Here and Now by blackdragonflower

Chapter Ten: Homecoming

Characters belong to Death Note by Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata

Warning: This chapter includes the optional lemon. Once you get to [[-L-]] the rest after that of the chapter is lemony smut goodness (or at least i hope goodness)

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Mello stared at the gate of his childhood home. His heart beating quickly in anxiety. The blond didn't know if he could step foot in the place.

"Mihael, it's so beautiful…"

With that he finally dared to lift his cold eyes to the building, his heart stopping. It was exactly how he remembered it. Except for now it was painfully empty.

Mello undid the latch on the wrought-iron gate and stepped inside anxiously.

"Mommy! Look what I found hidden underneath the front steps! It's a kitten!"

"Aw the poor thing looks so frightened and dirty."

"Can I keep it? It doesn't have any identification tags on its collar!"

"If your father says it's alright and we can't find its owners then you can keep the kitty."

The blond child hugged the dirty kitten close snuggling up to the mass of snowy white fur. "I'll call the kitten Snowflake."

"That's a pretty name."

"It's a pretty cat mommy."

Sayu pursed her lips and put her hands on her hips, giving the yard a surveying glance over. It was full of snow drifts, but the pathway to the front was magically clear. It was probably Wammy House's doing. It was a quaint size though, and Sayu found it rather pleasant. That however couldn't describe her feelings when her eyes turned to her boyfriend's face. The female waved her hand in front of Mello's face which snapped his gaze from the building and to her. "Are you alright? You seem like this place is haunted..."

The blond returned his gaze to a window, and for a split second he believed he could see a woman with the same deep blue eyes staring back at him into his soul all-knowingly. "No not haunted... just..." He let the sentence drop not knowing how quite to finish it. Mello sighed. He'd brought Sayu here because he needed someone to be with him while he relived his childhood, or what bit wasn't lived at good old Wammy's. Matt would have been his first choice, but the videogame bum was too busy with a project, one of his little babies. Mello didn't argue, and didn't question. "I've been here before... a long time ago..."

"Oh..." The brunette pondered looking the place over thoughtfully. Hand in hand they walked up the once neatly lain stone stepping path to the front steps of the porch. They climbed up three steps onto the porch, which creaked gently from the weight it was so unaccustomed to for many years. Pulling a key from his pocket Mello inserted it into the lock of the door, but paused before opening it.

"I don't think I can go back in there..."

"Mello... is there something else about this house?" Just faintly on the door frame Mello could see little knicks where lines and numbers were cut. He let the key hang in the lock and bent down to examine them repeating aloud what he found.

"Mihael... age three... age six.... age seven, four foot six inches... age nine... four foot nine inches..."

"This... was your childhood home... before... you lost your parents..." Sayu wrapped her arms around Mello's waist and gave him a strong reassuring hug. "This must be so hard for you..." She took Mello's face into her hands massaging little circles onto his cheekbones with the pads of her thumbs. "I'm so proud of you... coming back here."

Mello couldn't bear to meet those warm eyes in that exact moment. He hadn't told her why he was coming back to this place, his old home. She didn't know he'd been expelled from Wammy's. Hell as if his pride would ever let him admit that. "Sayu-chan..."

"Let's tackle this together." The young woman took his hand squeezing it tightly. "One room at a time."

Mello smiled faintly and drew his girlfriend close to his chest placing a chaste kiss to the crown of her brow. "Fine then... I accept your challenge. One room at a time."

His gloved hand turned the key and the lock let out a dull click, the mechanisms put to work after so long. They entered into a mudroom, empty except for dust that'd collected. They were only bound to find more of that throughout the house. The chocolate loving blond took of his boots and placed then neatly by the door amazed at how warm the room was despite the fact he'd just come in from the cold.

"Mihael! Don't you dare track mud in young man!"

"I'm not!!!"

Mihael's mother took up a defensive stance in the doorway to protect her home from the filth on the boy's shoes. "And what do you call that?" She pointed.

"...Dirt."

"It's mud. Now get those shoes off and don't you dare take a step into this house with them on."

The blond boy grumbled but did as he was told. When he looked back the once penetrating, cold, military-style stare was warm and full of love for him. "Good boy. Now come inside for dinner... I made cake for dessert... Since your father's coming out of his study for once." Mihael jumped up and trotted after his mother licking his lips at the thought of the delicious cake confectionery, and smiling at the promise of his father at the dinner table.

"Mihael are you giving your mother trouble again?"

"No father" He smirked mischievously, "of course not! I would never!"

"I think you've gotten some mighty big lies on you." The novelist laughed getting up from his seat and hugging his son. "What do you say to us going somewhere this weekend as a family? Maybe to the park?"

"Really?!" The child questioned excitedly.

"Yeah. I've been cooped up in my study for weeks and without you guys it's awfully lonely."

"Let's go! As soon as possible!"

"Calm down Mihael... we've got forever."

'Forever he promised... and he of all people knew how short life could be... and that forever is never in the grasp of anyone...'

Sayu didn't say anything, but followed suite and placed her shoes beside Mello's. Absentmindedly she tucked a strand of hair behind his ear and took a step forwards into the empty home. She jumped when the floor creaked gently under her footsteps. When she turned around Mello was still in the doorway of the mudroom. His angelic features told of his discomfort but determination to take the first step into the actual house. Sayu was about to take a step towards him, but kept herself in place. She knew he needed to do this on his own, for his pride, for himself. With a heavy intake of air he took a step forward then another and another until he was by her side and wrapping her up in a solid hug. The brunette eeped in surprise.

She placed her hands on his shoulder blades, her heart aching as she felt the unseen shudders course through his body. He was on the verge of crying... Sayu let her hands drift down her lover's back and to his waist and hugged him closely in return. "Do you want to leave?"

"...No... this house is all I have left..." Composing himself once more he walked across the wooden floors stepping around a board or two he remembered creaked back in the day. Finding himself at the foot of stairs the leather wearing chocoholic glanced up. He could see the nail holes where frames of the family use to hang. His mother was so proud of them, proud of her beautiful family. Mello waved Sayu over and took her hand. "Avoid the middle of the seventh step, it has the worst creak imaginable. I want to show you my father's study."

Once they reached the top, Mello walked, faster and faster towards the door at the end of the hall. 'I hope they left it exactly the way it was. I let them take away everything else and do what they wish with it... but this room and my parent's room. Please let it remain the way it was.' He placed his hand over Sayu's eyes and kissed her cheek. "I don't know if anything is still there... but... if it is I want this to be a surprise for you."

"Okay Mello..." Throwing the door open Mello smirked in triumph and slid his hand away from the girl's face. Her mouth formed an 'o' in surprise. "Oh my god..." She took a step inside, not sure where her eyes should focus, or even if she had the time to focus on just one thing. There were floor to ceiling bookcases, but on the last wall was a huge expanse of windows that allowed to see into the countryside. A window seat was cradled in one part of the window, while a telescope occupied another corner of it. "Mello it's so amazing... this was your father's?"

The blond nodded, running his finger across the top of his father's cherry wood desk, surprised a he didn't find a bit of dust. "This was my father's. He spent half his life in this room. He was a novelist... though not famous, but he liked it like that. He wasn't a big one for people outside just our family of him, my mother, and I, though he was utterly fascinated with the inner working of the human psyche."

"Am I... allowed to touch anything?"

"Please... go ahead." The blond sat in his father's plush chair imagining what it must have felt like to pen a novel underneath the light of a lamp and the starlight that glittered through the windowpanes. Sayu looked over the books nearest to her smiling.

"Your father liked to bake?"

"No. My mother. My father just collected many books for her. She was always cooking and baking something new. But she never made anything she knew we wouldn't touch. My father was a little picky in his diet." Mello chuckled closing his eyes and leaning back. Sayu grinned and tiptoed up behind him turning the chair around and sitting on his lap cuddling. The blond was surprised, to say the least.

"You were fond of your father?"

"Both of them. They were all I had... and I cared about them dearly."

"...Mello... um... how did they... um.... never mind..." The brunette tapped her fingertips together and stared down into her lap.

"You want to know how they died?"

The young woman nodded and Mello took a deep breath. "It was a car accident. We were suppose to be going on a picnic that day, but as we were going through an intersection a car collided with ours. Three people died, my parents, and my unborn sibling to be... I don't remember much of it... just waking up in the hospital wondering where I was and where my parents were. I was little, and very scared. Worst of all I was lonely and heartbroken once I found out what had happened." Mello rested his cheek against Sayu's head and fiddled with a strand of her hair thoughts of the hospital cold in his mind. He tried pushing the most hurtful of memories away but they were ever persistent. "Let's go... I want to see if Wammy's left one more room untouched like I asked of them." Without a word Sayu slid off his lap. She wanted to help comfort him, but she didn't know how. This hurt ran so, so deep. It was saddening for her to see her lover in so much emotional stress.

"Which room are we going to Mello?"

"My parent's room..."

"Is it upstairs or downstairs?"

"Upstairs... it's on the left when you come up the stairs instead of the right."

"Mello... um well... Mihael?"

"Yes Sayu?"

The young woman pressed her lips against her boyfriend's sweetly. "I love you."

[[-L-]]

Mello smiled weakly and led her away. His parents' room earned another quick little gasp from Sayu Yagami. "Go try out the bed... it's really comfortable." Sayu didn't have to be told twice. She scuttled over and leaped onto the mattress her face landing in various comfortable pillows. Enveloped in a rich brown the girl closed her eyes sighing in content. Unable to resist Mello slid in beside her cuddling into her back. He could feel her warm body through her clothes, and this set off an image in his head, which caused him to mentally groan. He hadn't had it in so long... Leaning forward the blond wrapped his lips around the shell of the brunette's ear, nibbling on the cartilage. She let out a soft moan of surprise.

"Mello..." she quietly whined. His hand, with a mind of its own, drifted underneath her shirt and the fingertips skimmed against the skin delicately. Once they came to her breast however, it was a different matter. Slipping his hand underneath the bra, cupping it, Mello gave a squeeze enjoying every squirm she made. "Oh... God... Mello..." Her stomach jumped, twisting in on itself in a nauseating pleasure. With that Mello could take no more. He turned her towards him and unbuttoned the blouse, pushing it aside. He laid kisses down Sayu's collarbone before taking her breast into his mouth. The brunette could feel the warm saliva of her lover's mouth, soaking through the thin material of the bra, igniting the senses. He bit down on the hardening bud, causing her to gasp. "M-Mello..."

"Sayu... fuck with me... please..." His voice was strained and he nudged at her with his hips. He needed her so badly. He'd waited too long. The blond could only pleasure himself for awhile, it was a mastery of will that he made it even this far. He was overcome by the desire that flooded all his thoughts, stopping any rational thought in their tracks. "fuck with me Sayu..."

The woman groaned. She'd thought about this often, dreamed about it. Gods knew she wanted him just as badly as he wanted her. "Ta-take it all off..." She managed to mutter, which was her way of giving her permission. Even though at the state he was in, Mello was probably going to do things his way, no matter what she'd say. Reaching around her back Mello undid the bra and slid the garments off her torso. His eyes sparkled in delight. He kissed down her neck and to her bellybutton where he rubbed his cheek. Sayu blushed, face getting hot. He was playing with her chubby places, and she didn't like it much. "M-Mello... stop playing with my fat..."

The blond just kissed her stomach and love handles some more a smile on his devilish lips. "I like these areas. They make you real... perfect in every way. I like them... nothing fake." His tongue darted into her bellybutton ad she squealed. She didn't bother wondering what it'd be like for him to be inside her, because she knew it would come. There was no going back now. Over the cliffs into the pools of fiery passion they would dive together. And she couldn't wait.

When she sat up Mello followed her, kissing up to her ready mouth and stealing its attention. The woman's pale hands groped for the zipper of the blond's vest. It was a necessity that her skin met his as soon as it was able. While tongue tangled wildly she fumbled getting rid of the top and throwing it wherever it felt like landing. Their hands both attacked the other's pants, undoing the buttons in excitement.

Once free of the restraints of clothes the two's eyes met. The woman's eyes were glistening in a way Mello had never seen them before. He wondered if she'd ever done something like this before, but didn't bother asking... it would ruin the moment, and if she was still virginal he didn't want to make her nervous. With hushed whispers he made his way down her skin to the curve of her hip and left a tiny ring of teeth, not too intrusive on her soft skin. His fingertip stroked the outside of her heat. She mewled hips rising upwards towards heaven. With delicate movements his other free fingertips of the other hand glided up her thigh, and to her lower back across the beautiful hill of her left cheek.

A shiver followed his fingertips up her spine and she grasped him by the neck and pulled his clever mouth back to hers, breaking past his lips into the sultry cavern. Running her tongue across his palate, he answered in a moan that only made her wetter than before. That was good. Mello wanted her nice and wet before he entered her, it would make it easier on her body. The blond panted against the shell of Sayu's ear nibbling on the edge. "Touch me..." Her hands were already wandering his body, but she knew he meant something more. Something she'd never been allowed to do, much less thought of doing without subjecting herself to a red face and a potential nosebleed. Her hand shook but she closed her eyes and grabbed onto the last untouched place of her lover's body. He took her hand, guiding it across his length, helping the fingers close further around the shaft of tissue. The brunette began to gain more confidence and shook her hand free from her lover's, trying to arouse a need in him as he was doing in her. "Fuck..." he murmured shaking in response to her touch and the taste of the sweet wetness that had stained his fingers. This sight only served to arouse her senses more and she yearned deep in her core for him to claim her fully, in a way only he could. Her hips thrusted towards him eagerly, begging without the need for words.

He got the hint and spread-eagled her legs, positioning himself while distracting her. It was going to hurt if this was her first time. He made the entrance quick, breaking her barrier and immersing his stiffening member in her heat. Her tight muscles clamped around his stem sending shocks through the nerves and driving him further towards his climax as her scream pierced the air. Her nails dragged down his perspiring back, hips rolling into him to clash against each thrust.

They grew quicker, as did his breaths. They both raced towards their epiphanies, sweat glistening from their entwined flesh. The muscles in her lower body secured themselves even tighter around his cock, and with a low grunt and a shudder that rocked both their bodies, he came, his seed infiltrating the warm enclosure of her womanhood. Sayu couldn't breathe the heat inside of her was so prodigiously stifling. In a conclusive cry of Mihael's name she tumbled over the precipice into his awaiting arms, shaking in her pleasurable experience.

Emitting shallow breaths over the tantalizing shape of her lips, the blond-haired male ran his fingers lightly through the locks of her hair. He opened his mouth to say words but could find none which suited him, or the situation at hand. Sayu smiled and kissed him once more, not wild, but soft and slow. It was rushed in no way, and for Mello it quickly climbed the ranks in his favorite kisses he'd ever shared with his companion.

Mello teased her with another thrust that made her body jump. "I-it's funny..." she managed to voice.

"What's funny?" The blond questioned, a bit worried under his calm exterior.

"How easily we fit together... and just..." Sayu blushed, embarrassed a bit to admit what was on her mind, "how lovely this feels... you inside me..."

With that answer Mello's heart melted, and he smiled. He caressed her cheekbone with the back of his fingers, in the gentlest of manners, "You're right... that is pretty funny..."

Sayu gazed into the strange shade of turquoise-lazuline that Mello's eyes happened to take that moment. They were so impossibly deep she knew that if she continued to look, she would submerge herself in the depths and never breach the surface to breathe again. Propping himself up on an elbow Mello rolled off the bed and to his feet. He extended his hand, and the brunette took it wondering what he could be up to. He plucked her from the mattress, but drew a blanket afterwards wrapping it around their shoulders so they would continue to be warm. Without words he took a step towards the window, his arms around her pulling her along with.

"... It's snowing..." From the window Sayu could see the starlight, and the tiny drops of snowflakes as they drifted towards the Earth lazily. She shivered. In response, the blanket closed tighter around her, and Mello's body pressed comfortingly closer, his voice an alluring purr in her ear. "How nice..."

Oh how nice I finally am able to update for all of you reading this. Since the lemon is over I'm hoping further chapters will come much easier... this was my first official posted het. lemon so I'm really excited about it, but nervous as well. I just hope that it is good enough and it wasn't really cookie cutter. I know I still have a lot of learning to do about writing these, and maybe my next attempt will be better...? :-D I sure hope so.

For those that skipped over the lemon [as stated it was optional ;-) ] I hoped what there was enough for you to enjoy it till next update. Ah the angsties. Well, much love to everyone that's sticking out the long time between updates. You guys are my heroes.

~blackdragonflower