Here we are, standing behing the curtain at Nationals, waiting to sing the song I wrote for her. I need to talk to her. I start walking her way and she meets me halfway.

"You wrote an amazing song, Finn. I didn't know you had it in you," she said. I wasn't gonna get sidetracked, though.

"Who cares about the song? What I dont understand is all you've ever wanted is for us to be together and I'm basically standing here begging for you and suddenly you're not interested," Hell yeah, I rehearsed this.

"I am interested!" She says. Wait, what? Then why didn't she let me kiss her? "More than interested. But this is my dream! Being here in New York. I'm not gonna let anyone or anything keep me from it. I'm sorry, Finn. I love you. But there's nothing you can say or do that's gonna change my mind about it..." I seriously don't understand this. But the announcer guy is introducing us so we have to get ready to sing this song.

face to face, and heart to heart

we're so close yet so far apart

I close my eyes, I look away

that's just because I'm not okay

but I hold on, I stay strong

wondering if we still belong

will we ever say the words we're feeling

I am trying really hard to maintain eye contact with her because I want to really sing this song to her, not just with her.

reach down underneath and tear down all the walls

will ever have our happy ending

or will we forever only be pretending

keeping secrets safe, every move we make

seems like no one's let to know

and it's such a shame cuz if you feel the same

how am I supposed to know - ohhh

The rest of the club start to sing backstage now.

will we ever say the words we're feeling

reach down underneath and tear down all the walls

will we ever have our happy ending

or will we forever always be pretending - ohhh

What is this freakin look in her eyes? I need to kiss her! I look away to resist the urge, but find myself looking back at her as we sing the last few pretendings. I see only her. i forget that we are at Nationals. In New York. In front of tons of people. It's only me and Rachel. I feel myself start to lean in and before I can think better of it she leans in too.

When our lips connect it is amazing. I could spend forever in that moment but whwen we pull away and I slowly open my eyes I remember where we are. One more song to sing...

I'm sitting in the library playing with the snowglobe i bought in New York. I see her looking down the rows, most likely looking for me. Crap, she found me.

"Where have you been?"

"Hiding out," I tell her. "Everyone hates me.."

"No they dont," She says "but that doesnt explain why you haven't said a word to me since we've been back."

"Cuz you should be more pissed at me than anyone else. I screwed up! I'm humiliated. We worked so hard for everything and I was supposed to be this big shot leader holding everyone together and I blew it. Cost us the championship."

"Being an artist is about expressing your true feelings in the moment no matter what the consequences," she says as she sits down next to me, "what were you feeling in that moment?"

What was I feeling? I really don't know except for the intense urge to kiss her and how much I love her. "That I loved you. And i would've done or given anything to kiss you one more time," I look at her to see her reaction.

"So you did," she says it like it's the simplest thing in the world. Its not. "you know, you gave it all up for one kiss... Was it worth it?"

Fuck yes. Definitely. Totally. "Yeah," I tell her, "what about you, was it worth it for you?"

She nods. "Yeah," I have to stifle an accomplished smile. "because I know in my heart we'll have another shot at nationals. You have to know...I'm leaving, Finn. I'm going to New York and I'm never coming back.." Yeah, I we can discuss that subject later. Right now I'm too caught up in how delicious her lips look.

"Graduation's a year away...Got any plans til then?" I ask as I lean in. I catch her lips in mine! Success!

"Okay, let's go!" She says, getting up. Damn it! I really wanted to keep kissing her!

"Where are we going?"

"Final Glee club meeting of the year!" She says extending her hand out to me. I take it, standing up, then wrap it around her so I have my whole arm on her shoulders. As we walk to the choir room I am totally happy. Yeah, this summer's gonna rock...