Me + sick + watching scrubs more than 24 hours + random crack in brain + drawing too much AkuRoku This story…

Friday – December 21

The days seem to go even slower when you have something too look forward too. But also when you absolutely don't want something to happen that will happen in s few coming days. In fact, 3 days, if you count this one as a day. Even the best song on your mp3 doesn't even help pass time. Fortunately for me, there is a way of passing time and that's hanging in the cafeteria. There's always someone you know there and there's always something going on there. After I helped Xigbar x-ray a stupid old man that slipped on an ice patch we both walked to the cafeteria. Zexion stood there behind the counter polishing the cups. He seemed quite annoyed. The reason was quite obvious. A laughing Axel and Demyx were sitting at the counter enjoying their break. Sometimes I wonder if they fool around in the hospital more than working… They always seem to be at the cafeteria. Then Axel looked at my direction. As fast as our eyes meet my cheeks turned a little warmer. And I quickly looked down.

"Ey! Roxas, Xigbar! Over here!" Axel waved with his hand like an idiot.

Demyx seemed to react on Xigbar's name and he started to act even more like an idiot like Axel, shouting Xiggy instead.

I heard a sigh come from Xigbar. Oh my, if Demyx would have heard that he'd be as broken as a broken glass that felt from the Statue of Liberty… We walked up to them, but then Xigbar instead went directly to Zexion to order instead of greeting them back. Demyx seemed a little hurt by this, but Axel didn't seem too careless. "Roxy!" Axel said and tackle hugged me.

"What the fuck?! Axel!" I said as I felt the warmth spread through my face and I tried to free myself from his hug. I tried even harder after seeing Demyx's smug grin on his face. I just want to swipe that grin away by telling him that Xigbar didn't seem to like him, but that just seems to mean, so I let Demyx have his way for now.

"Axel, let go off me." I said and looked at him. He let go off me with a sigh and then grinned as large as Demyx did. They both looked like idiots… They both stopped grinning like idiots when Xigbar sat down next to Demyx, with a large purple cup in his hand. Axel spun his chair to Zexion. "Hey Zexy!" Axel called to him. "Refill please! Chai Latte for me and Cappuccino for Demyx."

Sexy?!?! What the fuck?!? Axel, you hit on me yesterday and now you're hitting on Zexion?! And I thought there was absolutely nothing going on with you two. Zexion doesn't really like Axel and Axel just like to tease Zexion, so why is he calling him sexy?! I'm so confused.

"What's up Roxy?" Axel said. I shook my head to get rid of those thoughts temporary and listen to what Axel said. "You look like you want to strangle someone. Do you want some Chocolatte?"

"Eh?" I blush a little in surprise. "N-no, I'm fine. I can order one myself."

"Here you go." Zexion said and handed me a large blue cup. Then he gave Demyx a blue cup and Axel a red cup. Demyx fiddled with his cup, and then he looked at Xigbar and smiled, "So… how has your day been Xiggy?"

Xigbar looked a bit annoyed and surprised at him, "What's up with all the stupid new nicknames?" he asked.

Both Axel and Demyx looked surprised at first but then they grinned at each other. A loud sigh was heard from the person behind the counter. "They have been talking about it for almost an hour. Giving everybody a new nickname and talking about what colour fits that person the most and so on… And they even forced me to only give you the cups in that specific colour that 'suits you best.'"

"That's right!" Axel said cheerfully and grabbed me with his arm. "You're Roxy, Zexion is Zexy, Demyx is Demy or Dem Dem, we're having a hard time deciding that and Xigbar is Xiggy!"

Oh… that's why he called Zexion Zexy. And I thought he said sexy. I feel kinda stupid now. "But what about your name Axel?"

Axel looked a bit surprised, "Well… since my name is so short we made ourselves a special nickname each."

I doubt it's any good nickname… "So what is it?" I really do…

Axel gleamed as he raised his hand to do a superior pose, "My nickname is 'Super duper mega special awesome gleaming fireman!"

"…You've got to be kidding" Xigbar said. At least he could say something. I was too shocked to say anything, my head just got empty with words. "You… can't be serious…" I finally got out after about 5 minutes starring at Axel.

"Dude, I'm totally serious!" Axel said and knocked me on the head, "Don't you think it's cool?"

I sighed and looked away, "I rather call you 'Tambourine man'…"

Axel stopped knocking, "Roxy! That's seriously harsh!"

"Stop calling me Roxy!" I said and tried to hide me blush by looking more frustrated than what I was. I don't know. It was a weird feeling having Axel calling me Roxy. A little embarrassing but… Kinda cute too…

"What is the fun of having a nickname but not using it?" Axel said.

"It's different from having a nickname that you like than one that embarrasses you…" I sighed. Axel sighed too and pouted out his lips in disappointment. "So you don't like your nickname Roxy?"

Uh, what should I answer? It's not like I hate it, but its embarrassing being called it in front of the others. "Eh… I prefer you use my name instead of that nickname." I said unsurely. Stop pouting Axel.

"Aaaaw, but I like calling you Roxy, it really fits calling you something that sounds cute!" smiled sweetly. What the?! Giving such a cute smile for nothing, I felt that on my side the blush spread on a second to all my face. I don't even have to act cool now, since I have absolutely nothing to say. Oh, god! This is embarrassing! The cup of Chocolatte became very more interesting to look at now than everything, especially when I can't even look at Axel right now. If someone could just talk and buy me more time to gain my cool that would be great, as long as Demyx or someone else starts the mocking again.

"Axel, Demyx, you haven't told me what you did earlier today before you went straight to the Cafeteria as usual." I heard Zexion say. I looked to the right and saw Zexion leaning on the counter to Axel and Demyx. They both looked and Zexion, but he acted like normal. Axel scratched his neck, "Eh… well… We took care of our patients and then we teased Saïx about him kissing the chef's butt and so on, but we had to stop because then he went berserk and we had to flee." Both Axel and Demyx grinned. Xigbar sighed, "Do you guys always have to fool around in the hospital? You know that if you have nothing to do you can always sign up for some extra work."

Demyx cheeks turned a little pink, "Eh, I know, but… We're not so bright for such things… since the extra work is much harder than our regular work."

"Well, why not start working half time and start study?" Xigbar said and drank his coffee. "I-I guess you have a point." Demyx said, first looking at the roof then looking at his Cappuccino. "But we're not exactly the study people." Axel added. "Right now we are satisfied with our work. Of course it can become improved. It always does. It just comes in a slow pace when it's us. And we are not ashamed of that!" Axel poked Xigbar on the nose. Demyx smiled weakly while Axel smiled proudly. "Too slowly." I heard Zexion whisper for himself. Even though I really like Axel, it was almost impossible for me to share side with him right now. All Axel and Demyx do was fool around in the hospital. But I guess that's what they like too do and are best at. "So how are you guys going to celebrate Christmas this year?" Axel said. My fingers twitched as I heard that question. First of all, I don't want to be reminded of what a crappy Christmas I will have this year. Second, I'm worried that the reason why Axel asked everyone was to drag more people to a party. I hate that Axel goes to so many parties, I'm worried that he might get hurt or so. I just wished that he would listen to me. "I haven't made up my mind about working or celebrate it with my family…" I sighed.

"Probably by myself, if I don't find a party to go to." Zexion said as he polished the last cup. Demyx got up from his seat and slammed his hands on the counter with excitement. "Zexy! I know were you can go to a party. There's going to be a party in the same building I, Axel and many others live in."

Zexion looked a little doubtful, "Eh, I'm not sure… We'll see."

"Oh come on it can't be bad." Demyx said and winked, "I mean, everyone in our building is going to that party and if you wanna go to a party why not this one? Of course you have to make up your mind like, today since we have to tell the host that we're bringing friends."

Zexion sighed and put away the cup, "We'll I guess I can come then."

"Great!" Demyx smiled, "More Cappuccino please!"

"Good thing you decided to come Zexy." Axel said. "You have no idea what heck of a party you would miss otherwise."

"Then… sign me up too."

It felt like everyone in the entire room looked at me. I gave everyone at the counter a quick glance. They didn't have too say anything, their facial expression said it for them. I sighed and got up from my seat. "I rather go to a party than just sit around on Christmas. Well, I'm done for the day now. I'll see you guys tomorrow." I put the money for the Chocolatte on the counter and then walked away. When I was out of sight for the people in the Cafeteria, I ran for my life to the changing room. OH DEAR GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE?! I quickly unlocked my locker, grabbed my stuff and quickly changed clothes. As usual, don't care about locking it before I go. And instead of going straight to the bus station I stopped at the café and grabbed a Chocolatte. Just as I was about to walk to the couches, the door slammed open. Everyone in the café turned around to see who it was who had slammed the door open. It was Axel and he must have just thrown on his jacket since he was still wearing the practical nurse clothes. He walked up to me and grabbed my arm. "You can't come to the party!" he said. I felt kinda split when he said so. One of the half just wanted to hug Axel since I was kinda moved that he seemed to care for me. But this time, the other half had a bigger impact on me. I pushed Axel away from me. He backed off a couple of steps and let go of me. "Don't tell me what to do." I said coldly as I walked to the couches. Axel walked after me and sat down on the couch that was opposite to me. "Hey you, listen up, okay? You can't go to the party!"

"I can do whatever I feel like doing." I replied coldly again. Is it that time again? Playing cold and hard-to-get? It feels like so and I'm surely acting that way to. Or maybe I just had enough from yesterday that apparently was Mocking Roxas Day. Axel sighed, "I don't want you to go okay? I don't think partying is something for you. It's shallow and pretty much everyone will be drinking so you might end up hurt or something."

"If you think that way, why do you party as much as you do then?"

Axel froze and there was a long moment of silence when both of us just starred at each other. But the staring contest ended when a red-haired girl walked up to us. "Does anyone want more coffee?" her question interrupted us. Both me and Axel looked at her. She smiled unsurely. "Sure, I'll have a cup." Axel said to her and then looked away.

"I have made up my mind. I will go to that party. Deal with it." I said and looked out of the window. I have to be strong, I can't give way for Axel all the time. Even if that means I have to start acting cold again towards Axel.