Chapter 13 To Understand

Rena's walking alone to her home.
She recalled what Raven and Aisha said to her.

"I'm not a slut..."

She sighed sadly.

She hoped that Elsword will not hate her because of it.
"I don't know why but I can't control myself when I'm with him..."
She opened her home's door and entered the house.

"I'm home..."

"Welcome back dear, why you looked so disheartened? Something happened?"
Her mother came and hug her gently.

"Mom... Did you ever felt that you can't control yourself when you're around a boy?"
Rena asked it timidly.

Her mother's eyes widened in surprise but turned gentle the next second.
"What is it, Rena? You've fallen in love, now?"

"U-Uh..."
Rena's blushing.
She can't possibly say yes.

"It's fine, dear. It's normal to feel like that, but sometimes, you need to control yourself. Boys are different than us girls. Boys are more comfortable if you approach them normally and not too much, since they might get annoyed if girls kept on bugging them."

"Why? I always thought that it would be happier if we can always be together..."

"Because we're not the same, in the first place, love means that we must understand each other. Not forcing ourselves."
Her mother caressed her daughter's hair.

"I see... Thank you, mom."
Rena smiled and she get back to her room.

"Good luck, dear."
Her mother smiled as she watched her get back to her room upstairs.

Rena buried her face in her pillow as she text Elsword.

I'm sorry for just now, I won't do it again.

Sent.
And then she get a reply quite quickly.
She opened it;

That's good, I'm glad if you do.

"Thank goodness he's not angry..."
Rena sighed in relief.
But, the problem now lies in how should she act toward him?
She can't possibly win his heart by just staying quiet like this.
She tried to think of a way but she can't find of any way.

"I don't know what should I do..."
Rena's hugging her pillow.
She's very unexperienced in love life. That's why what she did can easily be mistaken as something indecent, because even she herself didn't know that those kind of things are actually not something that she just can do to anyone.

She's not stupid but she just lost control over her body and just go all the way out.
Now that she knows what she did just now was wrong she need to think of other way.
But how?
She pondered if she should ask Aisha about it, but her pride didn't allow her to get help from others.

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO!"
She yelled as she buried her face in her pillow.

-The Next Day-

"Hey, Rena."

"Oh, senior."
Raven greet her on their way to school.

"What's up? You looked like you don't have enough sleep."

"Well... Things happened..."
She can't sleep because she kept on thinking how should she approach Elsword.

"You don't need to rush."

"Eh?"

Raven smiled as he patted Rena's head like a caring brother.
"Don't rush things in love, just enjoy the flow, eventually, your feelings will reach him, I'm sure of it."

"Senior..."
Rena smiled.

She finally realized it.
She's too impatient. She should've just be patient and enjoy her remaining time in her school life. There's still 1 month before their final test.
She should enjoy her school life more with him.

"Thank you senior! You really helped me!"
Saying that, Rena ran toward the school.

Aisha walked beside Raven.
"So even you can say something wise like that."

"Of course, I'm older than you guys after all."
He smiled.

-At School-

"Rena, what are you doing?"
Rena's visiting Elsword's class, but she didn't do anything but sitting beside him.

"Nothing, I'm just curious just what are you reading."
"I see, it's a novel, I doubt you can understand it if you didn't read it from the beginning."

Rena just shook her head.
"I don't mind, just read it like you always do. I'm just watching."
"Well, fine, I guess?"

What's she planning?
Elsword thought.
But no matter how long he waited, Rena really didn't do anything, she just kept on reading the story that Elsword's reading.

Elsword pondered why she's acting like that.
He just doesn't understand women at all.

"That was a good read, what's the title? I think I might want to buy one."
Rena said.

Just what's she thinking?
"It's called 'Legacy of Aren'. But are you serious that you want to buy it?"

Rena smiled at him and nodded.
"Why?"

"I've realized that my way to approach you was wrong. It's true that I love you, but I don't need to force my way to you. You also have your own circumstances to reject me that day, right?"
It's true that Elsword rejected her because of a reason, but he just doesn't understand why Rena would go all her way to buy a book even though she can just borrow his book.

"Say, if you want I can just borrow this book to you, you don't have to buy it."

Rena shook her head.
"No, I need to understand you more, if I tried to copy your habit I might know and understand you more, since the me right now don't even understand you a bit."

Rena reached this conclusion from her mother who taught her that love means to understand each other and Raven who taught her that love can't be rushed.

"From now on, I will try to understand you, also, everytime I have a photo session, you MUST come no matter what, Elsword."

"-Why?"

"You're really dense!"
She scolded him but she smiled gently afterward.

"Because I want you to look closer at me and I want you to understand me too."

Elsword can feel her cheeks are red.
And then he shook his head.

"E-Enough, I understand, I will go to your photo session. But, you really don't have to go that far to buy a book, here, I will borrow you my books, I've already finished reading them."

"Eh? But-"

"No more but! Just take it all and go back!"

"? Okay...?"
She took it all to her class.
Elsword finally able to sighed in relief.

"... Damn... She's suddenly turned so feminine, she's too cute that it didn't suit her image at all... I wonder what will she be in the future...!?"
And then Elsword exploded when he imagined Rena being a mother.

His classmates who saw him hastily took him to infirmary since he fainted.

Rena who kept his books in her bag, smiled gently.
I will try my best to understand you more, Elsword.
Thinking that she took 1 of the book and read it peacefully.

Chapter 13 To Understand End

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