It took me about a week to start to see the place as home, after having been taking the bedroom as my only shelter for six months. During that time, I would just sit on the floor in the middle of one of the rooms and stare at the walls, figuring them out perfectly. There was still one area that was blocked off, but I didn't bother asking what was back there.

Like everything else, I'd find that out in time, right?

October 1 – Another new beginning?

That blocked-off room is starting to worry me. I've yet to see anyone go in there, and I'm pretty sure it's empty. Why in the world we'd have a mystery room is beyond me.

Yes, this is me writing in you, Serenity. Yes, I finally got you back. Unlike Signel, it doesn't look like people rampaged through you, and for that, I'm thankful. Not like I made death threats in here, though. Everything I wrote in here was clean enough.

So, in the five months since I last had you, life has changed. A lot. You got taken away because Hiashi thought you'd make a great bargaining piece. To get you back, all I had to do was fulfill one simple goal: get him what he desired. Which happened to be a worthy heir, because his daughters weren't good enough. And that's exactly what I've gone and done.

I honestly can't tell that I'm pregnant. Really. I wouldn't have probably noticed, either, until everyone did, but that's what makes having a husband whose special ability is to see chakra networks, and babies disrupt those. It sounds weird, but I guess it's the truth.

I probably should explain the beginning of this entry, shouldn't I? Well, when Neji found out (among other things, but I don't know what those are), he made it clear we were going to move into our new house as soon as possible. He had been working on that thing for a couple months, and when he got inspired, he finished it quickly, and built a wall to separate us completely. I like not having Hanabi raiding my closet. That was not fun.

Well, that's pretty much a recap of the last while. As for right now, I'm just chilling out. Neji thinks I'm learning how to cook, but I'm obviously not doing that. I refuse to try to learn, because I know I'm just going to fail and potentially burn down the nice kitchen. I really don't want to do that, but here he comes. I should make myself look busy.

October 30 – Rumors

I am not looking forward to ever going outside again. No, I don't look horrible...yet. It's something else. War.

It's going around that some strange people were wandering outside of Suna, which isn't all that far and, face it, they probably get raided a lot more than we do. Is it bad that they were there? Not really, but I guess some convoy headed our way got slaughtered, and that's where the bad stuff starts. We don't have the resources to fight a full-on war. We don't need it.

What's worse is if we do get pulled in, then Neji will have to go, because he's one of the strongest ninja we have. That worries me. He's got to stay here with me, not be out there and die and me have to face the future all on my own.

I'm most scared, though, of these people infiltrating our village. If I face one of them, I wouldn't be able to protect myself, and I don't think our leaders will set a guard on me. I'm technically just a civilian now, because I can't go into battle, can't partake in missions, and definitely can't go a week without eating like I used to.

In other, equally-sad news, Hiashi is losing his mind. Hanabi caught him trying to slice open his leg yesterday, and that spells trouble. He's falling down that path that Tsunade went down, and that was very ugly. We're all positive he'll end up getting hurt before there's anyone he'd like to see replace him. Worse comes to worse, Hinata will just have to take that job.

I bet she'd like it, anyway. She's power-hungry and just waiting for someone to slip up and give her the role of leader of this family . No one wants her there, though, so we need to tread carefully.

November 18 – Bad News

Hinata's gone. She snuck out last night. She convinced Hanabi to watch their dad while she "went out" to hang with friends, and was last seen sneaking out of the gates to town. That spells trouble for the rest of us, especially since he doesn't remember who she was.

In fact, he thinks that he's younger than all of us, even though he's clearly not. His mind is so muddled, he's confusing me and Neji with people he once knew, and we're definitely not who they are. I don't even know who they are.

I'm thinking that this war that's looming is a lot more likely than not. That's where Hinata went, I bet, to go find these people and stop them. I just wish she would have thought about the people she was leaving behind before she went. Now we've not only got this baby to deal with, but there's also Hiashi. He's a much different person, now that he doesn't remember that he hates me.

One last note: I'm freaking glad that Hanabi did those closet raids. Without all those clothes she bought me, I don't know what I'd be doing right now. I don't even care that they're pink. They fit and that's that. I'll have to properly thank her the next time I see her, which should be later, when she comes to teach me how to cook. Neji still isn't giving up on that.