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We continued our kiss as I pushed Shizuru back further and further, until she hit up against the wall right next to the fireplace. Shizuru put her arms around my neck pulling me in closer to her. I moved my hands from her waist to the top of her blouse, as I went in to (try) and unbutton her blouse I felt a sudden heaviness on my chest. Shizuru had forcefully pushed me back.
"No! Natsuki we can't!" Shizuru whole body stiffened up, she looked down to the floor unable to look me in the eyes. I was so confused I thought this is what she wanted.
"Shizuru? Come on what's the matter? We can do anything we want. It's just you and me . . . that's all that matters now. Isn't it?" I moved back closer to her. I put my hand just under her chin and lifted her head up to met me. I went in to kiss her but she just turned away again.
"What the hell? Now your pissin' me off. What's the matter? Shizuru . . . do you not want to do this?" With that last question I asked her it seem to grab her attention. She looked starlight back at me and shook her head.
"I-it isn't that. It's just . . . Natsuki you and I both know why we can do this. It's wrong. We can't —
"No, it isn't. I don't care about that stuff right now! I just care about you. Just being with you right here and now. I love you Shizuru, and I wanna show you just how much I love you." I had to cut her off seeing as how I knew what she was getting at. The same excuse as last time, because we both have people in out lives that are supposed to mean so much to us. She's going to be marrying Reito (no matter how much my stomach turns at that thought) and I have Nao. But I don't care about any of that stuff I just want so much to be with her right now.
"Natsuki . . .but we really . . ." Shizuru looked sad just then. I know she was probably feeling somewhat guilty about all this, and so was I. Which made me think for a second. Is this love I'm feeling for her in this moment or is it lust? Either way I just wanted her close to me I wanted to touch and kiss her and feel her skin against my own.
"Shizuru . . . you told me to trust you right?"
"Yes."
"So then trust in me when I say everything will be all right."
"Natsuki . . ." I leaned in and kiss her again. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her away from the wall leading her to the middle of the livingroom. I laid her down on the floor, and went in to unbutton her blouse again. But I was stopped by Shizuru's hands. She grabbed on to my wrist and shook her head. She was still doubting if we should really be doing what we were about to do.
"What's wrong now?" I groaned. I was getting annoyed. I really wanted her and I couldn't wait anymore.
"I'm afraid. I don't know if we should really do– –
"Shizuru. I told you everything will be fine. Just trust me. Please." Shizuru let her hands slide from my wrist and let her arms fall to her sides. She took a deep breath in and slowly let it out, she then closed her eyes. But I didn't take my time anymore. I ripped open her blouse ripping off a few buttons in the process. Shizuru opened her eyes and gasped. But so did I at the sight of what I saw after I finally got her shirt opened.
"Natsuki! W-what are you doing?" Her face was flushed. (She's probably embarrassed.)
"Wow Shizuru. Your breasts are so beautiful and perfect. And so is your skin not a mark or blemish on you. But for you to not be wearing a bra is very indecent." I grabbed a hold of both her breasts and gently squeezed them. Shizuru let out a sharp quick moan. I continued to squeeze and knead them, as I did that I leaned forward and caught Shizuru by her lips. She put her hands firmly onto my shoulders, her grip tightly as she began pulling on my shirt. I payed no mind though as I slid my tongue inside her mouth. I brushed my tongue along hers, and she did the same with me as our both of our tongues intertwined.
I opened my mouth wider exposing out tongues to the open cool air. Shizuru had moaned softly as we continued our little duel of tongues, but I pulled back. I removed my hands from her breasts and put them on either side of her. I moved my mouth to the base of her neck and started to kiss my way slowly down her body. (Shizuru skin tastes so sweet, almost . . . almost like cotton candy. And I can't get over how clear and smooth her skin is, she so beautiful.) I kissed my way down her chest and in-between her breasts. That's when I decided to take a slight detour, I stuck out my tongue this time and licked my way over to Shizuru's right bosom. When I to got her nipple I flicked it with the tip of my tongue, as soon as I did that Shizuru arched her back and let out a sharp moan. I flicked it again before I enclosed my mouth around the hard nub. I sucked and pulled on it and licked around it a few times, all the while Shizuru was trying to hold back. I know she wanted to yell out but she didn't instead she just grabbed onto me more tightly each time.
I moved from the right to the left. There I licked around the left nipple, moistening it. I blew on the nub making it spring to life. I couldn't believe how hard it got, I touched and pressed down on it with my finger. Shizuru had made this very cute little whimpering sound. I guess it felt really good to her. I went back and sucked on it again, I then very gently bit on it.
"AH! Natsuki! D-don't! Hah . . . !" (I didn't realize that she was this sensitive.) Shizuru jerked her body slightly as I let go of her nipple. I went back to licking down her body, I stopped just when I reached her naval. I started to lick around there for a while Shizuru put her hands on the back of my head.
"N-Natsuki! Ah, don't do that . . .it tickles!" (Wow is she really ticklish here? When I do this to Nao it doesn't seem to bother her. I wonder what other weak spots I can find on this girls body.) I raised myself up over Shizuru. I sat back and grabbed onto Shizuru's underwear and started to pull it off, but again I was stopped.
"No, Natsuki. Please let's stop. I can't do this. I can go any further." My mouth just hung open. No way she can't just stop now. She's being such a tease and it's irritating me. I took off my own shirt then and my bra. I figured maybe she would feel more comfortable if we were both semi naked. I climbed back on top of her. I began to kiss her again, but she didn't hesitate on kissing me back of course. But I still couldn't figure why she's so shy about all this. I lowered myself onto her pressing my body against her own. She started running her fingers through my hair and I rested my hands on her hips. I slowly and surely moved my hands lower, I reached her thighs and started to rub them up and down. But I soon made my way to her inner thigh, I moved my hand more inward touching the outside of her underwear. I could feel how wet she was, so I couldn't understand how she was saying she didn't want to do this when she wanted this so badly. I broke our kiss, I shifted my body up more and I whispered in her ear.
"Shizuru . . . your so wet." I passed my hand back and fourth over that area.
"Natsuki . . . don't say that. If you say that–– Ah!" I licked Shizuru's ear, and I bit down on her lobe. I sucked and pulled on her lobe as I began to rub my fingers through her underwear. Shizuru placed one hand on my back and one hand on the back of my neck. I felt her shivering underneath me. She squeezed her legs together as I continued to rub her there, I let go of her ear lobe. I moved back down to her underwear, and I grabbed a hold of it again pulling it down her legs. She lifted up her legs slightly and I was able to take them off this time. But she closed her legs so I had no choice but to spread them open I moved in closer.
"N-Natsuki! Don't I'm embarrassed!" Shizuru tried to close her legs again, but I held them apart.
"You don't have a reason too. Don't be embarrassed Shizuru." I finally got to where I wanted to be. I licked around her entrance, she was still so very wet. Shizuru placed her hands on the back of my head and started to whimper again. (She sounds so cute when she does that. And she really tastes good here too.) I licked more deeper inside. I shoved my tongue in as far as I could . . . but I really didn't get far, because she was so tight. I moved my tongue and licked around her clit and slid my finger in and out of her a few times.
"Natsuki! AH! NATSUKI!" She started to move uncontrollably and moan louder and louder. I could fell the inside of her quivering, she was about to climax. I pulled my finger out and licked it clean, I shoved my tongue back inside her to finish up. She was looser this time so I guess what I was doing before helped that. I stuck my tongue in as far as I could sticking in and out.
"NATSUKI! I'm coming! I'm coming!" And indeed she did come. A lot too. She came so hard and so fast that her juices came pouring out right into my mouth and even got on my face a little. Her body started to spasm, and she was breathing very heavily. I began to lick up all of her juices that were pouring out of her. Shizuru released her grip from the back of my head, I could still hear her panting. I moved up her body kissing her along the way. I kissed her on the lips again. I held her closely to me her whole body was still shaking. I broke our kiss and looked down at her into her eyes.
"Shizuru. Are you all right now? Do you feel more comfortable?" She nodded, and put her arms around me.
"It felt really good Natsuki." She smiled at me and I smiled back.
"Glad to hear it. But were not finished yet." I let go of Shizuru and stood up taking off my pants and tossed them aside. I got back in-between her legs lifting her left leg just a little off the floor. I held her leg there as I situated myself in-between her, I took her right leg and put it over mine.
"Shizuru, I'm gonna start to move now. Okay?" Shizuru grabbed onto both of my shoulders as I began to move against her. I took on more speed with each movement I made, that's when I felt that Shizuru was moving her hips. I moved faster and faster trying to see if she could keep up. She started to moan but quickly covered the sound up.
"Hah . . . its okay . . . Shizuru. You can . . . be louder." With that reassurance she screamed out yelling out my name. (Oh man, I don't know if I could keep this up. It's . . . no good. I'm about to come!) We both started to move faster and grind harder against each other. Shizuru arched her back as I did the same, I lowered my head and caught her by the lips. She held on more tightly to my shoulders that I could feel her nails digging into me.
"Natsuki! Natsuki! I'm coming!"
"Me too! Me too!" We both gave one last push when we both climaxed. She kept screaming out my name. I felt so weak I collapsed onto her gasping for air. Shizuru put her arms around me.
"N-Nastuki . . . (gasp) Haah . . . I love you." (W-what did she just say? Di-did she say that she loves me?) I lifted up my head and kissed Shizuru.
"Do you . . . really love me?" She nodded. I felt so happy. A warm sensation overwhelmed my body just then. My heart was racing so fast I could hear it beating. We stayed there like that for a long while, gasping for air but it didn't help much while we were still kissing.
A few hours later . . .
(Man what the hell? My head hurts. Um, where am I? Oh yeah that's right.) I woke up a few hours later feeling a little dizzy. I looked over to see Shizuru sleeping next to me. I rolled over and put my arm around her, I kissed her on her bare neck. Then I started sucking on it. I heard her moan but I didn't want to wake her, that's when I realized she's not like Nao. I halted my suction for a moment. (Nao . . . damn. She's probably wondering where I am. I wonder what time it is?) Just then I felt Shizuru wrap her arms around my neck. I look down at her into her shining red eyes.
"Hey Shizuru. Did you sleep okay?"
"Yeah I did. But we really didn't do much sleeping." (She's right about that. Right after we finished doing it the first time . . . we did it again.) Shizuru pulled me into a kiss. She started to rub my left arm but then stopped.
"Natsuki? Um, is your arm okay? It didn't hurt did it?" I shook my head,
"Nah. It's cool. Just a few scratch marks."
"Okay. But um . . . was I okay?"
"What do you mean?" Shizuru's cheeks turned a very deep shade of red.
"Well . . . it was my first time so . . . I just wanted to know if I was okay." (What? No way. So . . . then that means I'm . . . her first! She's never done this before? Not even with . . . never mind I don't want to think about her and Reito. No wonder she was hesitating last night. But she acted like she knew what she was doing right after.)
"Shizuru you were better then okay. You were great." I kissed her on her forehead and then moved down to her lips. We stayed kissing for a while until I felt Shizuru's hand sliding her way down there.
"Ah, S-Shizuru? W-what are you doing?"
"Please Natsuki. Let's do it again." Shizuru sounded like she was begging me.
"But Shizuru I don't think– – Ah!"
"I know you want too. Your body is more honest." Shizuru slid her finger inside of me and slowly moved it in and out again. I couldn't stop now because I wanted it too. (I think I may have tainted Shizuru by doing this with her. But now I'm even more uncertain about what I should do. Shizuru told me she's loves me . . .by her saying that and doing what we did, can that really change the fact that I still can't trust her? I still don't know what I should do. I know I love her but, I still need answers.)
Meanwhile, Nao and Reito were having a conversation of their own . . .
"So did you see it?"
"Yeah . . . I did."
"What's wrong Nao? Not happy?"
"No, can't you tell? I'm ecstatic. Just listen to me though before you make any more stupid comments. Are you sure this won't ruin anything now?"
"Positive."
"Why are you?"
"Because once Natsuki finds out the truth, it will destroy her. And this will benefit us in the end."
"I understand. But it still seems harsh."
"Don't worry about her. Just stick to what we discussed. I told you before, once this is over you'll have her back."
"No I won't. Not after this and not ever again. I already lost her . . .so it shouldn't matter."