Chapter 11-The Bloody Blue Scarf
While we kissed, I held tight to her hair while she had her arms around my waist. I then broke the kiss and looked at her again while holding her cheeks. I was crying…in the rain. My first kiss but I never thought that kiss, something that everyone thinks it's the most romantic thing, and it could feel so bitter with so much pain. My eyes widened, I realised that she was also crying. Why? I asked myself.
I then let go of her, I was ment to make her smile, be happy but I just made her upset. It's just all this time, I kept on thinking of my own suffering, thinking how I would live without her but did I ever realise that when she dies. She's dead. All things she would like to do, to accomplish would never come true. I don't know if I was being selfish or…I don't know.
"Ayame-Chan!" I shouted while looking into the sky with the rain pouring on me.
"I'll try my best to protect you."
She whipped her tears and whispered softly "Ok…"
A few days passed and I tried to make her happy. I treated her to a lot of things and made sure she always smiled. I would smile too; I would try to forget that she was dying because if I kept on thinking about that I would…regret it. I would wish that I had been happier with her and made her happier. So I'm going to do the right thing and make her happy. We were out in the evening, I had told the chairman what has been going on and what's wrong with Ayame and he let me spend as much time as possible with Ayame as long as I didn't do anything foolish.
"Aidou?" Ayame asked as we were just walking in the streets side by side.
"Yes? What is it?" I asked curiously
"I made a scarf, for the pair you!"
"Wow really lets see it!"
She slowly looked through her bag and she then took it out happily.
"There you go!" She then handed it to me.
"It's blue because it matches your eyes and in the corner of the scary there's written Iris! Do you like it?"
There was about 5 seconds of silence because I was busy staring at the scary, no my scarf.
"Well?" She asked, her expression looked a bit sad now, I think she guessed that I didn't like it since I didn't reply soon but I smiled at her.
"I love it!"
She then exhaled "Don't scare me like that! I thought you didn't like it!"
"I'm sorry I didn't realise what the question was until 5 seconds later!"
"Baka!!"
I then bursted out laughing and she then also did the same thing. I had to admit I was having a lot of fun.
I was just about to wrap around my neck but I realised she didn't have a scarf so I wrapped the scarf around both our necks since it was long enough. She didn't say anything. I don't think there was anything to say.
Another few days past and I always wore Ayame's scarf even inside the school. I did try to ask Kaname again about the blood but he gave me the same answer. Though I wasn't really mad about it. Well don't get me wrong I was mad but just not very. It's because it seemed as if Ayame was getting better. She hadn't complained about her heart at all. She just looked perfectly healthy. The doctor did say most likely. What if she didn't die?
Eventually we arrived at the end of 3 weeks and she was ment to die within 2 weeks, so I guessed that maybe she was fine. I was still worried but just less worried. We were ment to see each other again. I was waiting outside her dorm and she was taking longer then usual to get changed. She then told me that she would meet me in town since we were going to have dinner together. I shrugged and I left and I waited in town near the restaurant we were going to eat at.
She took a while. I did start moaning to myself. Asking myself if she was all right but I knew she was. She always did this so it made no difference really.
I then ended up waiting for an hour and I saw a figure running towards me, I thought it was Ayame and I started waving even though she was far into the distance but… it wasn't Ayame. It was Yuuki she ran towards me and started breathing heavily in tears.
"Aidou!! Ayame is…."
I then stared at her and whispered "Dead." I said while looking down.