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~AliceSwift
"I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up. Leave me with some kine of proof it's not a dream."
~The Only Exception.
~Paramore.
We were in the bed of Edward's truck. We were in a field about ten miles away from town. Honey Creek ran fluidly, gracefully behind us and we could only hear three sounds. Our breathing, our heartbeats, and the sound of a cricket's tune falling into the background like music.
"Today was amazing Edward." I said in a tone just above a whisper. There didn't need to be conversation, but I wanted to hear his voice. I was leaning on his chest, there was a brown fleece blanket over us and we had been looking at the stars. He looked down at me now.
"Only because it was spent with you." he said and I smiled. He kissed my forehead before leaning down to touch my lips.
I loved this day, but there was something inside of me that told me it wasn't enough. I knew that this could very well be the last real date Edward and I have before he was sent away. The last time that we would truly be eachother's and no one else's. This could be the last time that we could just be ourselves and not worry about on lookers and what they thought.
As I thought about our day together I realized just how much it had made me forget. Though it was always clouding my mind the could became nothing more than a fog as the day turned to dusk.
We had gone out, ditched school and just had fun. Enjoying eachother's company. We had gone to the park. Watched the younger children play, wide eyed and in bliss oblivion. Wishful thinking made me want to go back to that time when war wasn't something I had to face, something that grown-ups dealt with. War used to be a card game, not something that came into my life took my boyfriend and dragged him away to fight in a war that had nothing to do with him.
When Jasper was taken away I watched Alice. I watched her life crumble beneath her. Shatter into millions of tiny pieces under the pressure of her life. How could her own fate betray her that way? Take the book of her life, birth to death, and shake up the teenage years so something so tragic would happen. I watched her suffer through that, yet still get up every morning to greet another day and I knew I would never be that strong.
But now I knew that I would have to be that strong. That brand of courage that could only penetrate from the most powerful of people.
"I love you Edward." I said quietly.
"I love you too, Bella." he whispered to me, kissing behind my ear, down my neck, then up my jaw until he reached my lips.
I don't remember the day that I had to grow-up. I don't remember the day someone cursed me and said may adulthood come upon you . I always thought, well up until just a few days ago, that I never would really have to grow up. I could have that Peter-Pan complex until the day I died, gray haired and ill. I always thought that growing up could just mean knowing when to make the right decisions and when to make them. The rest of the time you could be playful and imaginative and not have to worry about the flaws of life until decision making time came.
Now I realize that pressure of making those decisions weighed more than I could have ever imagined, and that realization was a cold, snow covered thought.
I wondered if that ice of adulthood could ever be melted, surely it could. With days like today, with people like Edward, that come along and bless us with warmth, there had to be a way to make the freeze pass.
Edward, the gorgeous boy who I had known my entire life. It was to him that I had expressed my deepest fears, so why was I shying away from that now.
If he was going to...die... then I wanted there to be nothing left unsaid, no space untouched, no surface a virgin to our conversation.
"I'm scared." I said. My voice sounding to plain and simple to match my swirling thoughts.
"Of what?" he asked. I wasn't sure if he was being sarcastic or if he was trying to cover up that he was scared too.
"What isn't there to be scared of Edward?" I asked, sitting up to look at him. "You're going off to war and I'll have to wake up to every day never knowing if during the next hour there's going to be a knock on my door reporting your death. I'll have to go to every football game on Fridays and pray through the tears that they don't announce your name on the list of local soldiers that've passed. I'll never know if you're okay, or if you're dying and honestly Edward that terrifies me." Tears started pooling in the corners of my eyes.
"Shhh, Bella." he said, sitting up and taking me into his arms. I quickly wrapped mine around him. I think somewhere inside of me a younger Bella would've hoped that if I could just hug him long enough he would miss his train. He wouldn't have to go to fight and no one would ever notice.
But a grown Bella knew that someone would and this hug, like all bliss, would have to end.
"Bella, I need you to be strong. I have no more insight on this than you do." he searched my eyes and I sniffled back the tears. "I need you to stay here and let everyone know that we're doing fine, even if we're not. I need you to tell everyone that I'm okay up until the day, God forbid it ever come, that you get a letter saying I'm dead." I started sobbing and he pushed back the blanket and took my hands in his. "I need you Bella."
My sobs got caught in my throat and I looked at him. His green eyes, sparkling under nothing but the moonlight reflecting off the water. I scanned down, his perfect figure that would never live up to anyone elses I could ever lay eyes on.
After the war, the body I may never lay eyes on again.
I jumped on him then, my legs wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck.
"Edward." I breathed, not sure where my sentence was going. His hands were on my back, pulling me closer until there was no space between our bodies. Just one unit, hearts beating at a terrifying pace in unison.
Blood pulsed behind my ears and my breathing became quick and shallow. I suddenly had this aching need in side my stomach. That need of wanting something more. That voice in my head that was telling my to tie myself to Edward in every way I could possibly think of.
That voice was saying make him yours.
I then realized that this aching wasn't as sudden as I might have believed. It had carried me through the day, and, unlike the other things I had recently realized, it had a white hot energy that radiated through my veins and into my heart.
I pulled back to look at Edward. His green eyes connected to a heart and soul who had no idea of what had just gone through my mind.
I put my lips on his and the way he kissed me made me think that he was taken aback by my sudden act of passion.
This kiss was untouched territory. Not something that we had ever experienced before. We had kissed multiple times, but never like this. Never with this amount of heat and energy.
His soft lips would normally barely touch mine, a tender peck on the lips before class, saying goodnight, or wishing each other luck at the big game that night. Now it was his lips against mine, I was a part of this too. His warm mouth opened against mine as we moved together in perfect unison. One wave of emotion, never two acting off each other.
His tongue ran across my bottom lip before slipping onto mine. I moaned at the aching pain that was increasing within me.
He pulled me closer into him and I was almost positive that he wanted me as much as I wanted him.
I thought about that, then realized this wasn't a want. It was a need, a need for each other.
I unlaced my arms from around his neck and ran them down the smooth surface of his shirt until I reached the very end of the fabric.
I yanked off his shirt without hesitation and then put my hands on him. His perfect, marble chest. Pale yet beautiful in every way that a man ever could be.
"Bella," he moaned into my mouth. He turned over quickly, so he was on top of me but I also didn't feel any of his weight on me. He kissed my neck, then my shoulder until he reached my collar bone, his head was on the back of my head so I didn't hit the back of the truck.
I caressed his chest in adoration, yet still I wasn't satisfied.
"Edward, I-" I sighed in pain, trying to make it go away yet still contemplating the choice I had in front of me.
"I know." he said, pulling away for a moment.
In that moment I was positive.
I slid my hands down his chest, taking in every curve and angle of him before I came to the soft denim fabric of his jeans.
"Bella, are you sure?" he asked, lust a slight haze over his eyes. His hand over mine, strong while our emotions were on fire. I knew that he would be only slightly disappointed if I decided to back out. I still could, easily.
"Yes." I nodded and he smiled crookedly.
I undid the button on his pants but before I could get them all the way off he had me in his arms, sitting up again. He reached down and held the fabric at the bottom of my dress in his hands. He looked at me and I nodded in reassurance, heart racing with excitement.
He ripped away the fabric, taking it over my head and tossing it the other way. He grabbed the back of my head and brought his lips to mine again. I grabbed down at his thighs and started moving his jeans down until they were at his ankles, he kicked them off.
Soon we were both fully exposed in nothing but skin. He laid me down on the blanket that way luckily beneath us.
He started at my ankles, planting soft and caring kisses on my body. With each kiss that was planted grew a whole other level of ecstasy. Another level of wanting, needing, aching.
His warm lips made me shiver when he pulled away, the cold air giving me goosebumps. His skin on mine the only thing that would truly warm me tonight.
Eventually his lips made his way between my breasts and to my neck. He started nibbling at the skin tenderly, between each graze of his teeth he kissed my neck. I moaned his name out and I heard him chuckle.
"Are you ready?" he murmured. I was confused at first but then I understood.
I stuttered out a shaky, breathy yes.
Suddenly something filled me with pain. I yelped out, shutting my eyes, seeing bright neon colors of lust and passion.
"Open your eyes." he said and I listened. I wondered how he knew what to do and the things to say. The places to touch and the tones of voice to use. "Now, don't close you eyes again. I want you to look into my eyes and never look away."
So I did, I let my eyes melt into his. Green pools of water, shimmering in the light of the moon and stars. Not a dark forest green, but a magical, beautiful green that invited me in. Taking me into to a world of enchantment and loveliness. Once I was there I didn't want to leave, I didn't want to back away, especially without knowing the pain that might await me on the other side. All I heard of that side was Edward, saying my name. Breathing in and out, his breaths the same pace as my footsteps as I walked through this world. Searching for him, calling his name as well.
Suddenly I saw those bright colors again, they clouded my vision and blocked the world that I loved and wanted so much to be a part of. A world that went far beyond Edward's eyes. A world where all the ice melted away and everyone and everything lived in warmth. A world where that aching disappeared and I was at the peak of this bliss. A world where there was nothing but me and Edward.
Edward leaned in and planted one last kiss on my lips. Long lasting, forever radiating. He rolled over and laid beside me.
I was brought back into the real world. Laying on the Honey Creek beds with Edward in his truck, my head on his bare chest, his hand running through my hair. His arms were around me and I felt on top of the world in his embrace. I felt like nothing else mattered at that moments except the mountain that we had just climbed together, reached the summit together.
He kissed the top of my head gingerly.
We were about ten miles away from town. Honey Creek ran fluidly, gracefully behind us and we could only hear three sounds. Our breathing, our heartbeats, and the sound of a cricket's tune falling into the background behind us like music.
"Today was amazing Edward." I said, just above a whisper. There didn't need to be conversation, but I wanted to hear his voice one last time before falling asleep here in his arms.
"Only because it was spent with you, love." he said. He kissed my forehead before leaning down to touch my lips.
I loved this day, and there was something inside of me that told me it was enough. For now.
I then let my eyes close and let my mind drift off into bliss oblivion, just like a child.
Hey guys, writing this chapter for me was in alot of ways easy and alot of ways hard. This is really my first lemon if you could call it that. Um, while writing this the characters really spoke to me and just let me know how to write things and I really loved that. They made me realize that they don't see having sex as doing it they see it as a way of tying yourself to another person and I think that's something really beautiful.
So, I hope you had as much fun reading it as I did writing it because writing it was a huge eye opener.
Also, I would love it if you guys could not only leave your thoughts but give me some helpful criticism. While all flames are openly welcome I would love it for someone to review and say That was good, but have you ever thought about trying this instead?
Also, don't be smart and leave just that italicized comment in a review.
Actually go ahead that would be hysterical.
Anyways, thank you so much for reading! You're all awesome!
lots. of. love.
PLT!
~AliceSwift