Chapter 5- Waiting in the Dark

I open my eyes. It's still dark outside, but I had heard a noise so I had woken up. I get up slightly and look around. The room is dark except for the light of the full moon outside. A figure looms on my open window. I stare at it, surprisingly calm. Usui Takumi comes towards me, his body and features are illuminated by the moon and he looks like an out-wordly being. I can't help but stare, not speaking. He comes towards me, as swift and silent as a ghost. My curtains blow behind him, seemingly mysterious. He stands in front of the couch, directly in front of me. I stare at his face and he stares at mine. He leans down towards me, my eyes don't waver from his. There are no emotions inside me, as if I'm in a dream. But no, even dreams have a sense of feeling in them. My mind was blank and my heart was still, as if I had ceased to exist. He moves his face close to my neck and gently moves my hair behind my shoulder, breathing hot gulps of air down my skin. Suddenly, everything seems to happen in a second. My mind starts to move, my eyes widen, my heart hammers in my chest. I move my hands to his chest and push. He moves back and takes hold of my arms, so his face is in level with mine and almost an inch apart.

'You weren't there today.'

I furrow my brows at him and try to release his hands from mine.

'At dinner, I came to see you and that oaf told me you were busy.'

I pull my hands harder. Letting out audible sounds of struggle. He sighs, as if he was fighting a stubborn baby.

'Why don't you answer me?' he asks, his voice low and sad.

I stop struggling long enough to look at his face, there is a pained look painting his features and I lose some of the fight in me. I try not to show it though.

'I didn't want to see you.'

Something flashes through his eyes and I hear a low growl coming from behind his throat. I flinch and he pulls me to him. He kisses me on the mouth and I let out a scream with my mouth closed. I push him away but he doesn't budge and keeps his mouth on mine. I make my lips into a straight line and feel tears coming to my eyes. Zero. I think to myself, just keep him in your mind. Zero. Zero. Zero. Zero. Zero. ZERO. ZERO. ZERO. He pulls away and trails kisses down my jaw, towards my neck. I realize I'm crying. I feel his fangs graze my neck and I hear his ragged breathing.

'By God,' he whispers, 'I want you.'

I close my eyes, freeing a set of tears from my eyes by doing so, 'Please don't.'

He stiffens at my blant regection of him. He moves his mouth away from my neck and brings his face back to mine.

'I will kill Zero if you don't listen to me.'

I freeze. My heart litterally freezes, my mind blanks for a second. He couldn't. he wouldn't. looking into his eyes, they burn red, with an intensity to make me cringe and hide under the table. Tears come to my eyes. He could and he would. He's dead serious. Anger flares within me. I pull my hand back, and with all the force I have, I slap him. His face turns to the side. My hand throbs but my anger overpowers my body and I don't care or think about anything.

'Don't you dare lay a finger on him.' I say, with as much venom as I could lace in those words.

He brings his head back and stares at my face. He smiles, my angers boils through my body, firing up every nerve. How dare he? How DARE he? He brings his hands up and traps my face between them. I try to move away, but it feels like I'm between two iron walls. He kisses me again.

I scream against his lips. 'Don't touch me,' I scream. He moves away slightly. 'I will kill him if you don't kiss me like you do him.'

My anger disappears as fast as it came. Emotions hourd inside me and I don't know how to react. How could he expect me to do that? How? Zero was Zero. The only person I had ever loved, the only person in the world who I would never be able to live without. I would die for that man. How could I bring my feelings for someone like Zero to this vampire? He puts his lips on mine again. My stomach churns uncomfortably and I have a need to barf. My heart aches. I need Zero, now. I need Zero where Usui was, in front of me, in my room, in the middle of the night. Kissing me, touching me, whispering to me, loving me. More tears come and I can't help the sobs that cut through the silent air. He kisses me again, I close my eyes tight and kiss him back. I had to do this, for Zero, if not for myself. He pulls away slightly, breathing hard.

'Not good enough.'

I pull him to me and kiss his mouth with as much passion as I could muster. I tell myself it worked due to the moans leaving his mouth. We go on like this for a while. My tears are spent and I'm exhausted. Suddenly, he leaves my mouth and descends his lips to my neck.

'No,' I gasp. That was for Zero only. Only he could touch that part of me. Before, when he was a vampire, to drink my blood. Only him. And now, as a human. Only him. I could still see the hickeys that Zero had planted there before he had left on his mission. Usui looks up at me, not moving his face.

'He could die within a minute if I send the orders, believe me.'

My heart breaks and contrary to what I said, I start to cry again. He leans to my neck and licks it in anticipation of his teeth. I close my eyes as his razor canines sink into my neck. I gasp, sucking in my breath. I grip the side of the couch, my eyes burning. He drinks hungrily, moaning through the feeding. I start to feel lightheaded. The ecstacy doesn't come, only the pain. It remains there even after he extracts his fangs from my neck. My eyes are slightly open and my head has dropped back to the couch. I'm tired and dizzy. I can't think. My only thoughts are of Zero. Tears cascade down my face. He takes my hand gently and kisses the back of it. I don't turn to him.

'Yuki,' he says softly. I don't respond. 'I'm going to ask you something very selfish now and I want you to say yes to my request.'

I'm quiet.

'Will you come with me?'

I'm quiet.

'I won't dishonour you in any way. But I believe that I have become addicted to your blood. Since the first time I saw you at the ball. You were so beautiful, and your smell. You smelled so nice that I had to see you again and now that I've found you, I don't want to let you go. Will you come with me?'

I'm quiet.

He sighs, 'I'll take that as a yes then.'

He picks me up bridal style and my head and arm flop down. 'I'll have to erase your memory though. I can't have you remembering that man again in my presence. I want you to belong to me and only me. I will take you somewhere secluded and I won't let you leave. You'll be happy Yuki, please believe me.'

My mind is still on Zero, I can't let him get hurt. It doesn't matter if I do. If he's hurt, I won't live with myself.

'Don't hurt Zero,' I whisper in a raspy voice.

He looks at my face. Glad I had talked for the first time after the drinking, but angry that it was about something other then him. He frowns.

'If you listen to me I won't.'

I close my eyes to the world. Tomorrow, I will forget everything. The chairman, Yori, Kaname, Zero. Zero. Zero. I feel nothing. I am nothing but thin air. Tomorrow, I will wake up to a Victorian furnished room in Usui Takumi's castle located in the middle of no where. My mind will have stopped working but everyday, I will feel my heart. And I will feel the agonizing pain of it breaking into a million little pieces. Over and over again over something I won't be able to even remember.

(A/N) *Gasp. EPIC. lolies. KAWABUNGA. ok thats enough. i actually had fun writing this chapter. its really small but still...EPIC *is shot.

ok so this was small but i have a surprise next chap ;)