Zach POV

I'd driven almost everywhere around town before returning back home. I didn't call Joe or Rachel because this isn't the first time Cam has gone missing, and it's just a misunderstanding. This has to be a misunderstanding.

As I pulled onto our drive, Cam's car still wasn't back. The lights were on in the house. When I opened the door, one of Sean's cartoons was playing loudly, his giggles joined along with it.

I glanced across into the kitchen, it was spotless. There was a smell of fresh bread drifting through the house. I closed my eyes and soaked everything in. This is what home is meant to be.

I shut the door and immediately the sound was cut off.

'Is that daddy?' Sean asked. There was sounds of feet on the hardwood floor, then Sean and Bex came out of the room.

'Daddy!' Sean ran up to me and leapt into my arms 'Mommy came back when you were out but now she's gone again'

'What?' I snapped my head up and looked at Bex, she shrugged.

'Cam's gone to help get the party for Joe sorted. She came back, told us what she planned, packed a bag and then left'

'Where did she go when she left here?' I asked

'She saw Abby'

'She went to the CIA!' I exclaimed

'What's that?' Sean asked looking up at me. Bex narrowed her eyes.

'Don't worry about it buddy' I put him back on the floor 'Why don't you go back and keep watching cartoons?' I suggested. He nodded eagerly and went back into the front room. I looked back at Bex. 'She went to the CIA?' I repeated

'I guess Karis coming here earlier freaked her out' Bex sighed 'What did she give you earlier?' She asked. I remained quiet. 'The fucking folder Zach!' She hissed 'What was in it?'

'A long time ago the Circle had ties with some cartel group' I picked up the folder from the side table 'I've dealt with some of them personally'

'Are you serious?' Bex gasped. I nodded.

'When Karis was in Portugal, they found a group; one of my aliases was on their records' I read from the folder 'Apparently one of the group was flagged up as entering the US less than a week ago'

'So what does this have to do with you?' She asked pointedly. I shrugged.

'The CIA wanted me to help because I have direct intel. I was only telling them things to watch out for, information that might help them. I wasn't involved.' I felt that I needed to make that last bit clear.

'Did you tell Cam any of this?' She raised her eyebrow. I opened my mouth and shut it again. Bex rolled her eyes 'Zach, Zach, Zach' She sighed 'You said that you would take a beak from the CIA once you married Cammie. Consulting on a mission is still being involved. Then on top of that, not mentioning any of this to Cam would clearly piss her off'

'Since when do I have to tell Cam everything that happens in my life?'

'Since you vowed to love her and cherish her till death do you part' there was no kindness in Bex's words, just blunt, brutal honesty. 'Don't think Cam doesn't care about your relationship because she does. She cares about it so much that she's scared about losing you'

'Do you know how scared I am? I'm terrified! I wasn't around with Cam's first pregnancy, and I want to provide the best experience for her this time around'

'Then why did you take a mission?'

'BECAUSE I'M BORED BAXTER!' I snapped 'I have lived every day as if it was my last, not caring about who got hurt or if I came back'

'But now you have a reason to come home' Bex said pointedly. I sighed

'I miss the thrill of it all. I miss the adrenaline and the excitement'

'Have you talked to Cam about this?' She asked. I ran my hands through my hair

'If I do then it'll seem like I'm flaking on her or that I can't keep a promise'

'Zach, you need to get out of your own head and out of your past' She took a small step forward 'Cam isn't going to hurt you like your mom did. You won't be a disappointment or an absent dad'

'What if you're wrong?'

'I'm Rebecca Baxter' She smirked 'I'm never wrong'

'Really Baxter? So sure of your own talents'

'Obviously' She rolled her eyes 'Which is why you need to trust me for the next part of my plan'

Cam POV

The water was rising around me. The air was getting thinner and thinner by every inch of water that encircled the truck. I banged and banged with all might, my screamed deafened by the silence beating away in my ears. A cloud of fog drifted over my eyes, pulling me into the darkness. It was winning.

'Kiddo?' I was pulled out of my daydream. My mom was carrying a box of party supplies towards me. 'Are you okay?' She put her box down, a worried look crossing her face.

'I'm good' I plastered a smile on my face. She raised her eyebrow.

'Spill'

'It's nothing mom, don't worry about it' I waved it away

'You're having nightmares again aren't you?' She said. I paused. There was no point denying it with mom.

'I still feel like I'm underwater and I'm losing air' I admitted. I grazed my hand across my stomach. 'The doctors said that the baby's fine but they want me to see a therapist to talk about what happened' I gave a shiver 'After what happened with Dr Steve, I don't think that I can deal with someone physco-analysing me ever again'

'Have you talked to anyone properly?' She asked

'I've talked to the girls about it; mainly Bex. It's hard to talk to Liz without having a million questions, and it's hard to find a time when me and Macey would sit down together without any distractions'

'Have you talked to Zach about it?' I turned away from her and began unpacking the box of party bits. I could feel my mom staring at me.

'Cameron…' She pressured

'Me and Zach aren't particularly in married bliss right now'

'Ah…' She said, moving the box of supplies out of my way 'Would this be due to why I got several phone calls from agents congratulating me about you returning to work?'

'I haven't returned to work!' I exclaimed defensively 'I was going to find out why Zach was returning to work and if he was having an affair!' I blurted. I watched as an angry cloud crossed her face.

'He's what?' She hissed

'He's not...but I thought he was. Some agent called Karis came to the house and was flirting up a storm. He might not like her but the message is totally different from the otherside'

'Well, you remember from your school days that Zach caught the eye of a few girls, including Tina'

'Oh great, so should I expect 10 very angry and hormonal bitches trying to kidnap me' I rolled my eyes sarcastically

'What I mean is that you don't realise how lucky you are to be with Zach. Remember how all the girls swooned when Joe walked in' She shook her head 'And that was from teenage girls, can you imagine what it's like with adults? Honestly sweetie, you might need to take some time out and remember just how attractive Zach really is'

'Okay stop' I held up my hands 'I can tolerate this conversation with the girls or Abby but I can not have it with you' My mom chuckled and kissed the top of my head.

'Talk to him Cam. Your under lining problems may be one of the reasons that you two are both tense'

'Can we not talk about this now? We need to get this place ready for Joe's party' I went back to work, organising the banners and decorations. My mom still watched me carefully.

'Stop pushing away from this Cammie, if you push too far, you might just fall'

Author's note: DID ZACK NEARLY REVEAL THEIR SPY SECRET TO HIS SON?! Then Cammie came back and left again. Do you think she'll take Rachel's advice and talk to him? What do you think about her nightmare's starting again? (The first little bit in Cammie's speech was from Selling Our Soul towards the end in case you're wondering). Find out next monday! I'm going to try and get more chapters written so hopefully there'll be more than one upload a week! Soon hopefully! xxx

Guest: Deep down I think Cam wants to give Zach a chance to explain but another part wants to protect herself and therefore doesn't want to listen. She is pregnant afterall. xxx

Guest: I'm sure that Zammie will be reunited soon! Perhaps Bex and the others will make sure that they talk although I think Cammie would be pretty stubborn about it. I feel sorry for Cam as well, the stress isn't good xxx

Kailee: Thank you so much! xxx

Smiles180: I love having drama in my stories. I think Ally Carter does it better though xxx

Zammieotp: OMG thank you so much! I'm so touched that you love my writing! I feel like I've improved sooooo much since I first uploaded, and I've got some very exciting projects coming soon xxx

Miss. L 2002: I know! I really do miss your reviews! Hope everything's been alright with you! Sean is just a gem. I don't think I'd be able to write another character like him (That is until the baby arrives. What do you think, boy or girl?). I love how everyone's sort of grown up and so has Abby, she's taking a desk job and moving on with her career. That's okay! Sean's my fav too! xxx

4EverAGallagherGirl: Basically Cammie left the agency because she was pregnant and just hadn't been back. When she got married, the CIA issued a new ID for her new name. They didn't put pressure on her to return back to work and they haven't revoked her agent status. Once an agent, always an agent. Like when they say MIA it means that they're missing but still an agent. I think I've just over complicated this all, lol. xxx

flash 2.0: I will keep writing I promise! xxx