I am having a great time writing this story right now, its all I could think about today so after I got ready for work I sat down and wrote another chapter. :D Enjoy. I hope you're not bothered by the short chapters lol they will be frequent though...and possibly larger in the future.

EPOV

I was furious with my self. I had done what I vowed I would not do. I had lured Bella swan to within my reach with the intentions of killing her.

She had followed me to the clearing like I knew she would. She was across the field frozen to the ground, clearly afraid. She looked at me like I was a monster, an alien. That hurt me. How I longed for someone to see past my outward appearance, past the vampire. The wind blew her scent across the field and it hit me like a freight train. I started walking towards her suddenly following my instincts, but I was surprised when I had an abrupt urge to fight them.

The sunlight reflected off of my exposed skin and sent thousands of scattered rainbows across the ground. Bella dropped to her knees and I could hear her heart beating frantically. She wasn't breathing.

For an instant I felt for her but I shook it out of my head. Why should I care? I was going to drain the life from her anyways. I forgot about keeping a human pace and in a flash I was standing in front of her. My throat burned with thirst, the flames were growing to an unbearable heat. I bent down and put my hands on either side of her head. She looked so fragile. Her beautiful eyes bore into my own.

Something inside of me ached. It told me not to do what I was about to do. I didn't listen. I brushed the hair off her neck and leaned closer. It smelled so good. I was about to latch on, I was about to sink my teeth in and end the torture in my throat but something stopped me. A single tear dragged down her neck in front my eyes. I watched it fall. The burning in my throat seized momentarily.

My mind was spinning I ached to know what she was thinking but I also felt an entirely new ache. I shuddered. I couldn't possibly feel that way about her. It wasn't right. It could never work.

I felt absolutely sick with myself. A frustrated growl tore out of my chest and I carefully released her from my hands. Her hands flew to her neck and her eyes widened. I ran to the opposite side of the field and turned the other way. I heard her clambering through the bushes, her heart beat racing, her breathing erratic as she ran away from me. I wanted to be human so bad. If I was human I would have been able to hold her hand without worrying I might break it. I would be able to kiss her, to hold her without wanting to kill her. I might even be able to love her, and have her love me. But I was a vampire. I was a killer. If I were able to cry, I would have been.

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