I own nothing...sorry it has been so long since I updated, I couldn't write the week before Breaking Dawn came out cause I was too excited, or a few days after cause I was reading it, then this weekend I was really busy. Anyways its updated now, I hope you enjoy. I'm going to bed now, goodnight :D...

'Jacob, come on tell me!' I begged, exasperated.

'Bells I can't. Alpha rules.' Jacob explained.

'Stupid Alpha.' I mumbled, and heard a slight chuckle from the kitchen, no doubt Paul could hear me. 'Fine I'll just ask Alice.'

Sam had ordered the pack not to tell me his plans about the was with the Volturi, so of course that made me even more desperate to know. I pulled out my cellphone and dialed Alice, but her phone rang out. So did Carlisle's, Esme's, Jasper's, I even tried Rosalie's and each one rang out. I only had Emmett left, I took a deep breath and tried to work up the courage. When Jacob thought I wasn't going to call anytime soon he went to get some food. As soon as he left the room I closed my eyes and pressed the call button.

'Hello?'

'Emmett, hey...I uh, I...'

'Bella? Did you need to speak to Alice? She's just gone hunting, they all did 'cept for me and Rosalie. They'll be home soon.' Emmett said hurriedly.

I took another deep breath and tried not to let my emotions get the better of me. 'Actually Emmett, I need to talk to you too.'

'Uh, yes Bella?' Emmett's voice was full of worry.

I felt tears stinging my eyes and I tried to blink them back. 'I don't know where to start, so I'll just come out and say it. It's about Edward. I just, I need to know...that there was nothing that could have saved him and I..I want to know what happened. No one else knows like you.'

'Bella I don't know what to say.' there was a pause and the Emmett continued with a sigh, 'Maybe there was something that could have saved him, maybe not. It was a split decision, Alice didn't see...'

'What happened Emmett?' I pressed.

'You really want to know? Bella it gives me nightmares, and I don't even sleep.' Emmett said, the tone of his voice would have been enough to haunt me, it was so sad, broken.

'I think it's the only way I'll truly understand, or at least believe it. It still feels like your all going to turn around and tell me that all of this is some sort of sick joke.' I said quietly.

'It's not a joke Bella, I wish it were...OK so, Alice had a vision of us running into Demetri and Felix,' He growled the last to names, 'nothing happened but Carlisle suggested it would be better if we outnumbered them. But every time one of the others made a decision to go Alice would have a vision with war as the outcome. So we decided it would be better if just Edwardand I went.' Emmett's voice broke on Edwards name, 'Felix taunted Edward, saying how if we couldn't change you we should kill you, and we both knew it would never happen. Felix told Edward he would kill you for him and I guess he was thinking things too 'cause Edwards just lost it and attacked him. I've never, ever seen Edward loose his cool like that Bella. I could see Demetri was about to attack him as well so I took him on, he managed to rip of my arm and the pain was too much. I screamed but I didn't give up, I kept fighting him, but then I smelt the smoke and I knew it was too late...Do you want me to continue?'

I nodded my head, because I didn't trust my voice, but then I realised he could see me and managed to squeak out a 'Yes.'

'Felix had Edwards head in his hands, and was tossing it back and forth like a ball, he told me to warn the others. Then he threw Edwards head into the fire and ran off...'

Sobs wracked my body at the sound of Emmett's pain stricken voice. Sometime during all this Jacob came back and wrapped his arms around me. I lay in Jacob's arms crying while Emmett apologised time and time again for not protecting Edward better. I stayed like this until I cried myself to sleep.

I had nightmares that night. I was in a clearing standing next to Emmett, Felix and Demetri were standing across from us, their blood red eyes more menacing than anything I had ever seen. My dream jumped and suddenly Felix and I were fighting, he tackled me, and then I was burning. Everything was hot, too hot. All too hot.