Sorry about the lack of updates in well over half a year. But I've finally updated. My writer's block had been cured.

Mission 12:

I woke up in shock as I felt a pain surging through my face. I felt dizzy from an unknown blow as I crawled on the floor and my eyes adjusted. I looked around and saw that I was in Xemnas's prison chamber. I looked at the figure who had harmed me. As I was on the ground, the figure loomed over me and slapped me. I fell to the ground and brought my hand to my cheek, shocked.

"You thought you could escape me? You are my nobody, I own you."

I looked at the figure and saw long, blonde, flowing hair…

"Ren'ai?" I whispered.

I saw my own face looking back at me with hatred, she smiled and laughed. In reality, this scared me. Having your face hit you and laugh with so much…evil, this really scared me.

She laughed, "You thought you could win? You thought your selfish little self could win against the Organization, me, Riku and Sora?"

I stared at her, I didn't know what to do but all I cared about was, "Where's Roxas?!"

She scoffed at me, "You still only care about him? What good will you do him dead? You know…"

"I only care about him! Where is he?!"

Ren'ai grabbed my cloak from under my neck and pulled me up to face her. I never remembered her to be this strong.

"You're so annoying when you're pretending."

She threw me to the floor and a portal appeared, Ren'ai walked through it and left me. I still hadn't gotten over the shock. Last night, I was with Roxas and Sora. What had happened? Had we been captured during our sleep? Where was he?

And….

Why had Ren'ai opened a portal?! The answer made me feel dizzy. Ren'ai now had the powers of a nobody. I had to open a portal, I had to get out of here! I concentrated with my eyes closed, willing a portal to open for me. It was no use. I sighed and curled into a ball. I was pathetic. The human that I…was created from, even she was more successful as a nobody than I am. How did this happen? What happened to the past? I was only a normal being without emotions. But then he came. He stepped into my existence. I would never call my being here as life.

"Roxas…I need you."

I was so weak. Without Roxas, I was nothing. Without his smile, all I can think about is how I'm an empty shell without meaning. I gritted my teeth and I pictured Ren'ai and Riku in love. I was envious of them. Why did they deserve a happy ending?

Then I screamed, "Why! Why do they deserve it! She's cruel, she's inhumane! Is this what being a nobody means?! Am I to rot! Am I to wither away!?"

And then I whispered, "I only wanted to be with him."

No I will not stay here. I am a nobody, I have no emotions, I can destroy. I lifted myself up and with the tears streaked down my face, I summoned a portal. I landed in front of the mansion. It was now or never. I turned my face up towards the sky to feel the cold, harsh wind gathering. Tonight's going to be stormy. The clouds were already gray in anger. Thunder was rolling not too far away. As I walked towards the entrance, rain began to pour. My blood red hair was sticking to my face. I pulled my hood up and summoned twenty black needles that floated by my side. If they wanted to take away my reason to be, I'll erase their existence. I was sick of it, trying to make me do their bidding. Trying to take Roxas from me, I was through with it all.

I opened the door to find some members sitting around. Once they saw me, they froze. I faced Marluxia and demanded, "Where is Roxas, Ren'ai and Riku?"

He didn't answer at first but when I lifted my hand and my needles rose, he told me.

"They are by the beach. What do you plan on doing? We need Sora. Without him, we won't have hearts. With hearts, we can become human."

I looked at him with hate form under my hood. "I do not plan on existing without Roxas." Then I brought my hand down in his direction. Like lightning, my needles flew and hit Marluxia. He cried out and the others eyed me and tried to assist him. I simply turned and opened a portal to the beach, hopefully, this will be the last time I teleport there.

When I arrived, I saw that Marluxia was true to his word. Sora and Roxas were fighting with Riku. Ren'ai was watching the sky, grinning. When I saw her, my anger rose. The sky turned into a black. Thunder, lighting and rain blurred the senses. Ren'ai turned her face to watch me walk towards them. Riku saw me and drew back. Sora and Roxas stood their ground when they saw me. With fifteen needles at my side, I asked Ren'ai, "Why are you doing this?"

She glared at me, "You stole part of my heart. I am no longer human. I need the heartless to be destroyed by Sora that I can recover enough hearts to gain one of my own. I need the same thing as all nobodies, including you need. So why are you so reluctant to give up your precious Roxas?"

Riku seemed unhappy after Ren'ai had given her speech, did he not agree with her? Was Sora truly that dear of a friend to him? Who would he choose? Ren'ai or Sora?

It seemed as if I wouldn't have time to ponder because Ren'ai took a few steps towards me and pulled out her gun. It was a midnight blue hue and it shined like silver. She lifted it and pulled it upwards as if it had been fired in slow motion. All the while, she glared at me with eyes that thirsted.

"Bang," she stated.

I held my ground. Could I dodge the bullet? Even though I was a nobody, I could still die. I summoned over a hundred sleek, black needles. If anything, I had less than a second to make a shield or dodge. Riku, Sora and Roxas were still and silent. They only watched me and Ren'ai.

"Ren'ai," I pleaded, "I don't want to fight you. I only want to take Roxas home."

She grinned and he eyes slightly closed so that they resembled a snake's slitted eyes.

"You only want your precious Roxas? Why, Kirai is he so damn important to you? Because you love him? Because you think you're so special that you can evade what you truly are, an empty shell, and have the capacity to love?"

She lowered her gun.

"You can't possibly have emotions. You are my shadow, the past that I want forgotten. I despise looking at you. I loathe the way your face is so similar to mine and yet, you and I are completely different. But face it, you aren't capable of containing emotions. You can only pretend."

I walked over to her calmly. She knew the truth and so did I. She was lying because she knew, I was more human that her now.

"Ren'ai. You know that I have half of your heart now. You possess your darkened, poisoned heart while I, a nobody, have your pure side, the side of you that you once were. It doesn't have to be this way. We could find a way for you to become human again. I-"

But I couldn't finish because she turned away from me and faced the three boys. I could still see the side of her face and it was contorted into a painful frown.

"It wasn't supposed to be this way," she whispered, "I was supposed to be in love with Riku and none of this was supposed to happen. I wasn't supposed to have a nobody. This wasn't supposed to exist!!!"

Before, I thought I hated her. Now I pity her. She was a teenage girl who was in love with a boy. She only tried to defend him and even sacrificed herself for him and this was how it ended. She lost her heart, her human self and her empty shell of a body became human and even…found an emotion that only humans could possess. It was unfair. All of this was unfair. The rain was pouring but through the veil of raindrops, I thought I could see Ren'ai crying. This was truly cruel, I realized.

Then she did something I would never forgive her for. She lifted her gun and pointed it at Roxas. Scared, I shouted, "Roxas!" I was running towards Ren'ai and I sent my needles towards her. If I could only reach her before she dared to pull the trigger, she'd die. I didn't want to kill her, I truly didn't. But I couldn't stand and watch while she killed Roxas. He meant too much to me. Lightning flashed and I knew my needles had struck their mark. But I had also heard a gunshot.

And there they were.

Ren'ai had over a hundred needles protruding form her body. From the wounds a dark, red liquid was leaking. And then there was Riku, he was holding her, covering the tip of he gun with his shoulder. Behind him, Sora was standing with his arms stretched out in front of Roxas. The only emotion Roxas could muster was surprise. Riku began to shake and he fell to the ground along with Ren'ai.

"Riku!" Sora shouted. He rushed over to aid his friend. I ran over to Ren'ai, she was unconscious. But Roxas was only standing there, frozen. I tried to heal them both as did Sora.

"What do we do Kirai!?" Sora shouted over the rain.

I looked down at them and my voice cracked when I could only whisper painfully,

"I don't know."