A/N: Once again, thanks for reading! Make sure to leave some reviews for Fatal Temptation as well, I would really like to see what more of you think of it. Personally I think it's going to be better than this one, but that's my opinion. Anyway, here's chapter 29, I've started (barely) writing the sequel to this, and I'm trying to get as much as I can done with that. I start school tomorrow, so be warned...I'll be busy as hell, lol. I have a full honors schedule plus soccer and band, so these first few weeks I may not have much time to write or post, but I'll do my best. Anyhoo hope you enjoy the chapter, remember to review!
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Walking back into the mansion, Tommy and Jude received jealous glares from passing girls. They had missed the limo back to the mansion because of the 'hold up' and it caused hard feelings between Jude and the rest. Not to mention Jude was wearing Tommy's jacket, they were both soaked, and were still holding hands. However if anyone's stare could cause hell to not only freeze over, but end the world, it would be Sadie. Her gaze cut straight through them, her face the same color as the fire-engine red dress she was wearing. The camera crew went haywire the minute they stepped into the main hall, not wanting to miss a minute of the action. Sadie became even more infuriated at the fact that not only was her sister stealing her boyfriend, but all her camera time. Without being able to stand there any longer Sadie stomped over to Jude, grabbing her by the arm.
"We need to talk…NOW!" Glancing over at the camera crew she flashed them a smile before turning back to Jude. She didn't have one problem humiliating her sister in front of the camera, not after what she had done. However before Sadie had a chance to go off on one of her tangents, Jude quickly dragged her off to a side room closing the door so that no one could get in. "Hey, what are you doing!" Sadie yelled, yanking her arm away from Jude's hold.
"You wanted to talk, so talk," Jude said in harsh tones standing hand on hip.
"Ok, I only have one question for you."
"Shoot."
"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING!" Sadie yelled. Jude cringed at her voice. She was sure that the whole mansion had heard her, easily; probably all of L.A. for that matter.
The way Jude saw it she had three choices. One, she could play dumb and pretend she didn't know what Sadie was talking about. Two, she could just go right into defense mode and start an argument. Or three, she could run for her life. The latter seemed very tempting, seeing as how the door was straight behind her, but decided that she couldn't run in heels, and the camera crew would probably get some footage of an all out cat fight. Better to leave the cameras out of this…Jude thought before finally answering Sadie.
"I don't know what to say Sadie. I really don't."
"How about you're sorry and that you promise to BACK OFF!" Sadie screamed, not letting up her tone in the slightest.
"Ok, Sadie calm down! We don't need this to get public. But I'm sorry," Jude spoke shaking her head slightly, "I can't back off." Her eyes averted from her sister's not wanting to see the anger in them. Hesitating slightly she spoke, "I love him, Sadie."
Jude thought for sure Sadie would've had a heart attack, instead her eyes bulged out of their sockets and her jaw fell down almost touching the floor.
"You…WHAT?!"
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean for it to happen, and believe me that was the LAST thing I expected to happen. But it did, and now I can't just let that get away," Jude spoke softly and slowly, not wanting to get Sadie even more riled up than before. Sadie paced back and forth through the room not looking at Jude. When she spoke again, Jude had to strain to hear her.
"How could you? This has been my dream for so long, and it was going so well for me. And of course when ever something good always happens, it gets messed up. Or you always have something better or more interesting to talk about in yours! This was my one shot; I thought I could trust you being on the show. I guess now I can't," Sadie spoke before walking past Jude to the door. She opened it to leave but turned back, "This is not over, I'm not giving up that easily," Sadie finished, exiting the room.
For the first time since arriving at the mansion Jude actually felt guilty. Sadie had done nothing to her to deserve this; all she wanted was for her sister to stay with her while competing on the show. Now Jude had wrecked her dream. Not on purpose, but still she had interfered with her life.
Walking over to a chair, Jude slouched down and brought her hand to the side of her head. Feeling guilty was not the best feeling in the world. Especially since she also knew there was nothing she could do to fix it. I can't leave the show because I'll get sued. I can't back off Tommy because I love him and am tired of hiding it. But at the same time I can't stay with him, at least not permanently, because of the damn producers…Jude was torn away from her thoughts, hearing the door crack open.
Tommy stepped inside slowly with a serious expression on his face. Walking over to Jude he grabbed her hands and stood her up on her feet. Pulling her in for a hug she held onto him tightly, burying her head in the crook of his neck. She let a few tears fall down her cheek, only to be caught by Tommy's already soaked shirt. Finally releasing his hold he wiped away her remaining tears with his thumbs.
Jude backed away from him and walked over to the windowsill, looking out at the water that was cascading down the glass. Taking a deep breath Jude spoke, not looking at Tommy.
"She wants me to back off," Jude said not bothering to say Sadie's name. Tommy knew who she was talking about. He walked over to Jude and stood right in front of her, staring into her tear-stained eyes.
"What do you want?" He asked never breaking the eye contact. Jude gave him a half smile.
"I want you…" she replied, causing a grin to split across Tommy's face. He stepped closer placing a feather-light kiss on her lips. Stepping back Jude gave him another half smile. Tommy knew something was bugging her, something that he couldn't quite place.
"What's wrong?" he asked caringly placing a hand on her shoulder.
"Tommy we need to talk," she spoke, the serious expression upon Tommy's face once again. "I want to be with you, more than anything. But there are some…complications preventing the long term," Jude finished, choosing her words carefully. Tommy's eyes were full of questions, but he willed her to continue before he jumped to conclusions.
"One of the complications being that I can't tell you what the actual problem is. You see, that's why I kept trying to push you away before, because I didn't want you thinking that I had conspired something against you. I didn't want you to hate me," she spoke softly searching his face for a response.
"I could never, ever, hate you Jude," he spoke bringing a hand to her face. "Whatever it is, we'll get through it together, I promise." Jude stared at him, knowing he was sincere, but wasn't sure at how well that promise would turn out. Sure he could promise things now, but how was he going to take it when he finds out that Jude will take the million dollars?
"That's easy for you to promise now, but I'm not so sure that it's a promise we'll be able to keep."
"Says who?"
"Says me," she replied making Tommy even more confused. The way she was talking sounded like she kept contradicting herself. She wants Tommy, but they can't be together and doesn't want to promise to be by his side.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean I can't promise anything because, honestly, I have no clue how it's going to turn out. But I've decided one thing, I'm tired wasting what we have left fighting when we could be having the time of our lives," she finished off smoothly.
"Ok forget about all of the extra crap. Forget about the problems and Sadie, just forget about the complications. Do you love me?"
"Yes."
"Then everything will be alright," he said reassuringly embracing her in a hug. Jude couldn't help but give in to him. She always felt safe when she was around him, like nothing could go wrong. He kissed the top of her forehead as they eased out of the embrace. Jude smiled weakly back at him.
"You know when you take away the tacky boy band music, and the white bandana, you're not half bad," Jude joked walking away from the window. Tommy just let out a small laugh.
"Oh you know me, anything for the ladies."
"Oh please. I don't see how any girl could go for a cocky, arrogant, pop star," she said challenging him.
"Oh yeah? Well your sister did," Tommy replied. As soon as he said this he knew he struck a chord and said the wrong thing…again.
"Come again?"
"Nothing, I didn't mean anything by it," he said trying to save his ass.
"No, you meant something by it," she replied getting angry and closing the space between them, "you like her don't you! Admit it!"
"No, Jude I don't."
"Don't lie to me."
"Ok, fine I might like her a little bit but…" he got cut by Jude. Tommy then realized that he said the wrong thing…again. Jeez why do I always have to be such a screw up…
"You see! There's not one thing my sister has wanted that she hasn't gotten," Jude spoke, her temper rising. Tommy tried again to clear the situation.
"She doesn't have me Jude…"
"Why, because I've got you? Oh no, did you forget that you are still supposedly her 'boyfriend'?" Jude replied using air quotes. Tommy mentally slapped himself on the head. Why didn't I just break up with her? That could've saved me a lot of trouble…Tommy thought finally realizing he wouldn't be able to win this argument. He ran his hands through his hair turning away from Jude obviously frustrated.
"You can't possibly think I want Sadie?"
"It would sure make things a hell of a lot easier," she spoke bitterly walking straight past him and out the door. Tommy stared after her, not knowing what to do. He figured she just needed some time to cool off, then she would come around. He walked back to the couch and sat down, trying to clear his head. Why does Sadie always find some way to screw things up?
Jude escaped the room hurriedly running up to her room. She didn't know why she had blown up like that. She knew Tommy would never choose her sister over her. That was what scared her, though. Even though she told herself she would be fine with their relationship until the finale, something inside her just snapped, causing her to vent her frustrations in a different place. Why can't I just confront my fears head on? Jude thought taking off her water soaked clothes, thinking about how much things had changed in just one day.
