(A/N) There are some lemony scenes in this chapter. Just thought I'd warn. Anyways...read on.

Chapter 4- Loneliness

I'm glad that the car is dark so that Zero doesn't see my eyes and expresions, he would know something happened. He asked me why I had taken so long and I lied, telling him that they couldn't find my coat. The driver had left without me when Zero had told him that I would be riding with him. I didn't want the ride to be silent for the next 20 minutes, so I asked him questions about his night. He answered patiently.

'What did you think of Usui Takamaru?' I ask, forcing to keep my voice steady.

His hands tighten on the steering wheel. 'I hate his guts.'

'I meant his behaviour. Anything worth reporting to the association?'

He ponders on this. 'I didn't think his actions were out of the ordinary. I mean almost every vampire, and human, there tried to grope you.'

I roll my eyes at his directness. I suddenly remember what had happened when I had gone back for my coat. I blush and look out the window.

'What about you?'

'Huh?' I asked, pulled out of my reverie.

'What did you think of him?' he asked.

I hesitate. Thinking about my answer carefully, looking back out the window.

'I think he's lonely.'

I thought I had said it too low for him to hear, but then he asked, 'lonely?'

I nod, avoiding looking at his face. 'Yeah. I didn't like the vibe that was coming from him and it was kind of scary. I can't understand how people can stand to be alone. After I was abandoned on that snow-covered mountain all those years ago, I felt that... I was alone in the entire world. It was such a scary feeling. But then I found that I have the chairman, Kaname, Yori, and you. That was all I needed. Right now, with only us two in the car, miles from anywhere, it feel likes… we're the only ones in the world. And that's all I need.'

Zero suddenly swerves to the ride of the road making me yelp. He comes to a stop at the curb. I turn to him, blazing.

'Zero, what the he-'

Zero's lips are on mine before I could finish my bashing, and it wouldn't matter even if he stopped, since I had already forgotton what I had been talking about. My arms wrap around him, my hands curl around his hair. I hear him unbuckle his seatbelt and then mine. He pulls me onto his lap without breaking the kiss. Feeling somewhat confident because of the darkness, I bite and pull his bottom lip, I feel him shiver and groan into my mouth. He tightens his hold around my waist and licks my bottom lip, asking for entrance. We share a passionate kiss that leaves me breathless. The steering wheel of the car presses to my back, making me uncomfortable. I push my hips forward and accidently push against the bulge between his legs. I hear his groan softly and lean his head back.

'Holy shit,' he breathes quietly, almost to himself.

'Sorry,' I say, embarrassed.

'No, no, don't be,' he says, moving his head forwards again and kissing me urgently. His hands roam over my body, making me ache for him. His hands fondle my breasts and I arch my back. Moaning softly. His hands roam to my back as he kisses me again. He slowly unzips my dress, I unbutton his shirt and caress his chest and stomach, which tense under my touch. His breath is slow and ragged now. He pulls his lips away, he drags my dress down, and I push the coat and shirt off his body. He brings his lips back to mine and starts to unclasp my bra. My core ache for him and I move my hips against his as an attempt to relieve myself. He gasps into my mouth and I wrap my arms tighter around him, stopping his movements. His pulls away slightly.

'Yuki, please,' he breaths. His lips travel down my jaw to my neck, I arch my back and he kisses my nipples, making them stand in points and making me moan and gasp in ecstasy. He pulls back, I feel exhausted, but my need for him is so strong that I feel I might explode.

'Lets go to the back,' he tells me breathless.

We decide to spend winter break at the academy since the chairman was busy with his work. Not that I was complaining. Something about being alone with Zero in a building as big as the academy brought a thrill to me and a shiver of excitement down my spine. We would spend every waking moment together, we spent our nights together at the guest rooms since they were bigger then our dorm rooms. We'd go on walks, and eat together. we went to town and spent the day there finding random things to do. Everyday was filled with so much happiness that I felt like a ballon ready to explode. Unfortunately, as the week was coming to a close, Zero was called out for a mission. I spent the day with the chairman. I felt guilty about not paying as much attention to the chairman as I should, being his daughter. We had already told him about us dating when winter break started. He was ecstatic. As he had jumped up to hug us, with crocadile tears running down his face, Zero smacked him and led me out of the room saying the chairman needed to calm himself. Later, when the chairman was cooking dinner with me and Zero helping, I had excused myself. I had stalled outside the door and heard them talking.

'Zero, I trust you,' i heard the chairman say in a serious voice.

'Yeah.'

'Take care of my daughter.'

'I will.'

That was the most normal conversation I had heard between the two. I had almost cried at the feeling of love inside me for both my father and Zero. Instead I went to the bathroom and didn't mention it to either of them. I break out of my reverie when I hear the door-bell ring. The chairman almost skips to the door, calling to whoever was at the door to 'be patient.' I finished cutting the salad when comes back to the kitchen. There was a confused look on his face, his eyebrows furrowed.

'What's wrong?' I ask, worried.

'We're having a guest over,' he says, waving the letter in the air, a cynical smile on his face. I frown at him, it's not like him to act this way.

'Who is it?' I ask, picking up the salad bowl and walking to the table.

'Usui Takumi.'

I freeze, my palms grow sweaty and I lay the bowl on the table before it falls. I turn my face to him.

'He sent me a telegram saying he wanted to talk to me. So he decided to come over for dinner.'

My breathing is labored and my head spins. I can't face him after what he did at the ball, I don't want to come near him.

'Yuki, it's okay, you don't have to be here when he comes.'

I sigh in relief and nod at him. He stares at me then smiles lightly, nodding his head, acknowledging my answer. I make a sandwich for myself and leave the chairman's headquarters. I return to my room and eat my dinner there. My nerves won't allow me to sit still so I start wandering around the little apartment-like room Yori and I share. I stop after a while and sit on a couch. I sigh, wishing Zero was here. Every second that passed made it harder for me to live the next. I want to cry but am too tired to. Soon my eyes become heavy and I fall asleep on the uncomfortable couch.