A/N: Sorry for delay... life is grabbing me by the throat and throttling it. I felt bad for lack of an update so this is the first half... to Blackout. :)

Blackout [Nina Frequency 2.0]: Part I

[Nina And Lily's Crib | Apartment 409]

Like her career as a choreographer, living together with Lily was another unlikely dream that landed on Nina's lap. Besides their passionate relationship, that blessing was a constant reminder of what was important to her and what really mattered in life. When Nina struggled with her mind that year ago it was just her against all odds, something that she knew she couldn't win. But now? Every time she'd have a bad thought or a doubting notion all she needed was take a gander at their bedroom with a smile and a renewed strength.

The bedroom was like a sight from a bad sitcom, split down the middle with a fine imaginary line like Yin and Yang. Like Black and White. On Nina's side… everything was so neat and orderly. On Lily's side… her belongings such as lingerie and reading articles laid around out of place (and out of mind). They made the compromise of a tattered systematic room since the beginning and it had been working just fine. Black… white.

Compromise… a word that Nina was learning to detest. Lily will never have to compromise for me again.

Neat Freak… a description of Nina that was another reminder of little Miss Goodie Two Shoes.

Change is only superficial.

A ballet dance… is superficial.

Nina pulled her top off and pants while standing in front of the dressing mirror, stripping down to the bare essentials in a smooth strip. Snow white lingerie couldn't exactly blend into her pale skin but it was close, her fragile porcelain beauty was still in great effect after another year. She looked at this new grown up Nina with eyes that only judged harshly. How strong is this Nina? … What are you without someone as strong as Lily supporting you?

"Damn Nina… tempting me already and it's only the beginning of the night huh?"

Before a reply could be had Nina felt arms wrap around her bare stomach, running across her silky skin, expert lips tickling her bony shoulders. Those peppered soft kisses up to her neck made her shiver in the cutest way still after all this time. Lily was salivating at the sight of a lingerie clad Nina in front of her. Nina was feeling the results of the lust.

"You're in white…" Nina whispers weakly as she felt like melting, looking at her girlfriend behind her through the reflection. Lily could make any dress look like money. A strapless white Versace number was no exception.

"Yeah I figured since Jade asked for a Blackout… I'd be in white just to throw off the trend." Lily kissed Nina's head, smelling her sweet vanilla scent with an airy breath. The truth kept pushing into her like Lily's body was. Nina felt happy. Lily was back to her snug self and it was a nice sight. The bitterness was there… but it was coaxed with that vintage Lily-fied carefree attitude.

"You two are going to be at each other's throats the whole production aren't you?" Nina began stroking Lily's smooth arms, cuddling against her.

"Heh, it might be fun." Lily turned her head towards Nina's reflection, hugging her tight across her waist. "The sisters are supposed to be rivals anyway right?"

"… As long as you two don't start fighting on stage… sure." Nina pouted her lips and Lily rewarded her with a lover's peck. The White Swan of the two had her eyes closed while Lily's beautiful orbs only had a curious look.

"You're getting bags under your eyes Nina…" Lily examined closely the face that won her heart. "You're not getting enough sleep."

Nina rolled her lips in a nervous quip, nibbling on them before speaking. "The show… Swans won't let me sleep."

"Hey, didn't we agree that the show is never bigger than your well being?" Lily pressed tighter against her, almost holding her up straight. "Do I have to keep an eye on you 24/7 now to keep you straightened out?"

Nina didn't say a word, peaking at the mirror where the ugly side of truth never seemed to escape it. A mirror doesn't lie. If it weren't for a mirror… her madness would have never manifested itself. She watched as Lily held her so protectively and lovingly. Yet in her mind she kept thinking the same thing. Without this woman… Nina was nothing. Even now… Lily was at her back… no she… was her back. Her backbone. All the support she had.

You can't live without her… but she can live without you…

Nina suddenly broke off from Lily in a firm step foward, looking down to the ground in a combination of shame and regret. Lily could only let out a surprising little shrug, wondering why her caring grasp was broken.

"Did… I do something wrong? You okay?"

You're never wrong.

"I… no…" Nina turned up with that smile that made Lily soften and sweeten up. "I just think we better get… to the party. We don't want to be late right?"

Lily looked at her curiously, trying to peal away at the Nina who always seemed to be hiding something… just like Old Lily. "Nina… you wanting to go party with the girls? Heh, you're kidding right?" She smiled, stroking her hair. "Stop being so cute with me you adorable babe."

"I mean… I'm the previous Swan Queen… I run the show… I have to set an example…"

"Nina…" Lily huffed. "They're all going to be so drunk even if Barack Obama walks in they won't give a shit."

Nina laughed lightly in reply, nodding as she gave into the fallacy of excuses. She pulled Lily's cheek into her lips for a kiss. "Look, let's just have fun… tonight without any distractions for once. The fun you're used to having okay?"

Used to?

"… Oi, not this again Nina." Lily rolled her eyes. "What's up with you? Did I ever say I missed the good ole days or something? Bar hopping? Clubbing? I'm fine."

"I can tell you do." Nina whispered honestly, looking at her with only sympathetic eyes. "I remember when we first started dating you were going to teach me the ropes of night clubbing. You were going to teach me how to just let go inside a place where no one judges you like a ballet stage."

**We can learn from one another…**

"Yeah, we were supposed to go have some night fun more often huh?" Lily nuzzled her very cutely across Nina's nose. "I remember that first club session with you…"

"Yes… yes it was a great time… for the most part." Nina remembered. "I enjoyed it… when it was enjoyable."

Nina could only picture the night of…

"So I guess we got a little sidetracked with the ballet thing." Lily gave a thought of the good ole days. The idea of having fun with Nina and letting loose… was something like a pipe dream. Lily enjoyed the primal dancing. She enjoyed the party atmosphere. Was she going to get plastered like she used to?

For Nina's healing sake… Lily never pushed it. But now with the changes…

"I'm going to make good on that promise." Nina came back into Lily's grasp, the darker of the two smirking as she had a beautiful ballerina's half naked body all up on her. "You've given up everything for me. An entire lifestyle… all that free fun that I know makes you who you are. Tonight things change."

"Nina it wasn't all fun and games. I did all that stuff because I wanted a hook up. Now that I have the best girl in the world it makes it a moot point don't you think?"

"I know… but… I know you miss a lot of things about it and I'm going to be there right next to you enjoying it... together."

"Wow… you make it sound like we're going on a quest for debauchery." Lily giggled at this Nina, thinking how cute it was for her to want this so bad.

"I don't want you to compromise who you are to be with me." Nina breathed deeply. "I know what it's like to have expectations… unfair expectations on you. The world always forcing you and changing you to what it wants you to be." She began to run her fingers down Lily's shoulder blades… where her tattoos were. "We can be who we are… but we can also push to be who we want to be right?"

"Right…" Lily whispers, feeling so hot for her right now.

"I want to be the woman of your dreams…. Dancing next to you on a club dance floor… with the music loud… so close we're going to feel like we're in ecstasy." Nina lips were almost touching Lily's. "Just like you became the woman of my dreams… dancing next to me… on the ballet stage."

"You're already the-"

Nina teasingly pressed their lips together as she didn't want to hear anything to deter her thoughts. Lily was quite a bit shocked at the feelings Nina was letting out. She was clearly reminded about all the talks they had about Nina wanting to grow up and that she still had a long way to go. Lily remembered the girl at the club the first time. That tentative little angel playing with all those demons plainly unprepared. Now? Nina… was much stronger. Was Nina ready to finally come out and play?

"Anything you want Nina… I'm really flattered you'd want to do this just for me." Lily kissed her chin and neck, making Nina's heart pump faster. "Just remember this is about you too. You always wanted to… be wild and free."

"Well no more waiting and no more excuses…" Nina nodded in agreement. "I'm going to be free tonight. No more ballet. No more thinking about work. Just you and our fun. We both deserve a break."

"God… you sexy little swan…" Lily began letting her hands travel more freely around Nina's naked skin, eliciting moans that made Lily more excited. "Tell me why I shouldn't throw you on the bed… and fuck you right now."

"… Because that's for later tonight… until the sun rises." Nina blushed cutely, turning away, pushing gently off of Lily. The teasing young Sayers walked off just as excited as Lily was, stepping into the bathroom. Maybe this Nina was ready… for a night like this. For Lily and especially Nina the psychosis and dreams… felt so far away.

Any thoughts of her past were pushed out. Nina… demanded Lily's complete attention just like the ballerina on stage did.

- B – B – B –

[ The Club ]

When Nina walked out of the bathroom ready to go it might as well have been Opening Night. Lily was shocked and in awe seeing Nina spruced up in the blackness that symbolized her downfall and rise all that time ago. She wore her old Black Swan outfit. The one that used to frighten her, not the newer ones she used in the Swans production the last year. It was the exact same look that made her what she was today.

For Lily it was kind of freaky but…

"You really conquered that fear didn't you?" Lily felt strange being casually dressed, sitting next to the Swan Queen herself.

"I hope I did." Nina turned, eyes glittering blood red, fake black tendrils pulling at the skin. "… The Black Swan has done a lot for me. I'm happy… this is a costume party."

I can look the part. Just like on a stage. Something I'm familiar with…

"Heh… I do look kind of like a White Swan… you know me. So innocent and cute…" Lily touched Nina's pale skin, playfully running up her arm, and to her chin. Nina could only shiver, staring at the most beautiful creature she could ever ask to love.

"Kiss me…" Nina begs while the other takes it like a command.

"Why yes… your dark majesty…" Lily playfully conceded to the command, pulling them into a lip lock that was more reminiscent of their passionate love making kisses. Mouths opened slightly and tongues interlock in a warm succulent make out session.

Their lovey dovey insides were telling them tonight was going to be… great.

The door to their cab opens and the two Swans walked into the perfect storm. Pedestrians and fans alike were crowded along the streets, as the hotel had been closed down for the party at hand. There was a barricade with security across, a representative for the hotel taking Nina and Lily in towards the building.

NINA! LILY! The girls hear voices shout from the sides as they were ushered in. Lily stopped, smiling for cameras and holding Nina next to her, waving. Being the sweethearts they were, Lily steps towards the barricade and began greeting fans that seemed to be waiting for these two to show up. Nina followed along… noticing everyone was letting their Black Swan out. She was reminded of the impact of what Swans was. Nina wasn't so afraid of… the image anymore.

Everyone in black touched her. Everyone was Odile's reflection for tonight... just like she was.

"Nina! Lily! Come on!" Madeline's voice forced the two to turn, security pushing them towards the entrance. Gailana and Madeline were also living out their 'dreams'. The two finally got to dawn a variation of a Black Swan costume. Pretending to be the leads for once. In fact all the ballerinas were loving it… letting their versions of Odile come to life.

"How do I look as Odile?" Gailana strutted her stuff in high heels.

"You two look great." Nina perked up, smiling at friends dressed like her. She clapped in amusement.

"Why thank you boss…" Maddie bowed her head.

"Hey! You're not even dressed up Lily!" Gailana crossed her arms in disappointment.

"… I'm already the Swan Queen… don't need to rub it in." Lily countered with a flick of her hair. The girls just blew off some wind… knowing exactly why Lily wasn't playing along.

"Well at least you're out again. The club scene misses you Lily… you're like the life of the party."

"Hah… we'll see how much it 'missed' me."

"Oh… this is my song… Yeah! Uh huh… you know what it is…" Madeline just began dancing hearing the music from inside the club.

"Black and White Swan, Black and White Swan, Black and White Swan, Black and White Swan." Gailana finished her Swan Lake remix as they bumped butts. "I love Wiz K! Come on let's go in! It sounds so awesome in there already even from out here!"

Gailana, Madeline and the group of ballerinas rushed on in, clear reminders that they were still young women with a need to let loose. Lily and Nina were ready for it as well… or so they hoped.

"Heh, well let's see how well a group of ballerinas can party shall we?" Lily held Nina's hand, making their way towards the marquee sign glowing under Broadway lights. The words slowed them down to say the least.

CONGRATULATIONS JADE! THE NEWEST SWAN QUEEN!

Nina and Lily saw the lit up marquee like a blaze, both reading it silently with a reflective pause that quieted Time Square itself it seemed. The two had almost forgot who this party was for. Nina was hoping Lily was over this past completely. Deep down she wondered if their relationship could ever get this tumultuous. She was sure… Jade and Lily never thought theirs would be like this…

Nina would never compliment herself often but she knew one fact. Her ability to watch someone and learn quickly was uncanny. Watching any ballet dance she could break it down like it was child's play. With Jade like Lily before… she was going to watch closely. She was going to watch and learn from the newest Swan. This time she was a year older and a year wiser…

Into the lounge turned into now the most wicked club New York City had to offer they entered. The bouncer instantly recognized the two and let them in. That was the first obstacle. The next one was much more mouthy as many executives, male ballerinas, and 'big money' players greeted them.

"Yes… yes… I see" Nina rolled her eyes towards Lily as the last thing she wanted to do was to talk 'business'. Lily laughed quietly inside as she gladly aided the proceedings, not wanting to waste this opportunity to go all out with her love. She promptly pulled Nina away by the wrist, a graceful ballet lead, to the chagrin of the business peers who were left in mid speech.

"Sorry folks… but she's mine tonight." Lily waved at them, pushing towards all the commotion in the center of the club. "Dang… look at this place Nina."

"This is amazing." Nina said it like it was, both the girls looking at a club that stood the theme of Swan Lake with a purpose. It was like a castle from a fairy tale. It was like a dark lair from a nightmare. It was like… a pond of tears glowing as the pool on the outside was decorated with Swan ornaments.

Whoever organized this… went all out.

Suddenly the club music stopped, Nina and Lily blinking as the DJ glanced over with someone's point.

"Holy shit… the Swan Queens have arrived…" The girl on the mic on stage perked with glee.

Nina and Lily saw center stage as everyone in the room turned to look at them, slowly but surely claps being echoed across the entire space. Of course on stage was the one this was all for. A girl that was from head to toe… dressed like Odile. She was too much like Odile… so perfect and dead on even Nina felt the reality that stood on stage. That costume on Jade wasn't like the others in the room pretending to be the Black Swan.

The Black Swan was here…

"Now the party really starts ladies and gentlemen." Jade smiled like the devilish Black Swan, pointing to Nina and Lily. "Sorry to stop the music but the two girls that led this amazing show are here! Everyone show them our appreciation! Without them? Swans wouldn't even exist!"

The rowdy ballerina club crowd erupted as Lily just accepted the bows graciously, Nina not really reacting at all.

"What can I say about Nina and Lily that hasn't been said by horny young men everywhere?" Jade sat on the stage all calmly as she wiggled her feet. "They're like Peanut Butter and Jelly! French Fries and Ketchup! Perfect together right?" The ballet peers only hollered on as the drunken level of the room was already rising.

"… Well I am honored… to be able to continue the tradition of perfection that Nina laid out for us. I look forward to working with Lily… the sexiest ballerina to ever walk on stage. So tonight this isn't my party. Tonight we celebrate everything these two have done for us! Raise your drinks!"

All drinks were raised… a familiar sight for Nina. She might as well have been next to Thomas and on a staircase.

"To Nina and Lily! The best damn ballerinas in the entire world!" Jade led the toast to an enthusiastic roar, everyone taking a huge gulp of their over priced alcohol. "Okay now… that we've got the proper shit out of the way. I'd like to introduce you all to DJ Megatron…"

[DJ Turntables]: B-b-b-ring it!

"Tonight we're turning this place into a dubstep dome. Tonight… we're all in Odile's lair. Tonight… we're all Swan Queens… Tonight… we're all letting the Black Swan come out to play… right?"

Nina felt the crowd rumbling, antsy and ready to start an explosion of primal pleasure. Lily on the other hand was only staring at the object that was once her desires. That charismatic girl that just toasted her… a false praise she thought as she just tightened her grip on Nina's hand.

"Only the filthiest tracks are playing. So damn filthy that the only thing filthier tonight is what we're going to do to those we bring home with us alright?" Jade commanded as she pointed at the DJ… who suddenly pulled out a dark bird's mask and placed it on his head. "Fucking start the music. If anyone needs me my ass is going to be dancing inside the subwoofer!"

**The rumble in the room began… an ambient darkness in the music releasing to the room.**

[Music:] I had a dream last night. About a girl who turned into a swan… (A swan.) But her prince falls for the wrong girl. (Wrong girl.) And she…

She…

Kills herself.

Kills herself.

Kills… herself.

KILLS HERSELF!

The dubstep beat based on Swan Lake blasted in a groove as the bass began to wobble and overwhelm, making the entire room of Black Swans groove against one another. Every low-end screech sounded like a growl… a monster trying to escape. Jade leapt off stage and made a b-line towards Nina and Lily… a waiter nearby being snatched of his glasses of champagne.

"Welcome to our party!" Jade yelled into their ears, handing Nina and Lily their drinks… both girls tentatively taking it. She laughed at Lily, the only girl adorned in white and not dressed up like Odile. "Always breaking the rules Lily…"

"You know me!" Lily said a bit stoic, holding onto Nina tightly while Jade only smirked amusingly at the connection.

"Don't I?" Jade shot back with a wink.

"This party is amazing!" Nina yelled out at her replacement, snuggling close to Lily in reaction.

"We're only getting started my two favorite Swans!" She suddenly embraced them both tightly like good friends, leading both swans to blink dumbly. "Let it all hang out tonight because after tonight! We work work work! Right Nina?"

"R-right…" Nina nodded… feeling like she was speaking to a mirror as her eyes connected with Lily. Lily couldn't buy a word of it, slowly pushing out of the friendly embrace… it wasn't as comfortable as Lily made it seem.

"God!" Jade looked at them both so appreciatively. "I owe you both everything for making my dream come true! Come on! Follow me! I've got a VIP spot for us on the top floor! We can watch the madness and then join it later…"

Madness?

"Meet me up there you two when you can!"

Nina and Lily watched as Jade began to prance her sexily way towards the upstairs area, guys and girls staring at the vivacious vixen as she walked up the flight of stairs. Nina and Lily began to follow her carefully. Lily especially, moving up in a protective yet provocative strut of her own. Nina didn't know what she was dealing with. Lily knew it all too well…

Nina could notice the excitement in Lily though now. Her body already swaying to the music she missed so much. Nina let out a breath as she held onto Lily from her waist, kissing her neck caringly. It was time to let Lily free… and go along with the ride.

"Are you ready for this?" Lily said into Nina's ear as she stared the Black Swan down behind.

"… It's going to be different this time." Nina whispers to herself, only to speak louder into Lily's ear now. "I'm here for you… let's go…. Crazy…"

Crazy…

A/N: Crazy it will get...