It's a big Deal!

Chapter 19:

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Kai could remember everything clearly. All those mementos seemed to come back. Those navy blue eyes were like pools profound hiding so many secrets that he's learning now. Cavernous magenta- that was the pretty color of her hair… He liked her, he liked her so much but he never wanted to embellish on their little relation.

Still, he has the brunette now in his life. Just a little realization about Akira made him sad. He smiled sadly as he glanced at her diary before keeping it back in her drawer.

Those words are still in his head appearing before his eyes as he was locking the door and walking back to his room. They had spent time together very occasionally and rarely but all the times she was adorable and kind- just the way she was. Her nature, kindness and extreme patience and never being rude were the things he liked and found in her.

All those traits- he wouldn't find in his wife. Still, he loved Hilary first.

Hilary was his wife.

He sighed heavily as he lied back on his bed sighing breathlessly and staring at the plane ceiling.

This wasn't supposed to be.

This wasn't supposed to happen.

This isn't right.

I don't know why but I'm feeling as if I've done something wrong, as if I've been selfish. Why?

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Days passed and Hilary showed very little signs of getting well. Kai stayed extremely upset about her. His little discovery about his cousin's crush on him was constantly occupying his mind. There were times when he was standing leaning against the wall in Hilary's hospital room and would wait for her to wake and his mind would think of all the times Akira had spent with him. He felt that something from his side was incomplete for Akira. Then he would talk to Hilary a little when she would wake up and he would forget about Akira.

Afraid everything is over now
The rain cloud is passing
Still I'm tryna wonder how I lost you
Are you really over me?
You said so, don't believe it
You were where I wanna be
I love you

He wonders sometimes why he has read her diary. There's something from his past that would haunt him again- regret.

He needed Hilary. He needed her more than she needed him. He needed her to console him, to tell him that it's alright, to make him believe that it was not his fault and all destined. Her smiles and consolation would drive away all his fears.

Lavinia stayed quiet most of the times. She stopped talking with everyone. There were times when she asked Tyson in a low tone if her mom was alright. It was as if she had lost all hope if her mom would ever come back, as if she's trying to Know through Tyson:

"Lavinia, come here." Tyson hugged her and almost felt tears in his eyes, "I promise to bring your mom within a week, Please don't worry."

"Uncle Tyson, is your promise true? You won't break it? Will you?" she whispered in silent sobs.

"No sweetheart, I won't. I promise." Tyson said strongly fighting back tears.

Tyson saw Sylvia standing at the doorway smiling at him and feeling happy for her cousin that she's probably okay. Tyson smiled back at his daughter and nodded.

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Tyson prayed hard day and night for Hilary to get well. He seriously didn't want to break his promise. He told Kai about this little incident to Kai and kai felt utterly bad for his daughter. He was trying his hard to keep Lavinia okay but she was breaking. There were times Lavinia would come in Kai's room, see him, stand in her tracks and spill her tears right in front of him and shudder in silence just so he knows that he's depriving her of her mom. Before he would reach for her, she would keep her hand in space to stop her father and go out with a cold shrug.

"Lavinia…" he whispered.

"You're bad, daddy."

"You're hurting me." Kai said involuntarily.

"W-What?"

"I'm sorry that I couldn't bring your mom so soon but she will come back."

She would nod feebly and leave silently.

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"Kai…" The slate haired teen woke from his trance as he was standing against the wall when Hilary called his name.

"How are you feeling?" Kai asked slowly caressing her head.

"I am okay. How's my daughter?" Hilary asked.

"She misses you so much." He answered looking down, "She says I'm a bad daddy for not allowing her to meet you." He said in a low tone.

"I will get well soon, I promise." Hilary whispered.

"I hope so. I'm tired of being all alone ya know. I miss being with you around me. "He said in a sad tone plastering a smile.

Hilary stared at him, trying to read him more, "You know, I never felt like this."

"This is so obscure and not right." He sighed in dismay as he thought about everything once more.

"You're tearing." She said straight looking into his eyes.

"I don't know. I'm so tired of everything being so not right, Hilary…" he said in a very low tone.

"Tell me what it is."

His chin oscillated briefly up and down in one go- telling that he was going to cry. He was just standing still with coughing internally and fighting back the emotional break down.

"What happened?" she moaned.

He immediately leaned towards her and put his arms around her neck, "It's not alright. I'm scared. It's not right. I don't know what's happening. Please save me, save me Hils, save me!" he was almost imploring even when he whined in her ears.

"Kai…" Hilary shook, "Everything will be okay, and I promise, I will get well soon, don't you worry. I know there's something that's bothering you. Just tell me what it is. Why are you not saying it? I honestly will help you." She said carefully.

"Later, "he breathed in, recovering from his cries, "When you come back home, then."

She smiled lightly, her lips thinning together watching him, "I will."

"Take care." He softly kissed her lips and left the room.

As he walked through the corridor, he could feel the life around him continuing so impervious. Everything seemed so obscure and wrong. He missed her and so much. In this whirl of insecurities and doubts, he remembers her promising in front of his Grandfather that she will help him in such cryptic situations in which everything is like- not what you like.

He missed Lavinia smiling at him and laughing at the dining table when they used to have their breakfasts and dinners together. Everything came crashing in his mind like flashes of recent past. He sighed in convulsing breaths and sat down on the bench.

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He leaned at the doorway itself after ambling weakly to from his car to his-brother in law's house. The sunshine was making its way through the squared window, filtering through it and caressing his slate hair. His eyes were glistening magnificently at the sight of his daughter playing happily with Sylvia. He felt revived and braced. His lips formed a meaningful smile.

Tyson was lying on the couch, his hands on half on his forehead and half on his eyes, tired from the work perhaps. Salima was watching them sitting next to table. He wanted ardently to tell his daughter that her mom would return soon and really but he just doesn't want to make any fake promises, what if it wasn't possible. Praying silently in his heart, he said,

"Lavinia…" his whisper echoed in the doorway and the hall silencing everyone and thus forcing Tyson to remove his hands from where there lied and see the new intruder.

The little brunette glanced at her father with innocent eyes, her dark eyelashes batting, seeking an answer.

"Momma is gonna come back soon..." he said almost in tears.

"R-Really?" she asked incredulously.

The slate haired man nodded softly, "Yeah."

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And then, even God had tested him to all the extent that he survived. The good days weren't far. His shackled mornings as usual were being replaced by hope and trust. She said him that's she'd come back and she'd not have said if she didn't mean it.

He got ready for office after a warm shower and after six to seven hours of incredible tedious routine, he smiled at the thought of meeting his wife. His hopes were coming true and she was improving. The woes were dying and he could feel the cool breezes touching him as he drove to the hospital.

Whaaoooo! Thanks so much for the reviews! I actually haven't planned of posting this chapter now but I did- simply;)

One second: there's something I want to say- so please just listen and tell what you think-:

Like I already said, I haven't planned of writing the sequel. I seriously got motivated to write this after a few requests and listening to the song "The spectra". That's how I've started writing this and I'd already plan in my mind of the plot and that was simple- Hilary being dead in the accident that didn't happen. Because I myself felt bad, I mean how can I kill her? Everyone (readers and reviewers) were sad about it as well. So I changed my plan and didn't kill her. I'd made another plan- and that included (I'm not supposed to reveal bit still- just listen) Kai knowing about Hil's past and Hilary getting her memories back later in the story. Three days back, I changed my mind again and was just planning to give a happy ending to this story just how it's seeming from this chapter. But then, a few of you suggested me to add that drama of Kai knowing it. Hmm, I mean, won't it become too dramatic if that happens? It will take long time for things to get normal for everyone and settle peacefully. I thought that things were fine like this. ;) What do you say? Please tell me so that I can type. I myself think that this is fine – without Kai's drama.

Anyway, thanks to the guest reviewer and honey for reviewing as well. XD ^_~