kozmo09- lol thank you! will do!

Torakage- I'm glad you enjoy reading.

inuyashaHELP- yeah i know! lol well i got the gun-that-looks-like-a-sword idea from Yazoo from Final Fantasy 7- Advent Children. Love that movie!

JessYukiOnna- here's your update! hope you enjoy it!

toyBOX- ahh you cried? should i lower the sadnessess ess? Well...about whether Ren'ai is bad you'll just have to wait and see! muhaahah!

shadowed crescents- lol well Ren'ai didn't really come out of Kirai, she came out beause of kirai.

Twilight-to-Nightfall- here's your update!

Random Fullmetal Alchemist Quote-

"Either because of love, or out of foolish curiosity, human transmutations are attempted...and when these attempts all backfire, a diffrent life is created...a being that has its own body and mind, but no soul...

This is how the damned are born..."

-Wrath Episode 31 (I think)

Mission 9

'Shit!'

I pushed Roxas through the portal and I jumped in right when I heard a single gunshot. Pain shot through my arm when Roxas and I landed on the other side of the portal. I had the portal transport us to the beach were I used to meet Riku. This was the farthest I've ever gone from the mansion. I had fallen to the floor, I was clutching my arm in pain.

"Kirai! Are you okay?" Roxas sounded alarmed, he must have heard the gunshot and assumed the worst.

I pulled my bloody hand away from my wound and examined it, Ren'ai had only grazed me, fortunately. I sat up and ripped a strip of cloth from the bottom of my cloak. I tied it around my arm to stop the bleeding. Roxas sat next to me.

"I'm sorry Kirai, this is all my fault. You saved me…"

I could see the gratefulness in his eyes, I smiled at him, saying it was no problem. It was raining only a little now, the moonlit lit up his eyes. Roxas helped me to stand on my two feet but I fell a little forward, Roxas caught me.

"S-sorry. I must be weak from the blood loss."

Roxas smiled at me, he hugged me and thanked me.

"You don't need to say thank you Roxas." I said to him.

"It must be painful…for both of you."

I knew what he was referring to, he wasn't talking about my physical wound but of Ren'ai and I. It was true, having her hate me was a little difficult. It was like hating myself. My stomach fluttered when I realized how painful it really was. Being a nobody was hard, it made you think of yourself no more than a lifeless doll. We weren't supposed to have feeling but nonetheless, we always expressed them. I clenched my teeth and hugged Roxas tightly, he was so comforting. The warmth of his body felt like home. I knew he wouldn't betray me.

"It…is painful."

A tear trickled down my cheek and I sobbed. Riku had betrayed me to the girl whom he loved, Ren'ai hated me, even though I was a part of her. Even Xemnas had told me to stop pretending I was human, could this burning feeling in my lungs be fake? How could I pretend my insides were caving in, my heart pounded with pain?

Roxas held me, his chin was above my head, I cried into his chest. When I pulled away, I looked into his eyes. Roxas smiled and wiped a tear from my eye. I could see that glint of life in his, why could I? I had only seen it in humans with hearts. So why was he different? That indescribable emotion inside of me came to life, the feeling when our lips met for the first time.

My body was involuntarily getting close to his, our faces inching towards each other. I could feel him breathing and my eyes were closing. When I felt his lips, my heart burned with a life I hadn't felt before. I hadn't felt any of this with Riku. Why was Roxas so special? Why was he so kind?

Our lips separated and I began to feel weak. My knees buckled and I sat on the floor quickly.

"What's wrong Kirai?" Roxas picked me up. I tried to speak but I had lost too much blood, my vision was blurred. All my sentences came out sluggish.

"Don't worry Kirai, you'll be fine."

That's the last thing I heard before I blacked out. When I came to, I was laying in a while bed. The room was all white and I felt someone holding my left hand. I looked to the side and saw Roxas sleeping on a chair. I gripped his hand tightly, it was comforting. Where was I though? This room was strangely unfamiliar.

"Roxas?"

Roxas was deeply asleep, I smiled. He looked so innocent when he was asleep. His chest was rising and falling with each breath he took. I sat up and looked around. I guess I moved a little too much because Roxas awoke. He smiled sleepily and asked me,

"How are you feeling?"

"I'm fine. Where are we?"

"Small clinic on the other side of town."

After the doctors checked to see if I was well enough to leave Roxas checked me out from the counter and we left. This part of town was unfamiliar to me, I had never seen these buildings. The streets were full of people walking around attending to their businesses. We came upon a park, Roxas led me to a bench and we sat.

"Kirai, we have to return to the mansion. They won't do anything to us, if they do, I'll protect you."

I sighed, "I guess we do. Otherwise, Riku, Sora and Ren'ai would find us."

When no one was looking, Roxas summoned a portal that I stepped into regretfully. We landed in front of the mansion. It felt as if time had stopped when we entered the hellhole. Even though it was mid-day, there was no one visible in the silent hallways of the mansion. Roxas and I hadn't eaten for a long time so my stomach was growling and roaring by the time I set foot in the kitchen.

"Hey Roxas, are you hungry?"

He nodded and added, "I'm starving."

I rummaged through the cabinets and the fridge. I found some food to eat, after we were done, I headed towards my room without a sound. I laid on my bed, head down. I could feel Roxas enter my room and close the door. He sat on a corner of my bed.

"Kirai…what's wrong?"

I turned around to face him, his eyes met mine but I looked away.

"She hates me, they hate me."

I clenched my covers. I didn't know what to do anymore. Everyone that had tried to get close to me ended up hating me or having someone better to love. Riku…he hates me, he loves Ren'ai. The organization, I bet they wish they could get rid of me. Roxas…I didn't want to get close to him.

My greatest fear now-losing someone important to me.

"Roxas…" I croaked out.

"Yes?" Roxas sat closer to me, stroking my hair.

"Please…don't…leave me alone."

Roxas was taken back by this plead, "Wh-what? Why would I ever leave you?"

He smiled at me and I smiled back.We then said our goodnights and Roxas walked out of my room. I layed down but the distorted after images of Ren'ai haunted me. I kept seeing her face full of hatred. I couldn't go to sleep like this. I gathered my pillow and blankets and opened Roxas's door.

I poked my head through and peered into Roxas's room. I saw Roxas under his covers.

"Roxas?" I whispered, "Are you awake?"

I heard a low "Yeah" coming from Roxas's bed. I quietly walked into his room, closing the door behind me. I dragged my bed sheets to the floor right next to him and I sat on the floor. He gave me a confused look but said nothing.

"I can't sleep in my room…I keep thinking of her."

"Yeah sure, you can sleep here."

I smiled at him and he smiled back. He got up from his bed offering it to me,

"I'll sleep on the floor."

I murmured a thank you and got into his bed. I fell into a wonderful sleep almost instantly, sleeping in the same room as Roxas made me feel that my safety was insured. His pillow and covers smelled like him, a wonderful citrus that smelled also a bit woody.

(That sent is from Hollister's Jake cologne. I love that smell! 0-0)

I fell asleep thinking of Roxas, he was so nice, so caring, could we possibly regain our hearts and fall in love?

Or would the darkness swallow us and reunite us with Ren'ai and Sora?

Only time would tell.