Alice and I had just left the mall. The jewlry stores we looked in had nice things, I even considered a few. However, none of them were perfect. None of them would make Bella want to say yes to my proposal.

I tried to picture what her face would look like when I presented her with the ring. I tried to imagine what some of them would look like on her finger. But nothing sufficed what I wanted. I suppose that none of them were Bella.

"You've been awful quiet." Alice mentioned as we headed back to my house.

"I guess." I shrugged. It was true. I just couldn't get what had happened last night out of my head. Bella waking up terrified in the middle of her dream. It broke my heart to know that what I had to do hurt her this badly.

"Why?" Alice asked. I almost smiled. Alice was never one to settle for just any answer, and if you continued to lie to her she normally would find out one way or another. Besides, maybe if I told her what had happened she could sympathize with Bella in some way. Judging by how she acted when Jasper found out he had to leave, she probably had similar nightmares.

"It's Bella." I said, I could feel her eyes on me.

"What's wrong? I mean, you guys seemed pretty cozy when I came by to pick up the kids." I knew that she was getting at the fact that Bella and I possibly could've broken up.

"Oh, no it's nothing like that." I assured her.

"Then what is it?" We pulled up in my driveway and she parked, pulling her keys out of the ignition.

"You know Bella talks in her sleep." I said turning towards her, she was looking at me.

"I think everyone that's ever seen her sleep knows that she talks in her sleep." she laughed and I smiled.

"Well, last night as usual, she was mumbling but then what she said became very, very clear." I said, I felt my eyes widen, thinking back.

"Yes." Alice pressed. I blinked and looked at her.

"Alice, I think she had a nightmare." I looked at her desperately, hoping she would understand because I didn't think I could say it aloud.

She looked confused for a moment but then nodded, her expression smooth.

"I see." she said.

"How can I do this to her?" I started. "I can't leave, Alice. She looked so pained by whatever was happening in her dream."

"I know it's hard but you both have to be strong." she said and tears were in her eyes. I hoped that me talking to her about this hadn't reminded her of her dreams about Jasper, but then again, who else could I talk to about this. I'd like to talk to Bella, but she probably wouldn't fess up to the truth. There was my mother, of course, but I didn't want to give her night mares. And I didn't really want to get this emotional in front of my father. That left Alice, who I knew would be there to listen.

"What if I died? In her dream, I mean. If it hurt her that bad and she knew that I was really right next to her then what will happen if I really die?" I was going to continue but she stopped me.

"No, Edward. I will not allow you to think that way. That is no attitude to have the week before you leave for war."

"Then what is?" I asked and she was silenced.

She wiped a few tears from her face and sighed. "I don't know." she shrugged and smiled. "But I do know that negativity won't get you anywhere."

"When did you get so smart?" I asked. I'll never forget the day that she came over to Bella's when I was there, sobbing about how Jasper had been drafted. And rightfully so.

"Well, Jasper sends letters, you know that." I nodded. "And he says that in the army you look out for eachother. No matter how much you might dislike a person, or how much you tell yourself that you're miserable. You can't really be. You can be down sometimes but there's always someone there to pick you up. So, in my mind, as long as you make friends, you'll be fine."

I wanted to believe her. I wanted to nod and smile and give her a hug. But I knew that I would be lying. How could everything be fine when there were people out there trying to kill you everyday? Nothing would be fine.

"Alice will you promise me something?" I asked and she looked up.

She nodded. "Of course, Edward." she smiled. "What is it?"

"That when I'm away you'll take care of Bella. I know she had Emmett and Charlie, but Charlie isn't always as kind as you are and Emmett get riled up by things way too easily." she laughed and I smiled.

"Of course, Edward." she nodded.

We said our goodbyes and I walked inside.

I remember waking up, seeing Edward, touching his chest, feeling his heart beat, he was there. But I suppose that then I went back to sleep because then he wasn't.

It was all very confusing. The bombs, the gunshots, the fire. Men ran across the snowy field holding rifles, dressed in green.

"Edward?" I called out. No one turned to look but maybe that's because no one could hear me over the comotion.

It was very cold and I knew that something was wrong. My arms crossed my chest.

"Edward where are you?" I called out louder. I started to cry when someone knocked into me, pushing me onto the ground, my hands and knees now wet.

I looked around when I thought I saw him. I'm not quite sure what convinced me it was him, but that didn't matter because he soon feel to his knees, doubling over.

"Edward!" I ran towards him and, after what seemed ike hours, reached where he was.

He was face down in the snow and unmoving. I turned him over.

The was a wound, a gun shot in his lower abdomen, not a good place to get hit.

I pushed my hand down to try and stop the bleeding. His face wrinkled in pain and I felt terrible.

"Oh god." my hand touched his face though he didn't seem to feel it. His green eyes opened up and looked up at me. I smiled, thinking that he had responded to the call of his name. But when he didn't smile back, I panicked.

"No, please," I begged. I pushed my hand to his now bare chest, trying to feel a thumping pattern which would be his heart beat but nothing was there. Nothing was there to let me know that he was still alive and with me.

"Wake up, please." I yelled. I looked around but no one was there. The once crowded space was now empty. "Someone help!" I called but no one was there. No one was there to help and my guess was that even if there was they wouldn't have cared.

"Edward." I looked back down at him but he was gone. There was nothing but snow beneath my hand.

"Edward." I called out again, but this time I opened my eyes, seeing not a snowy feild but my room. However, Edward wasn't beside me as I had wished he would be.

I tried to calm my breathing, he had probably just left when my dad got home. Still I felt as though I needed to make sure he was okay.

I called him and Esme answered.

"Hello?" she seemed cheery which was a good sign.

"Esme, hi. Is Edward there I need to speak with him."

"Yes, Bella, of course." she held the phone away and I heard he call for him.

It was his voice I heard next. "Bella?" he asked and I nearly cried.

I breathed, not realizing that I hadn't been. "Edward."

"I left your house just a little while ago. You can't tell me you miss me that much already." he sounded like he was smiling. I didn't respond. "Bella are you there?"

"Hm, yes. Um, I just needed to hear your voice that's all." I admitted.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, just, can you meet me or something? Somewhere. I just really want to see you."

He sighed. "Bella, I hate to tell you this but Esme and I are going out of town until Monday, we're visiting family that want to see me before I leave."

"Oh," I said, trying not to sound too dissapointed.

"I'll come and say goodbye though."

"Wait, you're leaving now?"

"Yes in a few hours I still need to pack, though."

"Okay, I'll see you before you leave." I said and he agreed, telling me he loved me before he hung up his line.

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