I sighed and silently looked at Ashurri while places a ice pack on her forehead, she had been in the sauna far too long... Lynto went off to get a massage after she made sure Ashurri was okay. Goku was sitting next to me and Hakkai was sitting on the other bed watching. Gojyo and Sanzo... I think they went to the sauna but I wasn't exactly sure... Oh lord could you imagine those two together, they would kill each other. Ashurri mumbled something about... a flying pickle... in her sleep and I laughed a bit... Only Ashurri would dream about a flying pickle... I looked around the room... it was our room, nice and clean well except for Ashurri's bed... she had rolled over in her sleep about ten times and the blankets were a bit messy. I sighed and stood up then handed Goku the ice pack. He gave me a small smile and placed the ice pack on Ashurri's forehead, as soon as she got cool she would probably wake up. I smiled and closed my eyes, silently walking out of the room and into the hall. I leaned against the wall and opened my eyes a bit, it was now dark... the silver light from the moon shinning through the window and onto the wall and floor. I sighed and heard a door open, I turned my head and saw Hakkai walk out of the room, silently I looked away... I had asked him something so personal... about that scar that he had gotten... and I also embarrassed myself big time... I then noticed a pile of white towels laying on the ground beside me... 'Someone could trip over those' I thought silently to myself. At the corner of my eye I looked and saw Hakkai leaning against the wall as well, a small smile on his face and staring out the window... he looked like he was thinking about something... I wonder what about... I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, it was nice and quiet in the hallway.

"Kimiko-chan"? I opened my eyes and blinked, looking at Hakkai. He was still staring out the window silently. The sound of crickets chirping could be heard from outside the window... it was so quiet... "When I was a yokai... you looked scared... even if you were on that team at your village, why"? he asked.

"Well... its a long story" I started... it was indeed a long story... but I had asked him something, so maybe in return I should tell him something about my past.. "I have al the time in the world" he said softly, I gave a tiny smile but it soon faded away.' I was spending the day at my parents house with my brother. My parents closed down the family run inn for a few days, since it was damaged during the first youkai attacks. My brother went upstairs to get the baby books, my mother was in the kitchen finishing up lunch and I went outside to get the laundry my mother had hanging up to dry. I was folding a sheet when I heard my mother's scream. I dashed back inside to see my mother backed in terror against the wall with my brother standing in front of her with an injury on his arm. My eyes scanned the room and I saw my father, severely injured, holding my grandfather's katana in front of him. He had a massive wound on his stomach and he was swaying slightly. A youkai stood a few feet from him without a scratch one him. He chuckled and disappeared and while my father looked around, the youkai stabbed him through the heart from behind him. The youkai disappeared again and appeared in the doorway. My mother screamed in terror as my brother passed out from his own blood loss. The youkai began to advance toward us with a malicious look in his eyes. Fear gripped my heart for I thought I had lost my father and brother, and I was about to lose my mother. I looked down and noticed that my grandfather's katana was a foot from me. But the youkai was two feet away. Without thinking I ran forward, grabbed the katana and thrust it upward. I felt something splatter my clothes and I saw that I had stabbed the youkai in the stomach. His claws were raised above his head and his eyes were gleaming with agony and the desire to kill. I quickly pulled the blade out and swung the katana, slicing his head off, causing blood to shower my face and clothes. The katana I carry now was is the same one...I earned it, since I was the first one of my father's children to kill with it. My mother fainted when I killed the demon and I was left standing there crying. Later, I discovered that my brother was fine as well as my mother, but my father was dead. And that's when my fear of youkai was born. The reason I fear them is...not only did they kill my father...but everytime I fight demons...I can't help but feel like that girl who couldn't fight and got lucky with killing that youkai. Every demon I see...is the one that killed my father...the one that gave me the look of wanting to kill me...to this day...I still don't know why that demon attack MY family...but that's when I joined the force to protect the village...I wanted to make sure that nothing like that ever happened again.'

I looked at the ground silently... even today, telling what happend to my father was hard... each time I thought about him or even talked to him it made my heart hurt in agony... It made me realize... it must be like this for.. Hakkai went he talked and tought about Kanan... it was so sad... I felt tears rim my eyes and I stared at the ground. A tear rolled down my cheek but I quickly wiped it away with my arm.

"I'm sorry" Said Hakkai softly, I looked at him and gave a tiny smile before turning to walk down the hall back to my room. "A-ah Kimi-" I turned around slowly with my eyes closed trying to fight the tears when I felt something soft press against my lips. My eyes opened and then turned wide almost as wide as Hakkai's.. his lips... they were ontop of mine... We both pulled back, my cheeks turned bright pink and then I took notice in something. His hand was on the wall and his ankles were tangled in the white towels, he must have triped over them.. He looked where I was looking and then our eyes met. I covered my mouth with my hand and instantly started to giggle softly, 'H-he tripped over some towels...' I thought while my giggle slowly turned into a laugh.

He started to laugh as well and then scratched the back of his head, my tears of sadness became tears of laughter. Well I knew one thing he made me feel better, tripping over some towels made me laugh... I stoped laughing and smiled at him... He carefully stepped over the white towels and took my hand. "It looks like I was a bit clumsy there, come on lets go find Sanzo and Gojyo before they kill each other" he said with a smile and a light hearted tone. I nodded and he started to walk, I gave his hand a tiny squeeze and followed behind him. I smiled and looked at his back and with my free hand I reached up and placed a index finger on my lips, they tingled... 'He kissed me' I thought to myself, the light blush still on my cheeks...

I smiled brightly to myself and watched as Kimiko and Hakkai turned the corner down the hall. I had went over to the door and cracked it a bit when I heard someone stumbled, it turned out Hakkai had tripped over some towels. I knew that he liked her! I closed the door softly and looked back at the bed, Ashurri was still sleeping. I ran over to the other bed and jumped ontop of it, I sat down and looked at Ashurri silently as she slept. She said she wanted to go to the movies with Kim but maybe she would go with me scince Gojyo and Sanzo said they didn't want to go... and Hakkai went off with Kimiko so... yeah... I watched her as she rolled over onto her side and the ice pack fell off her forehead and onto the floor with a light thud. She mumbled something that I couldn't hear and her arm hanged off the bed... I looked at her wrist and saw the red bracelet... that yokai limiter... 'Oh yeah... it was broken but Sanzo fixed it... y'know.. I need to ask Sanzo what happend... Hakkai takes off his limiters an' stuff and he doesn't go crazy... but Ashurri... she did...' I thought silently while blinking. She was mumbling something in her sleep, she silently rolled over onto her back... I wonder what she was dreaming about... I silently stood up from the bed and walked over before sitting indian style on the floor next to the bed and watching her... My stomach growled, I looked down at my stomach... 'Mmm I'm hungry'...

"I-I... I didn't kill her... I didn't... leave me alone" My head shot up and I looked at Ashurri, 'I-Is she having a nightmare'? I watched her silently, she was holding onto her arm and shaking... Her breathing was once calm and easy but was now she was taking choppy breaths "L-leave me alone"! she shouted. I quickly stood up and then grabbed her shoulders, shaking her a bit trying to wake her up.. She was afraid... afraid of what... what was she afraid of? Her eyes shot open and she raised a hand like she was going to hit me, she thought I was someone else... who?

"Ash-chan, ya okay"? I asked looking at her, "Ya were talkin' in your sleep". She took a deep breath and sat up, lowering her head a bit. Her black hair hanged in her face. I sat on the bed and watched her a bit... it really freaked her out, I wonder what it was. She placed a hand on her forehead and then looked around the room silently.

"Kimiko said you fainted in the sauna" I said silently, "If ya want more sleep I'll go" I said but before I could stand back up she placed her hands ontop of my shoulders and kept me from moving. She was still shaking, her hair hanging in her face. I could see her grey eyes looking at me through the strands of her black hair. "A-Ash"... She pressed her forehead against my chest just where my heart was, her breathing was starting to slow down a bit and calm down.

"N-no... that dream... don't leave" she said.

"Ash...what dream did you have, what was it about"? I asked blinking a bit and looking at her... She was quiet for a couple of minutes and she looked like she was falling back asleep because she was quiet... "I'm not sure..." she said...

Kim:'Kai-kun! -Glomps Hakkai-

Hakkai:-Smiles softly-

Ash:-Whispers to Lynto-Chipmunks or Polar bears, which one are they?

Lyn:-Looks in 'What were you in a past life' book from Urasai-Backscratchers... -Looks up at Kimiko and Hakkai as they look out the window-.

Kim and Hakkai:Its so nice outside. -Smiles and looks at moon-

Ash and Lyn:Uh?...

Goku:-Runs to Ashurri and hugs her from behind, knocking her to the ground-Ashurri doesn't own Saiyuki or its characters, it belongs to Kazuya Minekura. Ash, Lyn, Kim, and Kuroki (Chigiri) are real..