A\N: I know, I know. I swore up and down I wouldn't write another chappie...well, heck, let's see if I can pull it off. If I can, let me know I've died and gone to Author's Heaven. BTW: The TK kissing thing was NOT from ditena's fic! (shameless plug for her--fic is called Dark Dreams, should be out sometime over the holidays.)

Diary...

I really wish I were as brave as Tommy. Killing myself has never sounded so good.

Sorry. I know this isn't exactly what you expected to read from me. Me, with the bubbly handwriting, the 'like's inserted every other word, the Power Ranger who has the color of freaking Pink. But yeah, killing myself sounds great.

Tommy's uncle just told my mom I'm a Power Ranger.

And she lost it.

I don't really blame her. If she knew half of what I've been through...well, you remember when I thought I was pregnant? There was a reason I did. And I am really glad I never wrote it down, or Mom would shoot Tommy, evil or not now. But did she really have to call Zordon all of that?

I guess she doesn't get it. I mean, she has a dad. She doesn't know how much it hurts to have to live without one. I do. I can still remember Mom and Dad fighting, even though I was tiny. So Zordon's kind of a godsend right now. He's like the best father in the world.

Mom's losing it. She says Zordon was tricking me, that if he ever went near me she'd kill him. I believe her. That's why I feel like shit right now. I mean, I lied to her, stopped doing school, and I feel closer to an ET than her. Oh, yeah, and she just found out about the school. She started crying when she found out.

Really, really feel horrible. Worse when I start thinking about that thing with Tommy. Wasn't his fault, I know, but...but he hurt me. Really badly. And I hated him for it at the time. It got easier when I started getting to know Tommy, the real Tommy, not the Green Ranger. The difference is mainly that the real Tommy is so shy he was stammering around me for a week after he asked me out.

He still does that, you know. The other night he was playing football and he was staring at my cheerleading outfit instead of watching the game. Then he got whacked upside the head with the ball. I actually laughed at him. I mean, he knows better, so why not laugh a bit when he does something that stupid?

Yeah, I'm getting waay off-topic. I really need to focus, or I'm not gonna solve this at all. Maybe Zordon has a solution. He has a solution for everything. Well, not everything. He couldn't help Tommy when he tried to kill himself. No one could have, really. Zordon was right, that was Tommy's fight.

Was he right?

I can't believe I just wrote that. But...but could he have helped Tommy? Could he have maybe let Tommy not keep the Green coin, just so he could recover? I mean, Rita shouldn't have given him that coin anyway...

Should any of us have gotten our coins?

Okay, I really...well, I actually don't know why I haven't thought of this before. Should we have? Why couldn't adults have saved the world?

Should they have tried, though? Look at the mess they made of it already.

Yeah, I don't know. I'm gonna go talk to Zordon. I bet I'll feel better once he's explained. And maybe he'll have amnesia pills for Mom.

Bye!

-Kim