't even think of putting on anymore clothes then what I threw on once we started fighting." I nodded but stayed quiet.

I couldn't think… I was trying but I could wrap my head around what I would do if my long term girlfriend said another man's name while we were fucking. I couldn't imagine it. In the same thought I was coming to terms with being that man, I wondered if she thought of me while she doing it to herself. I need to chase these thoughts away.

I literally just got out of a relationship and although I was flattered and intrigued by all of it couldn't just jump right into another situation with someone that is so important to me. Instead of saying anything I pulled her into the bed with me and pulled the blanket up over us. She came willingly and snuggled her ass into me. I let out a loud huff but didn't move away and just held her.

The reality was that I needed the affection more than I could say. I was going through so much and just the warm of another person was soothing and I slept the best I had in weeks. I only woke up because the several alarms on my watch.

I rubbed my hands up and down my face as I notice people start to teeter around my floor.

"Yeah, what's up?- Demi"

"So, Ash stayed with me last night.- Ma$e"

"…-Demi" I laughed out loud causing people to look at me oddly. Next thing I knew he was sitting next to me.

"So…" This man was such a gossip. You would think he was a girl.

"Nothing man, it was strange. She basically confessed that she'd been into me this whole time; which we both knew. We just talked a while and then went to bed." I laughed.

He was in shock "Went to bed! Went to bed! Wha…what do you mean you guys went to bed? Like together?"

"Yeah, we just went to sleep…"

"and nothing, as much as she been wanting to jump your bones? Nothing comes from it!"

"I guess…" I shrugged.

"I have to wait to talk to her, I am sure she'll give me the tea." He said as we snapped his fingers and pretended to sip an imaginary hot mug.

We joked around for a while and my phone vibrated from my lap.

"Where are you?- Ash Ketchum"

"In the common area with demi… I'll be right in.- Ma$e"

"I gotta go man, are you going to class?" I asked as stood up to go back to my room.

"Yeah, I guess… I just got my midterm grades and it's not looking too good. I have to pull all of my classes out of my ass before I flunk out and lose all my funding." I nodded, although I couldn't relate. I was doing good, I always stayed on top of all my shit, I didn't let any of it fall behind. I didn't have room for those types of mistakes.

I walked into my room to find Ashley in just her underwear. I just stood there for a couple of beats. "Ahh, what's going on?" I asked her as I swallowed the large lump in my throat. I realized in that moment that I didn't really clear up where I stood when it came to us.

She shrugged.

"Why do the heavens always bless me with these beautiful women?" I said to the gods. I looked at her one more time before closing my eyes. Great footage for the spank bank.

I opened my eyes to find her standing so close to me that I could feel her warmth. It made my mouth water. "Come on Mase, we could just this once and never talk about it again. I just figured if I was gonna risk my relationship, I mind as well make it worth it." She looked up at me from under her lashed and for some reason this all felt like déjà vu.

I sighed heavily. "Ashley… you have no idea how much I would like to take you up on that offer." She shrunk at the rejection and my heart broke a little. "No, honey, there is no need to feel insecure."

I ran my fingers through her hair and down her neck , holding on to the little restraint I had left in me. "Look at me. I would fuck you sideways if you didn't mean so much to me. Ashley, I'm serious, give me some time. I have don't want to just fuck you. I can't just fuck you… you mean to much to me."

She nodded as she stepped back toward my bed to grab her clothes. Over her shoulder her eyes went wide. "You sure you don't want me to handle that for you?" she jerked her head towards me and looked down to my embarrassingly hard dick. I shook my head as my ears got hot.

She giggled and I never noticed how much I liked it. Ugh! I have to get better at how easily smitten I was.

The days following her confession were awkward to say the least, we all still hung out but everything had an air of tension. I didn't like it because these guys were my stress relief.

I had been talking to my Dad more often lately, just wanting to me kept in the loop with Uncle Jazz. He was doing well, but not better. I just kept asking them all to give it more time, time I knew they didn't have.

He seemed more concerned about Carlie then anything. She was dating an older girl, older than me. He didn't trust her but could explain why. I found him funny. I talked to Carlie about her and it sounded like she had her head on as straight as expected.

My mom was concerned about her parents. It all just seemed like they were being nosey to me. I told her that and got yelled at. whatever

I tried to talk to my dad about my situation with Ashley and thought I had made the right choice. He never thought I should've kept Angela as a girlfriend once we came to school. He thinks I should be spending my extra time, when I got it, making new friends and having new experiences.

I guess I agree with him, although I didn't really make any new friends. Demi and Ashley were my friends and the rest of these people weren't important.

A couple days later, on Halloween, Demi and Ash came to my room to tell me about a party they were going to. I was stressed and tired but I felt like I need to go out. I needed to release the stress, so much stress.

We left Ashley's car at the dorms and walked the 20 minutes to the Alpha house at the end of campus. Although I usually hate frat boys, we had a ball!

But I was a little on edge because I felt had to keep my eyes on Ashley. She was dressed up as Madonna's character from 'A league of their own." with the short skirted baseball uniform. She had on some baseball socks that came up to her knees and some chucks. I was on edge.

I'm not a big drinker but Demi had whatever they were offering on tap and I decided I wanted one too. I ended up losing count around 4, Ashley was mother Henning us all night. Which in hindsight I was grateful for, until it was time to leave and I realized she was pretty trashed too.

I had tried so sober up because even though demi was bigger than me I still had to try to drag his ass around too. He was dressed as Jackie moon, from Tropic Thunder and his nuts and dick kept falling out the bottom of the little ass shorts. I guessed that he wasn't wearing underwear, It was horrible.

These random chicks kind of zoned in on him and now I had to watch him and her. He liked that he was exposing himself and every time one of them would tell him he was out he would make a remark that I'm sure would get us all in trouble if one of them were to be uncomfortable.

Demi had a secret habit of smoking cigarettes when he drank and since I was all in tonight we smoked as we stumbled, dragging Ashley back to the dorms. Her skirt kept sliding up and now everyone but me was half exposed. Luckily, in my own drunken stupor I got us all back to the dorms safely.

We all stumbled against each other the whole way home and as we ascended the stairs Demi kind of just disappeared yelled an "I'll see you guys tomorrow" over his shoulder. Thanks…

I got her to her room and was digging into her pocket to get her keys. "A little to the left" she snorted in a joke. I pulled the keys out and she whined at me. "Masen, come on please, you don't have to do anything I'll do all the work."

I laughed at her as I unlocked her door and we made it into her room, "Ashley, we are both way too drunk to do anything if we wanted too."

"I could! I always had to do all the work with Jeff anyway." She shrugged, and I shook my head, poor Ashley. The things you wouldn't have to do, but would want to if I had my way with you…

She flopped down onto her bed but rolled her head so she could watch me take off her shoes. "You are a great guy. You know that?"

I laughed again "I haven't always been. Go to sleep…"

"I don't want to, Masen, how about this? How about you just watch me as I watch you?"

"What are you talking about?" I asked not understanding what she meant. She didn't respond, she just lay back on her bed and lifted her skirt back over her hips. I was stuck; my mind was telling me to leave but my body kept me standing in place.

She pulled her underwear to the side and could see her bare pus… I closed my eyes. I could still hear her moaning and It was like she was begging. This was not the Ashley I was used to my Ashley was fun and goofy. She was a dork, who snorted when she laughed; she would cuss me and Demi out as she was taking care of us.

I was comfortable with that Ashley… This Ashley made me very uncomfortable, in the worst ways. I could hear her voice become ragged and I opened eyes to watch her climax… It was beautiful.