Chapter 15- A Chained Heart

I fall asleep easily because of my exhaustion. I don't remember what I dreamed about but I woke up crying the next morning. When I go down for breakfast Ren isn't there. When I inquire about his where about to Mary, she tells me she hasn't seen him. Mr. Hugh and Mr. Thornton had left so I was alone with Mrs. Sakura. She told me over breakfast that Mr. Takumi was coming back today. The whole meal, my eyes stayed downcast and I just nodded my head. I had never thought of these people as anything but humble for taking me in. Though I had my suspicions about the night Mr. Takemura found me and the questions he would avoid I tried to hide them in a little corner of my mind I never breeched. But now, visions of my past were occurring more frequently, and my dreams seemed more real, though I still couldn't see the face of the person who I would always dream about. Whenever I had these dreams I would wake up crying, I didn't know why though, I was so happy dreaming about it that my heart would be soaring. Maybe it was because I wanted those times to return, for the dreams to last forever, but that's all it was though. A dream.

I get up and excuse myself from the table as Mrs. Sakura starts ranting on about how she doesn't have a proper dress for her dear lover. I walk around the castle because I don't want to stay in my room and think, but I end up thinking anyway. About Ren. I knew he was a part of my past, but I didn't know how big a part he was. A brother, a friend, an acquaintance. He could be anything. I had to remember. Remember. I go out and walk outside through the forest until it's midday.

I return mentally exhausted from thinking to my room just as Mary comes and tells me Mr. Takemura is back, I thank her and go to take a shower. When I get out I wear a white dress that reaches my knees with beads adorning the neckline. My hair is wet so I leave it down. I'm about to leave the room when someone comes in. I turn and see Mr. Takemura, his hand on the door knob, a genuine smile on his face.

'Yuki, my dear,' he comes forward, closing the door. I plastered a smile that I hoped looked real to him as he reaches me. Taking hold of my shoulders, he kisses my forehead. 'How are you?'

I nod my head, bile rising in my throat. 'I'm fine Mr. Takemura, just a little tired,' I say, just in case I looked anything from my usual self.

His eyes appraise me and my stomach churns uncomfortably, he looks me over from head to toe and I feel naked. I smile at him, giving him a reason to keep his eyes on my face. He sighs, pulling me to him in an embrace. I stiffen, his action seem fake and cold. A strange sensation overtakes my body, I feel as if I've matured, as if I've realised something, a puzzle. I know why he is here. He pulls my hair aside, still holding me. I force my thoughts and heart to stop feeling as his hands move over my body, he leans down slightly and kisses the side of my neck. I close my eyes as he licks my skin. Then he plunges his fangs into my skin. I grunt but try not to make another sound as the pain takes over my entire body, making me light headed and weak. I can't think and I clench my hands into fists. Another image invades my mind, it's Mr. Takemura this time and the image is crystal clear. It's a small room and I can see a window from the corner of my eyes with it's curtains bellowing with the wind. It's night and he stands in front of me, light from the moon showers us both.

'I will kill Zero if you don't listen to me.'

My heart starts to beat eratically and my breathing becomes heavy as I become light-headed. What's happening? Did Mr. Takemura know Zero? I try to tell myself to calm down, I'll only hurt myself if I lose my control. He doesn't notice the internal struggle within me except for the incease in the flow of blood from my body to his mouth. I begin to push him away and he let's me go, though there is still a red tint in his eyes. I stare at him seriously. I needed to know and I couldn't bear to avoid it anymore.

'Who is Zero?'

He stiffens, I see his body become immobile for a second and I know my suspicions of Mr. Takemura being involved in my past are right. He looks at me and notices that I'm assessing his reaction. He relaxes and smiles, his eyes still hard.

'What are you talking about Yuki?'

'I've been having visions about a boy. His name is Zero.'

He shakes his head, looking amused but I see his jaw clench. 'Yuki, do you want me to take you to the doctor? Hallucinations are never a good sign.'

I step away from him, anger building inside me but I control myself. 'I'm not hallucinating. And I'm not crazy. I think I knew him from before. Before I came here. But you knew him too didn't you.'

I see him clench and unclench his hands, grinding his teeth together in repressed anger.

'Didn't you threaten to kill him.'

His eyes blaze into mine. I shiver at the impact they have over my body. Fear courses through me but I stand erect and glare back at him.

'Who is Zero?'

His lips turn into a thin line and they snarl at me, his fangs protruding, his eyes red. Shivers wrack my body and before I can blink, I'm pushed against the wall. My head bangs hard against it and my body falls limp. I see sparks appear before my eyes and I wait a few seconds to clear my vision. Another image invades my mind. I'm sitting across the same boy at what looks like an icecream parlour. I can't see his face, no matter how hard I try. Mr. Takemura appears in front of me and grabs my neck in a tight grip. He slams me against the wall, I scream out at the pain and feel an uncomfortable tinkle at the side of my head. His eyes glow red and he licks the blood flowing down my cheeks. I grunt in disgust and try to push him away but his grip is like metal.

'You should have stayed the way you were Yuki. Cute, ignorant Yuki. Then I would not have to kill you.'

My eyes widen and I try to push him again. His grip on my neck tightens and he flings me to the other side of the room as he would a bag of potatoes. I land on the table, spilling all the contents of my desk on the ground. I scream as the edges cut into the sides of my body. I try to stand up but fall in a heap on the ground. I take in gulps of air. I'm going to die. I wanted to lie here and let the end come. I couldn't move. I didn't want to. Let it come. I had nothing. What was the point in living anymore. Ren wasn't here. The only person I had come to care about. A tear slipped from my eyes as I realized that I had loved Ren. I smile as I remember his face, how he cared, how he acted, his blushing face, his smile, his kiss. Ah, his kiss. It felt that my entire life had been waiting for that one moment. His lips on mine. At that moment I was so happy to have these precious memories that I didn't mind dying. I hear his slow footsteps coming towards me. I don't move. He appears in front of me and he brings his face to mine. I feel numb. Ren's face is the only thing in my mind right now. The vampire brings his fangs to my neck again and bites. I clench my eyes and grit my teeth. He wasn't going to kill me just like that. He would make me suffer. He would suck me dry. Time seemed to stop, the saying that your life flashes before your eyes before you die is not a lie because that moment when I felt time stop I remembered every single moment I had had with Ren from the moment I opened the door to the moment he closed mine last night. Just as I felt my strength wane, my body becoming limp and my mind numbing, I remembered the first vision I had had when I was in Ren's arms.

'I love you too Yuki.'

My eyes shoot open as I see him. I see Zero and Ren. My Zero and my Ren. My heart thumps in revelation, my breathing coming out in gasps. Zero…Zero… I remember…Zero. Zero. Zero. Zero. Zero. ZERO. ZERO. My heart explodes in my chest and memories flood into me like a waterfall. The chairman, Kaname, Yori, Mitsuki, Cross Academy, Yuki Cross, Zero. Sobs wrack my body at the weight of these memories. Where am I? where am I? I can't breath. Zero. He was here. Where is he? I have to go to Zero? He'll make everything better. I close my eyes, everything coming back to me in blinding flashes. I had seen him, not even a day ago. He was there, in front of me. I hadn't seen him for a year, a whole year I had been away from him. Tears sprung from my eyes as the hurt came upon me with the realization I had not felt before. I felt like I was falling. I had to leave, I had to get away. I wanted to see Zero. I try prying away from the vampire sucking my blood.

It's been a year, an entire year. Tears slip from my eyes, the vampire on top of me extracts his fangs and leans back up to look at my face. He places a hand gently against my cheek. And looks me in the eye.

I want to hurt him like I've never wanted to hurt anyone in my entire life, it boiled and over-flowed inside me. He had taken me away. He had kidnapped me and here he was drinking from me as if it's the most natural thing to do. I look him straight in the eye, tears still flowing down.

'I wanted to be with you forever.'

My hand finds something that had dropped from the desk and without a second thought I plunge it into the side of his neck. His eyes widen and he falls back. I will my weak body to move with the advantage of the element of surprise. I sway of my feet and the world turns upside down in my eyes but I make my way to the door. I don't look back as I run down the hallway. My knees buckle and it takes everything I have not to fall over myself. There is a coat of armour decorated in a vacant hallway, I remove the sword from it and hold it against me if I needed to defend myself. My clothes are sticky with sweat and blood. And its becoming harder to run when I know how stronger my predator is and in this kind of situation, he has the upper hand. I come to the stairs and sigh in relief. The door was just below the stairs and if I was fast enough I could get out since it was still morning and the vampire hated the sun. I quicken my steps. Suddenly a blow lands directly on my side, knocking me breathless. My eyes blind with the impact and I land on the floor with Usui standing in top of me. He's holding an envelope opener and his wound is healed, though blood steins are still visible. That must have been what I stabbed him with.

'You've made me very angry,' he says through clenched teeth. I try to get up but he suddenly plunges the knife into my shoulder missing my heart by a few inches. For a second my brain registers what has happened and then the pain takes over my entire body and I scream in agony. I push away from him. My instincts still in control and, with the pain of the stab, topple down the stairs. My breathing is heavy and I fall on my stomach at the bottom step. I hear him take one step after another. They echo and I know he does this to scare me. The sadistic monster. I move on my stomach to try and reach the door. Every inch I move send another agonizing pain through my shoulder so much so that I feel that I'm about to pass out. Just as I reach the door he puts his foot on my back, I lay my head down. I knew, from the beginning it was pointless, but I still fought.

'Good bye Yuki.'

I close my eyes and Zero appears in my mind. He's smiling at me

'Your so stupid Yuki.'

I'm angry but his smile melts all my anger, worry, hate, stress away and leaves me filled to the brim with love for him. He'd never know I remembered him. He'd be heart-broken. I finally understand the pain in his eyes every time they met mine, the agony and the battle behind his gaze. Tears slip from my eyes as I await my death. There's a gunshot and my eyes fly open.

'Don't you dare touch her.'

So much venom and hate. There could only be one person I know in this entire world who could muster that much hate. I look up to find Zero standing behind Usui, his gun raised to his head. Usui eyes widen with surprise. Zero's eyes meet mine and his eyes widen as he takes me in; my hair plastered to my face with blood, my white clothes smeared with blood, my face a mixture of fear and exhaustion and relief. My body fills with relief and I suddenly feel light as a feather, my injury forgotten. His eyes burning red in anger.

'Zero.'

He freezes. His eyebrows coming together in confusion for a few seconds. Tears leak out of my eyes. The world seems quiet suddenly. Usui stands stock still with the gun still pointed to his head.

'Yuk-'

He didn't get to finish the sentence before he's pushed to the wall, his gun falling to the ground in a loud clank. Usui has Zero against the wall with a tight grip on his neck. I try to stand but I have lost to much blood and I feel like lead. It feels like the world is on top of me and death comes as a relief for me. My eyes close as im about to pass out. I open my eyes as I hear a grunt coming from Zero. What was I doing? Why was I always so useless to Zero? I couldn't let him die. It takes everything I have to lift myself up and I crawl to the discarded gun lying a few feet away from me. Usui probably thought I was dead or he was too intent on killing Zero that he didn't notice me as I reach the gun and point it to his back. I had never used a gun but Zero had said something when he had told me to kill him.

'Hold the gun with both hands and aim straight. Aim for the center.'

Could I really do it? I ask myself.

'It's not a crime to kill a vampire.'

Before my brain can assess this, my body acts on its own and I shoot before I realize. The mansion echos the effects of the shot. I look to the two fighting. Usui has frozen, they are both breathing hard. I can't move. Usui let's Zero go and turns to me, I see the gunshot, plain as daylight on his back, directly on his heart. I see flakes of ash leave his fingertips and his hair. He looks down on his hands and back up at me. Suddenly, his entire body fades in flash and whats left is a pile of ash and his clothes, bellowing to the ground. Zero stares at his remain then suddenly whips his head in my direction. I can't believe I'm seeing him, I can't believe he's here. I thought I would never see him again. My heart fills and I can't help the tears that leak out of my eyes. Zero's forehead strains and his face contorts in pain. I take a step forward, dropping the gun. My body fails me and I land on my knees. He runs to me and I reach out my hand, tears falling from my eyes. My vision goes black as he reaches me, holding my body to his like a plank. He is here.

(A/N) sorry for the late upload. i had a sudden case of writers block :C mourn for me my minions. anyways ummm this chapters not really editted so if theres any mistakes i dont know how to correct them *a disgrace to all that is fanfic*anyways, love you, review, yay for summer