2/20/2008
"Wonderful, Just great!" I heeded to, as a man stood in front of me, face not seen because his back was turned toward me. "You'd think after so many years it would run smoothly at least once!" He stormed.
I wondered who this man was, yet for some reason I thought I had already known him. "Excuse me sir? But may I ask what's wrong?" I asked politely.
"Oh you know certainly well what's wrong—." He then turned around showing himself to me. "My dear, Rose." He said smiling ear to ear.
Then suddenly he walked toward me still smiling a very seductive smile.
"W-Who are you?" I stuttered.
"Oh you know who I am." He answered.
Then almost as if he had known me my whole life, almost as if I had known him my whole life, we kissed. His soft yet rough lips on my own soft tender lips felt like it had hit home. I wanted him, not just because he was the ultimate form of gorgeousness, not just because he had the most piercing blue eyes, nor because he had the most perfectly shadowy brown hair that I had ever seen. No, it wasn't because any of that. It was only for the simple fact that I loved him.
And, I didn't know why.
I jumped up swiftly, sitting on my twin sized bed sweaty and wet from the haughty dream. I was breathing heavily and felt that I had just dreamt of something that I hadn't dreamt of in a long time. For some reason I can't pin point who that man was, though I know he was important, I know that I had been something to him, that he had been something to me.
"God, why are you up so early?" My dorm roommate spoke bleary and drowsy.
"I'm sorry Kayley. Go back to sleep I'll wake you when you need to get up for classes." I said still sounding heavy-eyed myself.
"Ok." She whispered so low that I almost couldn't here her. Then she was out like a light before I could say goodnight.
After high school I went straight to college ready to leave my mother behind. A small number of kids from my graduation year went to the same school now. Really only one person I know for sure came to this school along with me. We never really got along until recently; he wasn't ever really the talking type. Blake was very remote most of the time, about two years ago, but he became utterly different. He and I have become really close actually.
I couldn't even try to get some more sleep because of the throbbing head ache that had started to form. I sat up once again and started to Kayley's and my own bathroom, and then looked in the mirror. I saw a girl with blue-green eyes, long blonde hair with bid flowy curls, and a nice hourglass shape, but if I stare at her closer I see unconditional sadness within, depression written all over her face like she's having a hard time finding what ever she's been looking for. Then I wonder if this girl is really me in the mirror or just a girl meant to replace the real me. I bent down and splashed my face with water. The water was warm and felt good, but it didn't calm me at all. I sighed loudly. I stood in front of the sink, thinking about anything that could change how I feel.