A/N: I'm still really sorry that these chapters aren't coming out as quick as I would like. It makes me jealous when I read AMAZING 50 chapter stories that were completed in 2 months…and its taking me OVER 2 months xD ANYWAYS, um, I really hope this chapter turns out good, and it's worth the wait. :P

Disclaimer: Big Time Moms was… ADJDSLKFJ AWESOME!

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Chapter 9: One Last Shot

KAITE POV

I had felt my phone vibrating in my pocket, my mom's ringtone emitting into the air. But whatever. I don't feel like talking to her right now.

I've been out since early this morning, walking, thinking,… crying. And I don't want my mother to get worried if she hears the strain in my voice.

What had I done with James? I mean, obviously we had sex, but besides that. He killed my brother. Aren't I supposed to hate him? Want nothing to do with him?… Then why do I still love him? What he did was so wrong. They were friends. How could James do something like that?

Maybe it's all my fault.

I mean he did say that when he told Kendall that he loves me, he flipped out. He didn't want us together. So James killed him. Just stabbed him and walked away like everything was peachy. Well its not!

But of course he says that he regrets it. Of course he does! Like I believe him. He's just mad at me! Everyone is mad at me! And when Carlos and Logan find out… What's going to happen? What about when my mom finds out? What will happen then? What are we going to do with Kendall?

Can't things be simpler?

I found myself back in front of the famous Palm Woods. The building in which lay my brother, dead and decaying. How will I ever live without my big brother? He was always there for me, telling me right from wrong, singing to me at night, and trying to comfort me when I was younger and I always hoped that our dad would come back.

Our dad left when I was three years old, and Kendall was five. It was shortly after the day that Kendall could have lost his life in the car accident with… with James, and mom. Dad went crazy. He couldn't stand seeing his little boy hurt, and helpless. That day, dad and I went shopping for mothers day, but when dad got the call from mom… he fell apart. It broke my heart, and till this day I will always remember the look of hurt on his face.

A few months later he just… left. Without any warning, or goodbye, he packed his things and left. Mom never understood why he did that. They were on good standings. I cried to Kendall every night that I wanted our father to come back, and tuck me in at night… but he never did.

That's when Kendall started to sing to me. His words let my troubles and tears just melt away.

I spoke to my dad occasionally throughout the years. He's called on birthdays, holidays, things like that. But he's only spoken to me. Not Kendall, or my mom. I still had his number too. I'm sure he hasn't changed it in the last six months.

I began to walk upstairs to our apartment, dreading to see my mother. I knew I would be in trouble because I didn't answer the phone, and nobody had any idea were I was.

The door was open, which was odd, but what I saw couldn't stop the immediate tears from falling.

The supply closet door was open, the kitchen appliances smashed on the floor, Carlos doubled over in emotional pain; screams and sobs releasing from his lungs… And Logan latched to James' waist.

They knew.

My mom knew.

Everyone knew.

But no one knew who did it.

Carlos caught sight of me walking into the apartment, dropping my jacket, and bag to the floor.

"Katie!" He shouted. He got up quick and ran over to me pulling me in a bone crushing hug.

I knew I had to act as if I knew nothing… just for Carlos and Logan's sake.

"What… what happened here?" I said, my own voice cracking.

Carlos continued to cry into my neck, as I looked around. Logan didn't even attempt to lift his from James' bare chest.

James gave me an understanding look, but I quickly looked back at Carlos, and stroked soft circles on his back.

"Carlos…what?" I said again.

"It's…it's Ke-" He choked on the sobs in his throat, not being able to finish his sentence.

I let my tears fall now. I knew I couldn't hold them back anymore. And what hurt even more was that I had no idea where my mom was.

All of a sudden I was ripped from my thoughts when I heard Logan scream.

"Kendall!… Fuck!" Logan shouted. More screams tore through his body. It was the hardest thing I ever had to see… beside my dead big brother. Logan never shows extreme amounts of emotion. His naturally sarcastic self is now gone. His arms let go of James and he gently slid to the floor.

"NO!" Logan screamed again. I gently let go of Carlos to go by Logan.

"Logie…Where is Kendall? What happened?" I asked trying to sound as oblivious as possible.

"He's…he's in the- the closet…He's gone!" He said quickly, not even looking me in the eye.

I got up from the floor and walked over to James. We exchanged glances, before I looked around at our somewhat trashed apartment.

"Wait…where's mom?" I asked.

"She's gone Katie…She packed up and left." James said, placing a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

"What! You mean she knows? I whispered the last part to James, knowing that it would be weird if I wasn't still crying, when Logan and Carlos were balling their eyes out together on the floor. Since I had walked over to James, Carlos and Logan went over to each other on the floor, and were crying together.

"You…you mean she's not coming back?" I asked again.

"Yes Katie. She just…left us." James said.

"…Watch Carlos and Logan. I'm uh, I'm gonna go shower, or whatever." Well that took me by surprise. How could my mom just leave like that? Didn't she think of me? First my dad… now my mom? She left. Without a word spoken. Not a sorry given. But why? Why did she leave? Obviously she saw Kendall, but what are we supposed to do with him now? It's not like we could just plan some sort of funeral without our parents consent.

But…what parents? Technically aren't I an orphan now?

Instead of going to the bathroom, I found myself in my moms room. I took a look around, the empty closet, the open drawers, the bed sheets strewn across the room. What had happened? How much had she freaked out? What had I missed on my walk? Everything was fine last night when my mom came home… everything except for the absence of my big brother.

I fell to the floor, and screamed. Not a terrified scream, but a slow, agonizing scream that erupted from the deepest depths of my body, gurgling out in a long drawn moan.

JAMES POV

"James…" Carlos whimpered.

"Yeah buddy… I'm here." I walked over to where Carlos and Logan were crouched down on the living room floor.

"What's going to happen, James?" Logan asked. "…I'm scared…"

"I don't know guys, I don't know… But what I do know is that we're going to stick together. We'll help each other get through this. I know we'll make it through this…I hope." I tried my best to reassure them, but what was I supposed to say? How would they even react when they found out that it's all my fault.

"But what about Mrs. Knight? We have no- no- no… guardian now." Carlos couldn't form sentences between his sobs. He still leaned into Logan's chest, letting whatever tears he had left cascade down his face.

"Look… I-" I stopped talking, and looked at Mrs. Knights' old room. A scream could be heard from behind the door. A deep, painful scream.

Katie.

I never knew how much this hurt her. She's tried to tell me, but I refuse to listen. I know it hurts her… but to this extent?

What have I done…?

I keep asking myself the same question over and over again. And yet I still can't seem to find the answer. I killed someone. Was it even necessary? What had even ran through my mind at the time?

Want.

Need.

Passion.

Anger.

The emotions just built up, and finally broke my innocent…well somewhat innocent soul.

"Was that Katie?" Logan asked in a worried tone. Classic Logan. Always worried for no reason. But of course now there finally is a reason…

I heard Carlos cry harder as soon as Logan mentioned Katie's name. It must have finally hit him that Katie's one and only big brother just died.

The three of us got up slowly and walked over to the bedroom door. It sounded like she had begun talking to someone. But who? Nobody else was in the room.

"Kendall…he's…he's…dead!"

"Who is she talking to?" Carlos questioned.

I shrugged.

"Please you have to come!….No…She left…. Yes! She just packed up and left us to deal with all this crap!…No! I will not calm down! Don't you understand? You have to come back please… I need you. This is your one last shot to be in my life! I need you! Please…"

We each gave each other a confused glance. It sounded like she was talking to someone on the phone. But who would she be telling?

"…if not for me… then do it for Kendall…"

Both Logan and Carlos let a cry escape their lips at the same moment. How much damage have I done?

"…Oh my god! Thank you so much!… I- I-… I love you dad… bye."

Mr. Knight's coming back…?

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A/N: Oh hai there! Yeah… Mr. knight shall make an appearance! He's actually gonna be like a main character after the next chapter!

OH AND OMFG, HAVE YOU HEARD Blow Your Speakers? It's a BTR song, and it was leaked, from their second album, BUT YO, that song it the shit.

Okay, a review would be EVER SO LOVELY :P