Oh my… gawds… I've been working on this chapter A LOT. Even in school. There I got paranoid if someone was watching when I wrote… ehm… never mind, here's the chapter I've been working my ass of for you, so I hope you enjoy it!
Sunday - Dec 24
"Good morning sleepyhead!"
Axel pulled away the curtains and let the sun in. I quickly pulled the blanket over my head, but Axel pulled away the blanket from me. I curled up as my body where exposed to the cold room. I groaned and hid my head beneath my pillow. Or, mine and mine, Axel's pillow. "Get up!" Axel said and pushed me to the floor. Even though I hit the floor I still felt all sleepy and just wanted to go back to sleep. When he started to tug my leg I tried to kick him back. I barely hit him once, but Axel let go of me with a groan. "Roxas, if you don't get up at this instant, I swear, I will kick you so hard in the nuts that you will have to fuck sideways for the rest of your life!"
I whined as I slowly got up and tried to get used with the morning light. Axel reached out a hand for me to grab and then pulled me up. I rubbed my eyes and looked around in the room only to be surprised by Axel's kiss. It was short, but nice. I wonder why he did that. Does it mean we're a couple now?
"Blergh! Morning breath!" Axel said and stuck out his tongue from his mouth. I laughed a little, my voice was all hoarse from the night before. We had talked all night and I have never opened up like that my entire life. I punched Axel's arm, but he countered the hit by pulling me in to a warm hug. I had my arms around his neck and purred as I dug my face in to his neck and flaming red hair, breathing in so much Axel that my lungs had the capacity to. Then I let out a sigh of how happy I was. "Hey Roxy, are you always this hard to wake?" I heard Axel ask. I let out a small chuckle before I looked at his face and gave him a soft kiss on the lips. It was my first time kissing Axel first, but it felt like I have done it a millions of times before. I tried to shake of that feeling, but it seemed like it didn't want to leave, like it was something important to remind me of something. The kiss ended with Axel pulling away. "Okay, we really have to do something about your breath!"
I slapped his chest jokingly and pushed him away, smiling, "Shut up!" I said and walked to the door with Axel walking behind me. I got a chock when I walked out of the room and saw who was standing in the kitchen.
"Good morning!" a cheerful Demyx said, he didn't seem to at all share the same feeling I did. He stood there by the stove cooking something for breakfast. I turned around and looked at Axel, who just looked confused by my look.
"What's wrong?" Axel whispered and glanced furtively at Demyx hoping that we wouldn't be so suspicious.
"Has he been here the entire the night?" I hissed at him. Axel looked more confused.
"No, he got here this morning." Axel whispered back, "Why?"
"Because it's suspicious if I'm here before him and that I'm asleep when he got here!" I hissed back. Axel looked a little offended.
"Hey, I tried to wake you up, you know…" Axel said, looking more irritated and didn't bother whisper anymore.
"I'm not that hard to wake!" I hissed more angrily, but still not so loud that Demyx in the kitchen would hear.
"Hey guys, lunch is ready!" Demyx called at them and smiled, "You lovebirds can have your private conversation later!"
Axel groaned. If it was because of me or Demyx comment I don't know. Probably me.
Then it hit me.
"Lunch?" I asked, "Uhm, Dem, it's breakfast that is the first meal of the day…"
Demyx turned around and looked at me and Axel. He had a spoon sticking out of his mouth. He took it out and said, "Yeah, I'm not that stupid. I ate breakfast several hours ago." He brought the food to the table. Axel and I walked up to the table. "But…" I started to say, still confused over that it was lunchtime already.
"Axel tried to wake you up like hundreds of times, ya know? But I guess his bed was too comfortable for getting you up from it." Demyx laughed, "Or maybe he tired you out so much from the night before that you needed to rest!"
"Shut up Demyx!" Axel snapped. I sighed over how awkward this whole thing was.
Our meaningless little fight had me more wondering if we were a couple since I hadn't gotten a clear answer from Axel yet.
"Shoot!" Demyx suddenly said, "I'm late!"
"Late for what?" Axel asked between his bites. He seemed to have calmed down from Demyx previous comment.
"Chew with your mouth closed." I commented him. He answered back with a 'yeah, whatever' look on his face and then he returned to Demyx, who seemed a little nervous. He was soon finished with the food on his plate. "Uhm, nothing special… I'm supposed to meet a friend by now."
Axel observed Demyx behavior.
"Oh?" he said teasingly. "A date, perhaps?" he asked as he raised one eyebrow.
Demyx body made an uncomfortable twitch. The only sound heard was Axel's soft chuckling. Demyx got up from his chair and placed his dishes in the sink. Axel didn't stop chuckling but when Demyx turned around with a serious look on his face the laughter stopped. I expected a shy blushing Demyx that would shout 'Cut it out!' or something like that, but he looked more bored…
"If I had a date, I would have started to prepare myself hours ago and would absolutely don't have any time making you guys lunch."
Brunch for me that is… I don't know I'm usually not so hard to wake up.
"Anyways, I really have to go now, I'll see you guys later at the party or before." Demyx said and grabbed his jacket and left the apartment with his usual grin.
"Do you really think he's going to meet a friend?" Axel asked after Demyx left.
I looked at him, "Huh?"
"I'm curious… I think he has a date…" Axel said and had his thumb and index finger under his chin.
"So?" I said and finished the last of my food on the plate, "I don't care, but if you do then I guess you can find out by yourself."
"Oh, come on Roxy!" Axel said as he got up from the chair.
I sighed, "No way, you'll have to do this on your own." I said and got up from my seat and placed my plate among with my fork in the dish. I heard a sigh from Axel, but I chose to ignore it.
"Anyways, I'm going to work a little before the party." I said and grabbed my jacket.
Axel looked at me, "Why? Its Christmas today."
"That's right, dumbass. This means double salaries today since we're short staffed on the hospital and not many people want to work." I poked his nose before I closed my jacket.
I started heading to the door before Axel interrupted me, "Hey, do you think that I should go to?"
I looked at him again, "Well, if you want to. I'm not forcing you."
"Alright, but it sounds like a good idea." Axel said and nodded.
"Right, I have to say good choice. Spying on Demyx for trying to see if he's on a date sounds pretty dumb…"
"Oh, shoot! I forgot that!" Axel said almost immediately after I finished my previous sentence.
And with that, I sighed and left Axel's apartment.
The wind was surprisingly cold as it hit my face when I stepped out from the apartment block. There's a twenty minute walk from here to the hospital, but even though it was freezing as hell I decided to skip the bus and walk. I dug up my iPod and cursed over the fact that it was low on batteries, but then again, I'm not allowed to listen to music at work and the batteries should be able to hang on 'til I get to the hospital area. I wonder what this day would be like… Probably the same as usual during winters, accidents due to slippery ice, heart attacks and so on.
I groaned as I closed the door to patient in room number three. He once again made very strange jokes when I entered the room. Today had been a stressful day since we were a little under staffed and that Axel was screwing around even more than he normally does together with Demyx. I walked back with the cart to the storage room.
"Hi Roxas!" a female voice said.
I looked behind me, but didn't see anyone so I continued to the storage room and placed the cart in the corner.
"I said, hi Roxas!" The same voice said. I turned around gain and saw a girl, shorter than me and with blonde hair.
"Namine?"
She smiled, she was currently working at the hospital since she was painting the walls and making the place cozier.
"You know what, sometimes I think you're both blind and deaf, Roxas." She said. I smiled weakly back at her. She walked over to me, "So, I see that you're working as hard as usual even on Christmas."
"Yeah," I replied and picked up a towel that had fallen down and put it in basket.
Namine looked at me, "So I guess you're not celebrating with your family, huh?"
"Yeah," I replied shortly. It was not that I didn't like Namine, it was just that we had this story behind us, which made me a little uncomfortable around her. She's a great friend but I can't help feeling like that.
"Just don't overwork, okay?" She said and turned around. She stopped at the door, "So, what are you wishing for this Christmas?"
I looked at her and thought for a moment, "I'm not sure."
There was a short silence.
"…I see," she said before she walked out the door. Then she turned around and smiled at me before she closed the door.
I thought about Namine, that we're really good friends and have no problem writing or talking to each other on the phone. But that it got really awkward when we met in person. It's probably just me. If I were going to describe me in one word it would be the word different.
Even Zexion at the hospital's café was home. He was probably celebrating with his family before he headed to the party pretty much every one was going to. But his assistant was there today. A guy in his eighteens and moved away from the city his parents lived in to study. He only worked on the weekends and holidays since the rest of the time he was in school. I bought a chocolatte to go and then I left the hospital for the day. It had started to snow a little, but since there was plus outside the snowflakes melted in mid air. I thought if I was going to head home to change clothes and then go to the party, but my thoughts blanked out when I saw Sora and Kairi at the café. It was closed so I wondered what there where doing there. I ran up to the café and knocked on the door to get their attention. Both of them turned around and smiled when they saw me. Kairi ran up and unlocked the door, "Hey Roxas! What are you doing here?" she asked cheerfully.
"Well, I was heading home from the hospital when I saw you guys and thought that I ought to say hi." I replied. I walked over to the couch that Sora was sitting in and sat on the one opposite to him. Kairi skipped back next to Sora and he put his arm around her. I couldn't help feeling a little jealous since they were so cute together and that I didn't really have anyone to be with like that. Well, maybe Axel, I'm still not sure. I tried really hard only to reply on the messages I get from Axel first and not be the one to send the first message. I'm not sure why, but I don't want to seem so desperate for him. I stayed with them for while and talked about various things. Then suddenly there was another knock on the door. We all looked there and saw tall guy with white hair that reached further down than to his shoulders.
"Riku!" Sora said and leaped up from the couch and opened the door. Riku was greeted by a glom from Sora and walked in together with a couple of snowflakes that fell in through the gap of the door. It had started to snow a little more than before when I was outside. Riku's actually a good guy, but I don't get along with him so much. He's Sora's best friends and has been that since they were small. I was actually a little scared of Riku when I was small and I sometimes I still am. The two best friends retuned to the couch with Sora sitting down to Kairi and Riku next to me. We talked a little more again before Kairi got up to refill our cups. Riku looked over at the door, "There's a gap that let's in the snow and cold air."
Sora got up and looked at the door. As he examined the door, he first tiptoed and held his hand at the top of the door and then bent down. Riku quickly assisted Sora by pointing to the ground. "See? There's quite a gap over there," he said, "Maybe you should cover that with a carpet until you fix that."
Sora got up and scratched his neck, "Yeah, guess so…"
"You should tell Kairi about this. It could really help them lower their bills."
"That's true…" Sora said and bent down next to the door again.
As I made my way to the kitchen I headed straight to the fridge. I had returned to the hospital since I got a call about an emergency with one of my patients. But now when that was solved I was going to do something about my rumbling stomach that was screaming for food. I took out the milk carton and closed the door to the fridge. I stood there and read the insults that the magnets were forming. 'Wimp' and under it, 'Schizophrenia'. I sighed over how stupid and pathetic the hospital workers sometimes or always were. Every time they fought, they went straight to the fridge and write insults to each other. I grabbed a glass and filled it to the half and quickly drank it up. I returned the carton to the fridge and continued to stand there and stared at the magnets before my bored face cracked up in a mischievous smile. The 'wimp' was probably meant for Demyx and 'schizophrenia' was probably for Saïx. I collected all of the magnets and formed new words. When I was satisfied with my work I smiled and headed out from the emergency ward to Axel's apartment. As I was at the apartment block a strong wind almost made me drop the paper with the port code that Axel had written down to me. I immediately got a bad feeling, but chose to ignore it since I had felt a lot of that the whole week. I quickly pressed the four buttons of the port code and opened the door. Instead of the usual silence I heard a lot of talking from the floors above. I walked up the stairs and saw a huge crowd of people.
"Hey, Roxas!" I heard a voice say. I looked around and suddenly felt someone tugging my arm into the crowd. I get pulled through the whole crowd and ended up in front of Axel's apartment's door. I looked up and saw that the person that had been pulling me was Demyx.
"Dem?"
"T'zup?" He said and opened the door, "You're going to get ready for the party now, huh?"
"I guess so…" I answered and looked unsurely around. The whole floor was jam-packed with people. I got pushed inside by Demyx and he skipped directly to his room after he closed the door. I stood there at the door for a while, unsure of what I should do now. I wasn't directly at home, I had no spare clothes here. Suddenly as a saving person to save my ass, Demyx popped his head out from his room.
"Hey, Rox. Need some clothes to borrow?"
I nodded, "Sure, thanks."
I walked across the room and in to Demyx's room. It was messier and bluer than Axel's room. On his bed there was some clothes folded. Demyx pointed at them, "You can borrow those clothes, okay?" He headed for his clothes and started to look around for something he could wear. I grabbed the clothes and got to the toilet to change.
When I stepped out from the toilet, I saw Demyx and Axel talking about something in the middle of the living room. They stopped talking when they saw me and just waved at me. I wonder what they were talking about. As Axel walked up to me, he talked at the precise moment I was going to ask what they were talking about so I didn't have any chance to ask.
"You're ready?" He asked after he had talked a while.
"Sure," I said as I almost felt that I had to hurl right on the floor, "Sure…"
Axel smiled and grabbed my hand and dragged me to the door. How much I hated this and regretting this. And I still let it happen.
When Axel opened the door and Demyx pushed me out from the apartment I almost fell face down, but the room was so wall to wall that there was no floor to fall to. I bumped in to a person, he just gave a glare and then walked off. I gave Demyx a warning look, but he just looked at me and shrugged confused. I sighed and started to head to a random direction, but Axel stopped me by a pulling me back to him.
"Hey, where are you going?" he asked in my ear.
"I dunno, exploring," I answered back and pulled myself from him. He looked confusedly at me. "Is something wrong?" he asked.
I shrugged my shoulders and waved at him, "No, why?"
"You're acting really weird…" he answered and scratched his arm.
"What are you talking about?" I asked as an effort to try to make Axle drop the subject. But he just looked at me and opened his mouth to say something, but then he closed it and walked away.
"Shut up Demyx, I'm in a foul mood right now…"
"Oh come on, Rox!" Demyx said and put his free arm around me. He was holding his fourth beer in his other hand. I sighed, "How much are you going to drink Dem?"
He looked at me and blinked a couple of times, "I'm not sure, probably 'til something exciting happens or that I pass out." He bent his head backwards to get the last drops from his beer. I sighed once more. Being together with Demyx getting drunk wasn't really something fun to do.
"Hey, Dem…" I started to say after Demyx had opened his fifth beer.
"Mmyeah?" he asked before he did head-ups.
"What's so fun with going on parties and getting wasted?"
Demyx smiled, "Because it's fun!"
I sighed, "Demyx is that really the answer?"
He thought for a moment, "Yeah!"
"Demyx you're a retard…" I said. I was about to get up from my seat but then suddenly a woman crashed on the seat next to me. I looked to my right and saw someone I knew.
"What are you doin' here gay boi?" she asked. She was probably even more wasted than Demyx. She was also holding a half empty vodka bottle in her right hand.
"Oh, hi Larxene…" I said. I felt how something died inside of me. Just when I thought things couldn't get so much more worse, a drunk Larxene shows up next to me.
"Hey Lar-Lar!" Demyx cheered on her. He was the straight opposite to the excitement that I had towards her. She waved back to him in a way that she would never do if she was sober. This was just getting more and more annoying. People drinking and getting so wasted that they we're absolutely not the person that they usually are. It could be a little fun, but it was mostly just confusing.
"Oi, Rox, why aren't you hanging with Axel?" Larxene suddenly asked as she put her arm around me. It's strange this whole time before the party I've been thinking about me and Axel but then at the party it's all been about me in my thoughts. Until now that is.
"Well, I don't know where he wandered off and I'm not going to go out scouting for him," I said and looked away from her, "He's probably asleep under some couch or something…"
Larxene made some strange almost purring sound, but she stopped when Demyx snatched her vodka bottle.
"Dem, what the fudge are you doing?" she roared at him. She was now a little more than normal except for the word 'fudge'.
"I need this to bring forth magic to this partayeh!" Demyx said and drank directly from the bottle. And almost everything of what was left of it. He slammed the bottle down on the table in front of him when he had drunk it all.
"Uh, Demyx, is that a really smart thing to do--?"
"Hey! That's my drink, find your own!!" Larxene cut me up with her screaming. She got up from the couch but before she even made it to Demyx, he had fallen like a balloon to the floor. Larxene had lost her killing instinct and stared both confusedly and amazed at Demyx. "Whoa, I'm not even angry anymore…" she said and continued to stare at him on the floor, "Dude! That was awesome!" she said. She stretched her arm up in the air to celebrate and cheer on Demyx.
Demyx replied with some moaning sound and reached his arm half way up in the air and then his hand fell down on his stomach. He looked like he was about to puke. Larxene bent down a little to Demyx and held a finger in front of him. "How many?" she asked teasingly.
"One." Demyx replied after a couple of minutes. Larxene then sat down on his stomach. "You're to sober," she suddenly said and grabbed an un-opened beer, "You're really weak pinky-boy!"
I sighed over all this madness. Everything had gotten out of control long ago according to me. Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Axel?"
I turned around only to find my sudden hope shot down in an instant. There was a stranger who had his hand on my shoulder. I felt uncomfortable with that, so I brushed his hand off me.
"Hey, if you're looking for that Axel guy, I know where he is." He said.
I felt a small hope again flicker inside me, "Oh yeah?" I asked and tried to seem cool and not to sound too excited.
"Yeah, I can lead you to him if you wanna."
"Sure, whatever," I replied and followed him through the room. For almost every step I felt the hope inside me grow and grow. When we had crossed the room he opened the door in front of him he made a hand gesture for me to go inside first. I stepped carefully in the room, since it was dark. I heard Larxene screaming something about that shit was a modern vulgar word for feces. I then heard the door closing and saw that the unknown man flicked on the lights. The hope I felt before turned to panic. I couldn't do much against his push that made me fall on the bed. As I opened my eyes he was topping me.
"What the fuck are you doing?!" I yelled as I tried to kick him off.
"Just shut up and deal with it you gullible kid," he said and lowered himself down to me.
"No! Stop!" I tried to get him off me.
I kicked with my full strength and tried to shove him off. But no matter how much I tried he just wouldn't budge. All I could do now was to scream and hope for help to come. I knew that the risk of someone hearing me is low and that someone will step up and rescue me was even lower.
But like a miracle, the door opened with someone standing there and asked what was going on. The man above me froze and it took a minute for me to melt down in my brain of whose voice it was.
Oh shit.
Fucking of course is the savior someone you don't want to see when you're in this kind of state. Oh shit.
"What the fuck are you doing?!" he roared.
I shivered and closed my eyes since I didn't want to see anything. I felt how the man on top of me got off and was followed by a loud thump and some glass crashing. Closing your eyes doesn't shut the noise out, make you invisible or turn back time, but at least I didn't have to watch what was happening.
…At least I didn't have to watch, but doesn't mean that there aren't other people that's watching.
Every sound I heard made me curl up more and more and regretting coming here at all. I was really close to crying, but I was too scared to do it.
It felt like every swearword that Axel said was directed at me.
I just had to get out of here, I don't care how or when, I just have to get away.
"Roxas! Hey, wait!" I heard Axel call after me as I stumbled across the room, past the starring eyes and out through the door. I slammed the door and ran quickly down the stairs, the thought of using the elevator never hit me. It felt that I almost jumped over the stairs since I skipped like one or two steps all the time. I ran, and jumped, quickly down the stairs since if somebody was running after me he or she would get up to me. But then again, it felt like I was waiting for someone to catch up with me. I stopped running when I had run past the Swan pond and the café I usually were at, where Kairi's working. I finally stopped running when I was near the cinema, maybe fifty meters behind the café. On the opposite of the cinema, there's the famous polluted river that flows through the city. I leaned on one of the black bars that are there to prevent you from falling or jumping in the river. I sighed over how ashamed and stupid I felt, how much I wanted to turn back time so I could prevent all this from happening.
"Jeez, kid! Rumors and hearings moves faster than you do!" a familiar voice said behind me. I quickly turned around and saw a very familiar figure standing there.
"Larxene?" I asked as she walked up to me. "I'm even more amazed that you managed to get out there to here. I thought that if you were going to leave the party it would be for more liquid or that the police was going to force you in to a cell until you sober up."
"I'm not wasted, okay?" she said and held up a finger at me, "It's just a little wild act to get the crazy thing started at the party." She let out a sigh as she walked to my side and leaned on the same bar as me before. It reeked alcohol from Larxene, she probably lied about being sober. I waited for a sarcastic comment from her, but as more time passed I got more and more surprised that she didn't say anything, so I returned to lean on the bar and stare emptily out.
"So what exactly happened?"
I looked at Larxene, "Eh?"
She sighed, "Well, rumors spreads faster than you run but it's still only a rumor." She smiled mischievously, "I don't go by theories. I go by fact." She said and did the victory pose.
I sighed, "It was pretty much what it looked like…" I paused, "I'm not so sure if you're the right person to tell about this."
Larxene looked slightly offended, since she had an annoyed look on her face and that she was slightly pouted her under lip. "Then who do you want to tell?" she stopped pouting, "I know you want to talk about…"
I froze, "Oh, yeah? What makes you think that?"
"I know you more than what you know." Larxene said while she waved around with a finger in the air, "You see, because whenever someone's trying to hook up with someone, they go to me for advice and spying."
"Say WHAT?!"
Larxene smiled even more now, "Jupp, Axel asked me to hook you two guys up before. He gave me various of information about what he already knew about you and asked me to help fix you guys up and get more facts about you."
Okay… this is just getting more and more weird, what's next? That Larxene hired that guy to come and try to rape me so Axel can break in and have hero screen time? I'm so confused…
Larxene made a strange sound, I looked at her as she was leaning with her full weight to the metal bar. "Hey, Lar, are you drunk?" I asked.
She looked at me, "No, what makes you think that?"
"No reason…" I answered and looked down at the ground, smiling mentally. She was so wasted…
"Hey Rox, it's midnight soon." She said out of a blue.
"Yeah I know," I replied. For being drunk Larxene actually behaved quite well.
Then she suddenly broke up in a smile, "Hey Rox. If you don't have anywhere to stay you can crash on my couch."
I immediately looked up from the ground at her. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "What the fuck did you say?" I asked.
Larxene looked at me with lazy eyes and sighed. She opened her mouth to say something but she got cut off by the bells from the church that said that it now was midnight.
Dun-dun-dun What will happen next?