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Mission 4
Xemnas had summoned me the following morning. I had no idea what he wanted to discuss with me, maybe it was about Roxas. I was waiting in the dining room area for Xemnas. I hadn't seen any of the others and I began to worry. Soon enough, Xemnas trotted down the stairs with a grin I ever so hated. None the less, I kept a determined expression on. Xemnas came up to me and smiled not a kind smile but a Xemnas smile.
"Kirai, I have a mission for you. Riku has agreed to help us release the heartless' hearts. You will meet him at midnight, at the ocean."
I nodded, accepting what was required of me without hesitation. As Xemnas walked away, I ran out of the mansion to be alone.
"Riku…" I whispered as I walked through the forest. I didn't want to face him. My other half loved Riku so much and because of that love, my existence fades in my mind. I wasn't born out of love, like Naminé, I was born out of darkness. No, I was born out of hate. Yes, hate…that's how the story began…
My other self, or Ren'ai as people called her. She was beautiful, unlike me. Her hair was long and blonde, reaching to her waist. Our faces were the same though. Our expressions were not. She always had that damn smile on her face. She was always happy. Even though she had a boiling rage and hate inside of her when I was born.
She had met Riku some time ago, when he was still in darkness. She loved him, more than she had loved any other human being. Since Riku was controlled by Xemnas, Ren'ai despised him. She hid her feelings but she could not completely destroy them. Once she followed Riku to the very same castle where I was at now. She saw Xemnas and tried to fight him, the poor girl was no match at all. How could she be? He was a nobody and she was a human, her heart not strong enough to wield the Keyblade.
Xemnas saw his opportunity to let her cause him damage but Xemnas was controlling Riku at that point and even though Xemnas had full control over Riku's body. Riku was the one in fact receiving the damage meant for Xemnas. When Xemnas revealed this, Ren'ai was heart broken. The very person she was trying to protect, she had harmed him.
Riku was injured but not gravely. Despite this, Ren'ai was tortured by the very fact that she had harmed him. She grabbed the unconscious Riku's Keyblade and trusted it through her heart. Riku's Keyblade opened her heart up to become a heartless. She became a heartless out of hate for herself and Xemnas.
Even thought I do not know how, Xemnas turned her back into her former self, while she was a heartless I was created. I hated Ren'ai, the reason of my birth was my nature, because I was born out of Ren'ai's hate for herself, I also despise her.
I've had dreams, of Riku and I blame her for it. I do not know where she is but Riku must know. I was to kill her off, so I could become whole. The air had become uncomfortably cold and I realized why. The sky was night. I spent my whole day wandering around the forest. I tried to stay away form Roxas because of my upsetting mood. When midnight came, I was ready.
5 minutes before midnight, I opened a dark portal to the beach. I walked into it without regret. When I arrived Riku was there, he had changed since I last saw him, no since Ren'ai last saw him. He was taller, more slender and I couldn't sense the darkness in him.
"So you're opened your heart to the light Riku?"
He turned to face me, I knew he must also despise me because to him I am a copy of her. I am a nobody that stole a piece of her soul. For all I know, he probably has a scheme to reunite me with Ren'ai.
"Kirai, I do not despise you." Riku stated.
I clenched my teeth and hands in fury, he was lying, they were all lying. He just wanted my guard down, so he could destroy me. So I could fully fade away. So he could have his precious love.
"Do not think I am naïve. I am a nobody but I am not oblivious to the fact you want your precious love whole again."
Riku sighed and touched my hair with his hand. He held the side of my face and frowned painfully.
"I wanted that before but that would be like killing you. I could never hate you because you are a part of her. I want to be friends but I also know you are nothing like her. You two are almost separate beings but share one soul."
I was angered and flustered. Since Ren'ai loved him, I couldn't help but blush. I swiped his hand away, more of her memories were flowing into my mind. I saw flashbacks of before I was born, them holding hands, them kissing. It disgusted me.
"I can never be like her, I am a nobody, I have no soul. I cannot feel anything, I can only pretend."
Riku frowned at me. I don't know why, why should he care anyway? It was all true, nobodies are an empty vessel. No one cared about nobodies. I was determined to fade away into darkness. The sudden meaning of what I had said hit me, if I could only pretend then the happiness I felt with Roxas just an act?
"Kirai, Xemnas told me he knows where Ren'ai is, he said if I kill heartless and lead them to Kingdom hearts, he would bring her to me. Please do you know if he could really do that? The only person I could trust is you and Sora's….you know him don't you?"
'Sora's what?…Nobody? Sora had a nobody? He possibly couldn't be in the organization because…Roxas. Was Roxas, Sora's nobody? Why didn't…anyone tell me…'
"Why didn't you tell me Roxas was Sora's nobody! WHY? I hate Sora! Him and his pathetic Keyblade!"
I had screamed and my fury was unleashed. They all had known the whole time but they didn't tell me. Did Roxas know? Of course he had to know. What was Xemnas planning?
"Look Kirai! You don't have to hate Sora! He would help you! He had a noble heart! You could be friends, you could be friends with him…"
I closed my eyes and covered my ears with my hands while sliding down to the ground,
"I don't want to be helped by him! I hate him! I hate him! I hate him. I hate him…"
I repeated those words over and over again, I still felt Riku's presence but then I heard another voice. The stranger poke,
"See? She's nothing like her, her exact opposite. If she's reunited with Ren'ai, you'll have your love once more."
I opened my eyes to see who spoke and I saw Diz standing next to Riku.
"Traitor!" I yelled.
I saw Riku's hand reaching after me but I created a portal and vanished. I returned back to the forest and saw Xemnas there. He walked over to me, my eyes now spilling tears.
"Kirai, You can't feel anything. You don't have emotions, so stop crying and pretending you're human."