In the land of dreams where it is mainly a sanctum where you can escape reality, live in a fantasy world and ignore what I would have to face in the morning to come. Although it is my haven a certain blue haired man invaded my dream focusing his eyes on me and I could feel my legs move towards him without a second thought. If I tried to stop my legs they would not listen to me anyways. Once reaching Grimmjow I wrapped my arms around his neck kissing his lips as his arms wrapped around my waist holding me tightly. My mind was screaming no and asking what the fuck I was doing but my body screamed oh yeah baby give me more of this. My body not wanting Grimmjows touch to stop. Soon enough the conflict between my mind and body stopped and my mind agreed with my body craving the touch I received. Grimmjows tongue licked my upper lip before his tongue slipped through softly tangling with mine. A kiss a lover would receive instead of a boy toy. It made my heart fill with joy. Grimmjows' fingers slid down my side and into my pants tugging at my jeans before he unbuttoned my pants and unzipped my zipper. He pulled my pants down and continued to have his lips brush against mine. We fell on to the floor with a thud but it didn't hurt. With the lack of oxygen I could barely breath.
"Grimmjow," I said," I'm feeling dizzy from not getting to breath much."
Grimmjow smirked and removed my shirt and boxers giving me enough time to regain the amount of oxygen necessary. Grimmjow lifted his hips up as his fingers lightly touched my half erect member and then got a hold of it giving it slow and powerful thrusts. Arching my hips I slid a finger inside me not caring that I had not lubed up. It slightly hurt but I moaned at the feeling of being stretched and added a second finger.
"Mmm," I moaned even louder.
The mixture of receiving a handjob and being stretched was great but I wanted more than that, I wanted Grimmjows cock to be inside me fucking my brains out, fucking me until I could forget our fight, my name, everything. Forget the world as it is only having him and I and no one else mattered. Harshly reality came crashing down on me and Grimmjow laughed and got off of me automatically beginning to leave once again. MY whole world came crashing down from a haven into a nightmare. The sight of him as he turned around giving me one last glance shattered the scene like a mirror into a million shards of glass. Grimmjow then looked forward towards the door and started to move.
"Wait!" I called.
Grimmjow turned around once again to my surprise. All of the shards of Grimmjow's face looking at me reminded me of fruit fly vision. Grimmjow began to leave obviously seeing no point in my pathetic plea.
"But I love you," I whispered without thinking as Grimmjow exited.
Thats when I woke up to see myself at home and feeling two pairs of arms wrapped around me. Karin and Yuzu. I smiled before I closed my eyes taking in a deep breath and trying to forget him. I never spoke those three words to anyone except my mom, Karin, and Yuzu, they were the ones who got the special three words that meant everything. I said it to Shinji half heartedly. I was in love with Grimmjow but would probably never get that second chance. Grimmjow thought of me as a good time. We were fuck buddied, friends with benefits and I had been used. Every God damn fucking time I got close to someone I would lose them. Was I afraid to love again after my mom's death.
"Ichigo stop thinking like that," I whispered to myself.
Soon enough the thoughts evacuated and I went back to sleep. Throughout my dream I dreamed of many things but the only thing that I could clearly remember was spiders. There were around twenty or thirty of them I couldn't tell because there were too many to count. They were asking to be squished by me and for some peculiar reason they were excited about being squished to death. I killed maybe eleven or so before one spider started to jump on my shoulder with pure joy and excitement. Trying to swat it away I missed and woke up.
oh crap the spider! I thought
Jumping from fear because I thought the spider was on me my heart beat accelerated only to have realization hit me that there was indeed no spider. MY body was slightly shaking and it soon stopped when I hissed in pain that I got from the pain that racked through my body slowly seeping through and raging like a berserker.
"Onii-chan?" Yuzu said sleepily.
"Oh Yuzu I'm sorry for waking you," I whispered.
"It's okay," she said," I wake up at 6:30 every morning. I might as well get up and cook breakfast."
"Okay you do that," I said and smiled.
Yuzu got off and stretched giving me a smile before she went to prepare breakfast. I could soon hear the loud noise of the cupboards being open as Yuzu raided the kitchen searching for certain dishes, food and spices. I felt less warmth and heard Karin stretch out before she moved away from me and moved to the television to turn it on and watch cartoons.
'Did I wake you up?" I asked.
"Naw," said Karin," Yuzu and her search for things did."
"Are you still tired?" I asked.
"Yeah," she admitted and yawned," I'll get overt it though."
"You should go back to bed," I said.
"I'm fine Ichi-nii," she said
I rolled my eyes and smiled at her and got up.
"Where are you going?" Karin asked.
"To get some orange juice," I said.
Masking the pain that attacked me I found my pain medication...well ibuprofen and held it in my hand with the plastic bag around it and made sure Karin did not notice. As I entered the kitchen I waved at Yuzu who was already at the stove. Opening the fridge I grabbed the Tropicana orange juice jug.
"What are you doing?" Yuzu asked in a motherly tone.
"Getting some orange juice," I said.
"Okay," she said," you better not be secretly snacking."
"I like your cooking to much to do that," I said," I've missed it."
"Aw really," she said," thanks Onii-chan."
As I held the jug it weighed down my arm and was barely held by my fingers. The 4L jug felt as if it weighed a ton. Usually it would be an easy task but it infuriated me that I couldn't do much and Yuzu must have noticed I was having problems.
"Let me get that Onii-chan," Yuzu offered.
I couldn't reply to say no because Yuzu was at my side in an instant and went to the cupboard to grab a glass for me. She hten went to the table and I followed her and sat down.
"You didn't have to do htis," I said.
"You're hurt Onii-chan," said Karin.
"But not broken," I said.
"Quiet," she said," when you're hear you have to listen to me."
Scowling for a few seconds I sighed and I pulled out the ibuprofen as Yuzu poured my juico for me.
"Pain medication?" Yuzu questioned.
"Yeah," I said," if you want me to do things today I can't be in pain."
"No more fighting Onii-chan," she scolded.
"But it was self defense," I said," what do I do next time he punches me? Just let him get it way with it?"
"Walk away," she said.
"That sounds like such a teacher thing to say," I said and laughed.
"You would know," she teased and then laughed.
Yuzu walked away flipping some pancakes and then pouring more batter on the griddle. Yuzu pulled out potatoes and started to peel and slice them into cubes. Sitting silently while slowly sipping my orange juice I watched Yuzu. I took my pills soon after swallowing a mouthful of orange juice. I heard loud foot steps.
"Ichigo!" yelled my father.
Lifting an arm I formed a fist and drank my orange juice as my fist connected with my fathers face. The pressure waved through my arm like a tidal wave. Hissing through clenched teeth I almost dropped my glass onto the floor. Yuzu left her good to cook as she ran up to dad telling him not to be so mean.
"Give it up old man," I said.
"Aw Masaki oh how our son has grown up!" he told the photo.
How my mother fell in love with this goof ball I do not know. Sighing I got up to place a empty glass in the sink and went into the living room until breakfast was ready. I had been lost in thought as Karin was involved in television. I then felt my body being dragged from the collar of my shirt into the kitchen by Karin.
"Hey what the hell was that for?" I asked.
"You didn't hear me," Karin said," breakfast is ready. You're heavy so you can walk the rest of the way."
I was released and Karin walked forward to take her place at the table. I got on my feet and took my place too thanking Yuzu for dinner. I got a few pieces of toast, some pancakes and hashbrowns. It was good and I knew Yuzu would make a fine chef one day. The rest of my family time seemed to move by too quickily and before I knew it it was 4:35 p.m and I was at my house calling Matsumoto.
"Hello?" said a feminine voice.
"Hello Ms. Matsumoto," I said.
"Oh Ichigo," she said," hi how are you."
"Good," I said," I"m sorry to inform you but I've been badly injured. I can't do much. I'm all marked up I'm sure of it and my strength isn't good enough to wait tables or even have bar duty and I have to quit. I don't want to but it is for the best until I am able to once again dance."
"Oh poo," she pouted," I guess you'll have to leave. You will get this weeks pay on monday so come pick it up."
"okay," I said," I'm sorry but maybe when I'm better I can work there again."
"Maybe," she said," your a great dancer. Sad to see you go."
"Thanks," I said," good bye."
"Good bye," she said.
I felt bad. I lost so many things lately next thing you know I'd be going crazy. Suddenly my door flung open and I saw Shinji and he dropped the bags he had.
"Oh God Ichi what happened?" he whispered.
"Fought Grimmjow," I said," lost big time."
Shinji's face was blank and emotionless as I told him that probably processing what had happened. I felt bad since I had just told him instead of tellign him yesterday. We were close. Knew everything about each other and kept no secrets since we had no shame in what each other did. It didn't effect our friendship at all.
"Oh Ichi," Shinji whispered again.
:D well here's a chapter. Kinda got the idea in math class. Proabably gonna try to write for my other story tutti i miei sbgali which means all my mistakes in italian. anywayshope ya enjoy it also there is slight grim ichi in tutti i miei sbgali it's in 3pp so i think I'll go to their perspective at some point in time.