Hey! Sorry took a extra day but here it is! The chapter that (i'm giving fair warning now) to ShizNat Fans everywhere have been waiting for. I think some people may be shocked but you'll see why once you read whats below. XD lol Oh and one more thing (when you see captions like this) it mean Natsuki is thinking to herself. (But when they're like this it means Natsuki is thinking back from the persent) Don't forget in this story in all takes place one month ago. Well as always enjoy and if anyone had any questions or comments you know how to reach me! :?D
So Shizuru and I finally got our cotton candy. It's still hard to believe that she never had any before. Then again looking at her and where she grew up it's not hard to imagine after all.
"Which do you want? Pink or Blue?" I was holding out the two fluffy balls of cotton on the sticks, I didn't just wanna take one without knowing which Shizuru might have wanted.
"I'll take the Blue one. Is that okay?"
"Sure. Whatever you like Shizuru. It's fine by me." She smiled sweetly and took the blue one from my hand. As she took her first bit, she said something to me that struck me as interesting.
"Wh-what happened? It just vanished!"
"Ha haha! Yeah, well it's nothing to worry about. It does that." (She's just way too cute.)
"So how is it though?"
"It's really yummy! Thank you." She took another bit into the fluff ball. She looked up at me then and I watched as her eyes moved downward.
"Uh, Natsuki. You have um . . . right there." Shizuru pointed to the corner of my mouth.
"I have something on my mouth?" Shizuru took a few steps closer to me then.
"Here, I'll get it."
"N-no you really– –
"It's fine. I don't mind really." With her index finger she quickly picked off the little piece of cotton candy that was by my mouth. Then she brought her finger up to her mouth, she enclosed her lips around her finger with the little piece of cotton candy.
"Mmm, it really tastes good! Uh, Natsuki why is your face red?" (Damn! Stupid face! Damn if I keep blushing like this I'm sure I'll turn into a tomato before long. Not only that but . . . Shizuru will find out that I harbor feelings for her.)
"N-no-nothing. I'm fine Shizuru. Really I am. Lets, go to the Ferris Wheel now. What do say?"
"Yeah okay. Lets go then." We finished off our cotton candies and headed to the Ferris Wheel. Surprisingly enough there was hardly a line. I couldn't figure why though, I mean lots of couples come to places like this, especially at night. We got over by the Ferris Wheel and were about to get on-line when some man with a camera stopped us.
"Hey, there! Would you two like your picture to be taken?"
"Uh, I don't think so. Thanks though."
"Oh, come on Natsuki. Its just one picture, it won't hurt. Besides it can be a keepsake to remember all the fun we had here tonight." (Fun? Fun you say. It was more like torture. The only good part about this night was when Nao and Reito finally left before they could cause any more trouble. But . . . hehehe. It was fun when me and Nao were on that Swan though.)
"Okay, but just one." The guy nodded and told us to get closer together. Basically telling us to squeeze in so that we lined up with the frame. Shizuru had put her arm around mine and leaned her head on my shoulder. I could feel my face heat up again.
"That's better much better. Now don't move." The guy took the picture and after a few seconds gave it to me.
"Well it didn't come out bad at all." (Smiles)
"See Natsuki. I told you it would be all right." I nodded. (Guess she was right. Well can't reason with her either. In a way she and Nao are kind of (gulp) alike. Why . . . does that send a chill down my spine?)
"How much?"
"Excuse me?"
"How much for the picture? I know it's not free." The guy smiled.
"No, actually it is. All couples get a free picture." (W-WHAT?! A-A COUPLE? What is it? Do we have a sign on our back are something that says we are in fact a couple? That's the second time tonight.)
"Uh, b-but– –
"Thank you so much sir." The guy winked at Shizuru and walked away.
"S-Shizuru why . . . why didn't you —
"Natsuki, come on lets get on already." I was dumbfounded. (What had just happened? Was Shizuru okay with the fact that guy thought we were . . . together in that way?) I couldn't really think about it for the moment as Shizuru pulled me over to one of the cabins of the Ferris Wheel. I sat on one side while Shizuru sat across from me. As the wheel started to rotate and we got lifted into the air, Shizuru looked out the window and was so amazed of how high we were. Her eyes lit up.
"Wow! This is really cool! Look, look how small everyone looks from up here."
"Yeah, that's the cool part about this ride. I remember the first time I came on here with Nao. She was also so stunned about how the people below looked like ants." Just then I realized what I said and covered my mouth with my hand. A lot of good that did me, it was too little too late.
"N-Nao? Who is Nao?" (Great, what a freaking dumb ass I am. How am I gonna explain this one.)
"Is she a friend of yours?" (Well guess that's better than nothing. I'll just have to roll with that.)
"Y-yeah she's . . . an old friend. I haven't seen her in a few years." (Aw man I know it she won't believe that. Damn idiot!)
"I-is she really just a friend Natsuki? Or is she more than that?" Shizuru looked straight at me with those shining red eyes of hers. I felt like she was almost able to see right through me. (She probably is too. Bet she can read me like a book.)
"Shizuru, she's . . . she's just someone who's very important to me. Can we leave it at that please?"
"Yes. I'm sorry Natsuki. I didn't mean–
"No, its fine. It's only natural to want to know more about the person whom you hardly know." I realize now I said that in a narcissist way. After that it went silence. So silence I heard (and felt) the wind come thru the cabin, I could also her the people below laughing, having a good time. I felt so awkward as I'm sure Shizuru did too.
"You know when I was younger, about eleven. My mother took me to the park that was near our house. It was one of the first times me and my mother were able to spend some quality time together. It was a while since she was away." Shizuru has this sad expression on her face. I would think she would be happy to get to spend time with her mother but maybe there was more to it.
"Was she with your dad on a business trip?" She shook her head.
"No. She was . . .in the hospital." My mouth just hung open. How could I have been so insensitive. I wasn't thinking that's for sure. Its one of my (many) bad habits I have to break. (Think before you speak.)
"Shizuru I'm sorry. I didn't know."
"Of course not. You didn't know me then." (I was so embarrassed that day. But in a way after that, what she continued to say just . . .blew my mind. I still to this day, can't wrap my mind around how it was still actually possible.)
"Well you see, she took me to the park. It was sort of a distraction so that everyone back at home had time to set up my surprise birthday party. I guess it wasn't much of a surprise seeing as how I already knew about it." (Both smile)
"Isn't that the truth. So go on Shizuru."
"Oh yes. So my mother was keeping an eye on me while I was on the swing set. She had offered to swing me but, I insisted I could do it myself since I was already eleven. You know now that I think about it. I didn't care about having a birthday party or even to worry about turning a year older. Just the fact that I had gotten to spend the time with my mother was the best gift in the world." (Man, that's just so sweet. I feel so awful, worst then I had ever felt before. She's, she's just so freaking nice and sweet and kind and unselfish.)
"Natsuki? Are you okay?"
"Yeah! I just have . . .something in my eye. Don't worry just go on please." (Man I'm such a softie.)
"So I was pushing myself on the swing, when I had pushed a little to hard. I fell off the swing and had scrapped my knee on the ground. I started to cry a little, I saw my mother coming over to me. But before she got there another person rushed to my side. She extended her hand to me and helped me up. She asked if I was hurt. I was so shy that I couldn't even speak, I mean she was a stranger after all. I just shook my head no and pointed to my knee. Then my mother had come over and asked the same, if I had been hurt or not. She thanked the woman who helped me but she told me to wait. She rushed off and a few seconds later came back and placed a band-aid on my knee. She then told me to wait again and ran off once more. A few seconds later she came back with an ice-cream cone. It was – –
"It . . .it was vanilla . . .with rainbow sprinkles." (That was it. I still could feel how fast my heart was beating back then. For her to even remember that, something that hadn't crossed my mind in years. This woman was once that little girl I helped all those years ago.)
"Yes it, it was. But how did you . . ." Shizuru trailed off and I saw the shock in her face. She knew as did I what had crossed our minds. (No way! It-its impossible! She really can't be . . .that little girl. To think that this woman sitting across from me . . .but look at her. Man she sure grew up and filled out nicely in all the right places. No! Come on! Don't think about stuff like that! Man if I wasn't here with her right now, I'd swear I was drinking till I blacked out and that all this was just a dream.)
"Na-Natsuki . . .was, was it you?" I nodded as I tried to get my head back on straight.
"I, I helped you up. Then I ran over to the woman who had these kids with her and asked if she had a band-aid. I ran back over to you and put the band-aid on your knee. After that I ran over to the guy selling ice cream and got that one for you. I wasn't sure but I figured a lot of people like that flavor, so I just thought you wouldn't have minded. After I returned and gave that to you, I said . . .I said– –
"You said . . . Here hope you like vanilla. And be more careful. Take care kid." From that moment on everything (more than not) had changed . . .completely. We both just sat there astonished. Before we knew we had finally come back down, the ride was over. But we were both still lost in the conversation we had and that we had to still continue. We got out and I noticed that Shizuru was holding her stuffed dog rather closely to herself.
"Shizuru? Are. . .is everything all right?"
"How is this possible? How after eight years . . .that we met up like this?"
"I don't know. I can give you an explanation . . .because just like you I don't have one. B-but how could you not tell it was me? You said you remembered my eyes, that day I got you out of the way of Reito's car." Shizuru halted and turned to me. Her eyes were forming tears. This was just as overwhelming for her as it was for me.
"How could you not remember me?"
"Y-You were just a kid."
"I was eleven!" I slapped my hand against my forehead.
"And I was eighteen! Even so! You looked like every other kid I met. You had pigtails for goodness sake! A lot of girls your age then wore their hair like that."
"Even so? Even so?! You're such a louse!" (Did, did she just insult me? )
"Wait a minute! Are you mad at me? How can you be mad at someone you do even know? Or didn't even know back then?"
"That's not the point. Never mind it doesn't matter." Shizuru started to walk off but I pulled her by the arm. We had to talk about this and hire.
"Hey hold on a sec. You know, you still didn't say how you didn't remember me." Shizuru looked away from and down on the ground.
"You, you had your helmet on. It was a different one from the one you have now. So I didn't know. I couldn't even see your eyes through the visor of your helmet." I let go of Shizuru's arm. It was just still so hard to imagine that I knew her, not now but eight years ago. Its unbelievable.(What the hell is this? What's going on? Is this really possible for us to met like this again. Kind of ironic, I helped her back then because she was hurt and now I saved her only so that she wouldn't get hurt.)
"We should go. It's already nine o'clock. Don't need Fumi bitting off my head you know." Shizuru just nodded and we walked over to the parking lot. I got on my bike first and headed her the helmet. She put it on while I held the stuffed dog. She got on and gave the dog back to her to hold while she put one arm around me. I started up the bike and rode off. When we finally made it to her house it was a little after nine forty. I walked Shizuru up to the front door, I wondered though where the guards for hire were. We got up to the front door.
"Natsuki, I really had a good time tonight. Thank you for everything."
"Yeah, no problem. I had fun." I placed my hand on the top of Duran's head.
"Take care of him okay." Shizuru smiled and then nodded. I really had no idea what to say to her. This was the only thing I could think of to break the ice. Rather the tension between us, I could feel it.
"Oh yeah! Before I forget. Here." I reached into my pocket and took out the photo of us that was taken by that so called photographer.
"Natsuki? Are you sure? Don't you– –
"Nah, you keep it. I know it'll mean a lot more to you. Besides like you said, you wanna have this as a keepsake to remember this night. I really want you to have it Shizuru."
"Natsuki . . ." I gave her the picture, she took from me. The next thing she did was set down Duran on the stoop and gave me a really big hug. It surprised the hell out of me.
"S-Shizuru! What, what are you doing?" She laughed.
"Giving you a hug silly. What does it look like?" I smiled and hugged her back. I buried my face into the crook of her neck. (Man she, she smells like roses.) I pulled myself away from Shizuru. My hands were still at her waist and her arms were around my neck. I stared into her beautiful mesmerizing red eyes. I felt myself being pulled in closer and closer.
"Na-Natsuki? What are you doing?"
"I don't know. I just . . .I just want . . ."
"Natsuki . . ." She softly spoke my name as I moved in closer and finally just kissed her. I pushed her up against the door and deepen out kiss. Shizuru pushed me back after a few seconds and then she . . .
SMACK!
"What the hell did you slap me for?!"
"How . . .how can you just do that?!" I saw (and felt) how furious Shizuru was with me. I knew what I did, but she didn't have to smack me like that.
"The real question is how can you just do that? You just slapped me!" I was so angry right then I didn't even realize how much I had risen my voice at her. Shizuru looked at me with uncaring eyes.
"I think I should just go." I rubbed my face where she had smacked me. It still hurt really badly.
"I think you should." I turned around to leave but then I looked back.
"I'm not sorry you know." With that said I continued to walk away. And I meant it, I wasn't sorry that we had just shared our first kiss. (Fine, alright. Maybe I did deserve that smack to the face. I was being a little forceful with her. Not aggressive per say, but I have to remember . . .Shizuru isn't Nao.) I got to my bike where it then hit me. (Oh man, Nao. What the hell was I thinking? Kissing another girl when I have a girl at home. There you go again Natsuki acting before thinking. I think my not thinking gets me into more trouble then my entire body does. And my mouth too while I'm at it.) (Slaps hand against forehead.)
"Now I know why I have a headache. This is just one of those many bad habits I have to break. Slapping my hand on my fore head and . . .kissing girls on a whim." Sighs (What am I gonna do with myself?) I got on my bike and headed back home. All the while I keep seeing the image of me kissing Shizuru replaying over and over again in my head. How could I have been so foolish. I may have feelings for her but to just go and kiss her like that, without her permission. And right after we just talked about how we actually met once before. I made it home very fast the traffic wasn't bad so got there pretty quickly. I pulled into the garage and went upstairs. I stood outside the door for a good minute before I reached into my pocket to take out my keys. But instead found something else.
"What's this? This is . . . AH! This is Shizuru's necklace!" With that I begun to lightly bang my head against the wall just next to the door in the hallway.
"Moron! (Bang) Jerk! (Bang) Fool! (Bang) Dope! (Bang) Idiot! I'm such an ass!" After my insulting myself the door opened up. It was Nao. She was wearing that black small tank top that just barley covered held in her breasts. And those see-through light blue underwear with the pink trim.
"Kuga? I thought I heard you out here. Everything a–– I felt lost, in a daze. My mind went blank . . .I wasn't myself. I caught Nao by the lips forcefully and pushed her back into our apartment slamming the door shut behind us. I pushed her all the way over to the couch, were we both fell onto and where I finally halted out kiss so that we could both breath.
"K-Kuga! What's gotten into you?"
"What? Do I need a reason to kiss my girlfriend?"
"We-well no but – –
"Then stop talking." I kissed her again softer this time. I lifted up her shirt and pinched her already hard nipple. She moan into out kiss. The she pushed me back a slightly.
"N-no! S-stop it. I don't . . .I don't . . .Ah!"
"Of course you do. You always want this." I slid my hand down her stomach and into her underwear. I shoved two fingers deep inside of her. She tighten her grip on my shirt and took in a few deep shallow breathes.
"See. Your so wet. How can you say you don't want to do this?"
"Ha-harder. Do it . . .harder." I kissed her neck and I continued pumping my fingers in and out of her. After a few seconds she caught me by the lips and started to tongue kiss me. Our tongues twirled around each others for a while, until Nao pulled back.
"T-take me . . .to the bedroom." I kissed her again. And got up from off of her, picked her up and carried her into the bedroom.