Hi, readers.
I just wanted to let y'all know I'm alive.
It's been a hard year. Leaving high school with no aim, direction, or really any idea what's next, it's been hard.
My depression hasn't waned, and my current meds seem to not be working. I haven't found a new psychologist that I like. I'm working, but more money is leaving my account than is coming in. In light of all of this, my creative juices - gross term, by the way - dried out months ago. It's like trying to start a car: I have no idea how to do it, sometimes somebody else does it, and all I can really do is sit in the passenger seat.
Oh, and, my attempts at passing the theory section of the drivers' licence have failed miserably.
I'm trying, I really am, to finish this story like I said I would last summer. But I haven't even opened word on my PC in months, unless I was working on my resume.
I've been working on self improvement. This includes: eating healthier, cleaning out my closet, cutting my hair, meeting with friends more often. But it's not perfect: My apartment is always a mess, and I can never seem to get it clean. My anxiety is through the roof. I haven't seen my psychiatrist in months, and our latest appointment got cancelled on account of her being sick. It's a little much sometimes.
But I do promise you this:
I still love James and Lily and they're very much in love. I still love James/Lily/Sirius as a brotp. I have really gotten into podcasts lately, and they've been getting my "creative juices" (gross) flowing. New content will come - I just don't know when.
In the meantime - all of you are more than welcome to come visit me at my tumblrs: books-tv-swiftie (general fandom) and queerastronauts (podcasts and book blogging). I am probably closing down my creative tumblr, it's just too many blogs. I love y'all.
Thanks for following, commenting, and liking during my absence.
JustGail