A/N: Okay Summary is at the bottom of this chapter. But thank you for all the comments! I'll see you guys in 10 days...
Disclaimer: I do not own the song "I Don't Know If I Should Stay" and I don't own the songs in the previous chapter, "Skin" and "There's Us"
Chapter Twenty-One
Walking into the club, nothing Tommy thought of could take his mind off what had happened earlier that day. Not Jeff, not the little outings, and sure as hell not the girls. That was a new one; usually girls could take his mind off of anything, except the difference was that now none of these girls mattered to him anymore. He finally realized the only girl he wants just blew him off because it would be "for the better". How stupid could I be to think she could actually love me? She only wanted to be with me when it was convenient for her. He thought while walking up to the bar with Sadie trailing closely behind him.
He called the bar tender over and ordered himself a shot. One very strong shot. Tommy sat there and threw it all down, loving the way it burned down his throat. He looked over at Sadie who gave him a sexy grin before pulling him toward her suddenly for a kiss.
Tommy was surprised by her random actions, but didn't stop her. Truth was he didn't really care anymore and just went along with it trying to get some feeling out of it. Just something to get my mind off of her…he thought deepening the kiss. Sadie moved closer to him, wrapping her arms around his neck to play with his hair. Flashes of Jude ran through his head like wild fire.
Tommy grunted and pulled away frustratingly. No matter how much he wanted to feel, to get his mind off of Jude, it wasn't working. God why does she have that stupid power over me?! He thought turning away from Sadie, mumbling something along the lines of using the bathroom.
Making his way through the dance floor he noticed that instead of a DJ there was going to be live entertainment tonight. Getting closer he was able to see the backdrop to the stage was advertising Jude's album. Oh no…not tonight…no. As quickly as humanly possible he made a bee-line for the nearest exit, only to be cut short by the one and only.
"Tom you can't leave, you guys are being filmed tonight," Jeff stated with serious authority. Behind the professional exterior, Tommy saw the intense effort he was putting forth to keep from flashing one of his smug grins. Jeff definitely knew the reason for Tom's quick attempt at escape, and enjoyed every minute of stopping it. Tommy shifted his stance anxiously, not knowing if he was going to be able to control his anger.
"Fine, but just leave me the hell alone," he stated harshly through clenched teeth. Reluctantly he turned back to the stage as Jude was walking on. He felt the all too familiar pang in his gut as he watched her grab the microphone to sing "My Sweet Time".
Whether he liked it or not, she was very alluring. Too alluring. As the song continued he found himself making his way closer to the stage, blending in with the horde of fans dying to touch the stage.
Jude finished the last few chords of the song finally feeling at peace. There was just something relaxing yet invigorating about playing her music for the fans. The aura of a stage performance was the reason why she stayed at G-major under a record contract. Writing the music was the first step, but performing it was the icing on the cake.
Smiling widely, she felt herself slowly forgetting about the complications that surrounded her life. That was until she spotted Tommy in the crowd. Go figure, as soon as she had started to relax on stage, it all washed away in just one glance.
Fighting the urge to cry she went over to grab her acoustic, ready to sing her song for Jeff. Picking it up out of the case, a small piece of paper caught her eye. It was crumpled up, like the many other sheets of lyrics that she kept. However, one line caught her eye that suddenly pushed Jeff aside for the moment.
A weird feeling coursed through her as she reflexively put down her guitar, walking over to the piano instead. She didn't know what she was about to play, and just ran her hands lightly over the keys. The fans waited anxiously in anticipation. The chords to an unfinished song flashed in her mind almost instantly. Before she could fully think it through, she was playing them, drawing them out in a slow rhythm. Soon everyone in the audience had her attention as she finally found some inspiration…
Where's my will?
Can I find a way?
The earth is wild
And I cant sit still
Jude thought to the time Tommy played his song secretly for her at the eliminations. Then how right it sounded when he confessed his love for her. She sang with a voice full of emotion continuing….
A familiar sound
A familar voice
Makes it so hard
To make a choice
I don't know if I should stay
A thousand stars
You will have my world
I'm bright enough
To fill these cracks
Jude then thought of home. Of her family, her friends, her career. The image of Tommy and her at the dock crept in ever so slowly…
A familiar place
A familiar voice
Makes it so hard
To make a choice
I don't know if I should stay
I ran to you like water
I threw my body in,
And I'll stand up on the ocean
Just to show you that I am strong-strong
But what if I am wrong?
At last she looked up into the audience and locked gazes with Tommy. She couldn't tear herself away. All she could see was the two of them in the room, and flashbacks of their times together, never wanting to lose sight of them and making sure he never did either.
A familiar Look
A familiar Smile
Makes it so hard
To make a choice
I don't know if I should stay
ooooh...
Away...
Tommy and Jude were still in a staring contest when the chords faded away. She was completely oblivious to her fans cheering or anything else going on around them. She could see the love and anger in his eyes, and he could see the hurt and pain in hers. Finally realizing that her band was waiting for her, she tore her eyes away from his and forced herself to continue on with the show.
After noticing where Tommy ran off to, Sadie sneaked up to him and wrapped her arms around his waist. It took Tommy by surprise and he whirled around to greet an impatient Harrison. Maybe not the Harrison he wanted, but nevertheless, she wanted him. Maybe this was wrong, but if Jude wasn't willing to fight for him like he was for her, than why should it even matter anymore? Jude could sing all the songs she wanted, and god did he love them; her voice was hypnotic. But if she wasn't willing to put her feelings into actions, then their relationship was done for. So instead of pining over someone who constantly changed her mind about him, he felt the steadier one was the best choice for him.
At least that was what he was trying to convince himself.
"What have you been doing? You just kind of left me earlier. You okay?" she asked, sounding genuinely concerned for once. Tommy just shrugged, not wanting to bombard her with the truth. Man, my life is becoming a freaking soap opera.
"Um…yeah I'm fine. I was just trying to relax and get away from the cameras a little bit," he half lied.
"Are you sure?" Tommy looked toward the stage at Jude who was getting ready to perform her next song.
"Yeah…I'm sure," he replied looking back to Sadie. Her eyes bore into him, but he couldn't see himself in them. He stared at her and only saw the crazed fan that at one point could've been a one night stand he never looked back on. Then he turned again, walking away from her. As quickly as the thought of actually dating Sadie entered his mind, it left instantaneously.
Who am I kidding I don't want Sadie…but I can't have Jude either…so what's the sense in keeping Sadie on the show? It will just hurt both me and Jude even worse. If I send Sadie home, those will be two problems gone. Then I can just pick Rachel, date her for a while then dump her. Just like all the other girls in my life…well, except the one who dumped me…
Summary For "Fatal Tempation": A new fic
Jude Harrison has made a new name for herself as an up-and-coming A-list actress, and her agent just got her a movie audition with heart throb Tommy Quincy. Too bad Jude despises him. Then again, Jude despises any "excuse for a man", especially after her sudden departure from the music industry seven years ago. She's now 22, and living the single life as any single New-Yorker would. G-major is just a whipser in her past...but for how long? When a shady figure from a dark past of horror comes back to haunt her, how long is it until he finds her? Or has he already? Memories she thought were forgotten long ago rise up once again, leaving her scared for her life. As things take a turn for a worse, Jude has to resort to the one person she hated most, the person who seems a bigger danger than any stalker. Her own Fatal Temptation: Tom Quincy.
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